posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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I feel the same way sometimes, after a hard day, just a 'little something' to relax me, to level the day off, would be nice. But then, I remember the loneliness it brought, along with the other sh!te!
I would do 5 to 7 day runs and never sleep, so yes the night time was the hardest but I didnt have to worry much cause the only place that can get me clean is a cell! But I still get some pretty good using dreams to remind me of where I dont want to be anymore!
man im actually thankful for that last cell i was in, it forced me to detox and i prayed everyday for the strenght to not use but the opiate sickness would get me everytime. its crazy cause i had using dreams every time i closed my eyes in there for about 2 months and it was really getting to me because at that time i had already surrendered and wanted to be clean so the dreams were aweful i would wake up depressed and angry..so thats when i really found faith in my higher power to lead the way, i got down on my knees and prayed harder than i ever had for the dreams and urges to be gone..i havnt had a using dream to this day and that was 2 years ago.
May 22
Symptoms of a spiritual awakening
“The steps lead to an awakening of a spiritual nature. This awakening is evidenced by changes in our lives.”
Basic Text, p. 49
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We know how to recognize the disease of addiction. Its symptoms are indisputable. Besides an uncontrollable appetite for drugs, those suffering exhibit self-centered, self-seeking behavior. When our addiction was at its peak of activity, we were obviously in a great deal of pain. We relentlessly judged ourselves and others, and spent most of our time worrying or trying to control outcomes.
Just as the disease of addiction is evidenced by definite symptoms, so is a spiritual awakening made manifest by certain obvious signs in a recovering addict. We may observe a tendency to think and act spontane
Self centered self seeking behavior! That pretty much sums up my story! even today with many years of recovery, sponsee's, a home group, lots of work man im still fucked up when it comes to this, getting better but still fucked up. First thought is always about myself, second thought is "man im fucked up what about everybody else"!
thats what we are man self centered obsessed addicts,,but with the steps and fellowship we slowy become better and learn who we are. i try to do something good for someone else everyday just to try to keep me off myself im the most self centered ego maniac ive ever met lol
May 21, 2012
Keep coming back!
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"Meetings keep us in touch with where we've been, but more importantly with where we could go in our recovery."
Basic Text, p. 56
In many ways, addicts are different. When we came to Narcotics Anonymous we found others like ourselves, people who understood us and whom we could understand. No longer did we feel like aliens, strangers wherever we went. We were at home in NA meetings, among friends.
We don't stop being addicts after we've been clean awhile. We still need to identify with other addicts. We continue coming to NA meetings to keep in touch with who we are, where we've come from, and where we're going. Every meeting reminds us that we can never use drugs successfully. Every meeting reminds us that we'll never be cured, but that by practicing the principles of the program we can recover. And every meeting offers us the experience and example of other addicts in ongoing recovery.
At meetings, we see how different people work their program, and the results are apparent in their lives. If we want the lives we see others living, we can find out what they've done to get where they are. Narcotics Anonymous meetings offer us identification with where we've been and where we can go-identification we can't do without and can't get anywhere else. That keeps us coming back.
Just for Today: I will attend an NA meeting to remind myself of who I am, where I've come from, and where I can go in my recovery.
I love it! I bet if I tell my sponsor he'll make me write an essay on what tradition im violating!
Well the way I look at it we are all really anonymous here arnt we and we arnt giving the program a bad name in anyway aslong as we talk of the positive changes and possibly helping a fellow addict through our messages. Yakno its funny only one person in the program knows of my aas use but every one else just keeps telling me how swole and good Im looking lol I have gained 40 lbs in a year and a half..everyone asks me to train them haha.
LOL
We should also maybe have an online meeting if that would work in this lounge... But I suppose that is the purpose of it lol
The online meetings are hard to put together. You need a streaming app and speaker. We could all agree on a daily topic and try to stick to it for that day/week
That works... thinking about it, it would take a huge amount of time and energy for it. Most of us probably work, or are busy with other commitments. I like your idea for a daily/weekly topic.
i make rrreeeaalll good coffee!!! LOL
Thanks bro
Yea I think a "thought for the day" and a daily topic like "Gratitude" or something.
we could always use the "just for today book as our topic! they are different and already printed for us! I wouldnt be able to type that shit out in the mornings cause i work!
I'll be happy to put something up everyday so here it is (look up)
Def. good ideas...i type and spell like a tool..(cooked brain ya'know) but i'll try my best to keep up with my brothers!!!
LOL..ya,its like an online check in meeting!
Havent worked all 12 steps. Actually haven't been to a meeting for over a year and a half. Probably more. I just choose for today not to drink, not to use any illicit drug that alters my state of mind.
TrenfiendHey mates year and a half sober this time around good to see much support here
Any of you boys worked all 12 steps? Got sponsee's? in service?
Yes to all 3. I take this seriously.
testaholicCurrently on step 11, this is a hard one for me. I really struggle with spirituality... I'm strongly anti religion as well. No sponsee's, I have a home group, and as far as service work me and a few sober peeps like to go up to the detox unit at the hospital and just sit and talk with the people in there. Kinda helps them recognize someone when they get out and decide to hit a meeting, also it really helps me to remember the pain and misery. I thoroughly enjoy it. I'm loving the daily topic thing
I never worked the steps, however I'll still pop into an na meeting from time to time. Love the feeling of comradery you get while being there ya know. And I'm clean so that's what's important.
Yes
OS/OD/C12 step/etc
Yes
By service if you mean helping others an speaking at commitments YES. I've been to about ten thousand meeti gs
Yes,no,and yes...
What's up fellas I'm a recovering addict. My drugs of choice were booze, speed, and benzo pills. I have been through detox several times as well as a few 30 day inpatient programs and sober houses. I lost my license for 5 years and pretty much kept digging that trench deeper an deeper. I'm recently sober/clean again and feel that for the first time in my life 24 hours a day is possible and that's what I focus on and it's added up. I now have a house 2 dogs 2 cats and a Fiance who is supportive. I went back to school and have an associates degree and am in my senior year now of college and plan to get my masters in education. I got my liscence back and a new car after years of walking an bussing to work and bumming rides. I go to meetings and have a sponsor and things are good.
Hello, Im subs and Im a recovering addict. I have over 3 years clean time. I stopped counting my clean time over three years ago. I have abused it all, it started back in 1993. I have been in and out detox centers and in and out of the doors of N/A..I have lost 2 very close friends due to drugs. I am perscribed suboxone and xanax, under a doctor's supervision and we are tappering off and Im on a very low dose of both. I havent had any kind of buzz in years. I can enjoy a beer or two with my steak, like once a week and not go off and binge.
Honestly, I found the best way to achieve years of clean time was to drop the left over friends I have and also not communicate with any people who are actively using. I have had alot of help with my family and especialy my older sister. The only thing that sux is I dont go out nor do I socialize with people, exept at school. My weekends involve staying home with my family. Maybe in another year when Im off all medication I can step out of hidding from my home...
Subs - hang in there bud. I remember when I first got sober I wasn't social at all (aside from school) for 1-2 years. It will get better. Do you go to meetings?
testaholicThis is cool as fuck.
Im a heroin/alcohol/weed/pills/coke/lsd/xtc/pussy/gambling/food/gear/exercise addict. 5 overdoses, and about 7 or so rehab trips, and a few trips to county jail sprinkled in. Not trying to brag, just saying I qualify. Been in and out the rooms since about 19. Just NOW put together 7 months. Its not alot of time but its a start and I'm proud of it. This is really cool to see that theres alot of people in recovery who run a bit of gear every now and again. When I first started trying to get clean again I was a little scared about whether or not id still be able to juice up....i was pretty much at the point of no return anyways. Since then I've actually learned of a few others in recovery in my area using gear. I dont tell people in the rooms about this subject because most are ill informed and judgmental. Bottom line is I live away healthier lifestyle than most, and I contribute that to juice. Alot of people suspect I'm on shit but they dont come up and ask UNLESS they want me to get them some! We are a different breed if people so I really dont like to do that, plus most dont kno shit about training or nutrition or even just good ol fashion hard work. I hope to see this recovery lounge expand, maybe to include topics and such. THANKS NOID YOU THE FUCKIN MAN!
I think this is a great idea thanks noid well done bro
dang i never thought i would see this...im kusha and im an addict been a member of na for about 6 years but unfortanatly just celebrated a yr..ive been working out for the duration of my life while wresteling all through school but with the use of opiates i had destroyed my body. about 2years ago i was down too 140lbs..and im 5'10" im glad to say im back up too 180lbs. i just started using aas im actually fixing to start my first pct. glad too see that im not the only person who has found another positive addiction. and glad too see there is a place where we can come share
Hi my name's abman & I am an addict. I was addicted to Opiates for too long, & have been in recovery for 5 years.
I thought I was the 'one special case' & I'd never get clean. But I did.
Nearly forgot, I lost everything in the process.
Those days were worse than hell on earth.
You know I go to meetings and everybody pretty much knows whats going on and they kinda look at me down their nose because well they dont know shit about roids, and truth be told it dont make me feel less then, really I feel like im on a pedistool, leaps and bounds above them health wise. I dont share about Roids but my sponsor and my grand sponsor know im on, and sometimes people will hit me up about going to the gym and diet and thats cool but they are really looking for the quick fix and how can I stop looking like this and start looking like you! None of them want to put in the hard work, or learn about everything that needs to happen before roids.
AnonI know just what you mean.... I find myself in that same situation
"Even around misfits your misfits" LOL
Yeah i got about 5 friends with years clean and running gear and everyone looks at us like were juicen but no one ever said anything.haha.Alot of the girls take diet pills and most of NA smokes like a chimney.haha and would spend there last 5 dollas on smokes instead of what they really need.we all have our own journey to take and our own beliefs to live by.
Dec 21 was 5 years for me.Coke,Jake dainels,beer,weed..yada yada yada. An old punk song was my motto.."You got the beer,we got the time,you got the coke,gimmie a line"
Lost houses,bikes,cars..wife...kids still love me!!!! 401k,you name it,jobs....done.
Oh, i didnt lose anything...I GAVE IT AWAY.. This is a great idea,thanx Roid.
DEPRESSION - It VERY nearly killed me.
It went as far as taking me to stand on top of a car roof, inserting and strapping two 15ml syringes with air into both of my forearms, dousing myself in 2 gallons of petrol and attempting to strike a cigarette lighter to end my life, just to prove to my ex and my son that I wasn't the total loser that she was portraying me to be, I could get something right, even if it was just to end my sons shame of having me as his father.
I OBVIOUSLY failed.
(I had unknowingly soaked the lighter in petrol when I doused myself in it and that's what stopped the flint from igniting).
6 years later, I have rebuilt what little self respect I had left for myself, with the help of my one true guardian angel. MY Baby Darling. Without her breaking down the walls that I had built up I would NOT be here today.
SIMPLE AS.
TrenfiendThats ok mate blessing in disguise. I got arrested for burglary while attempting to steal
Enough money to kill myself. Cheers to life mate
Congrats to the officer for being in the right place at the right time then, Mate.
If that doesn't sound weird?
But at the time, if like me, ending our lives was the sanest and most normal thought, just like the thoughts of what we're going to have for dinner, or do we want sugar in our next cup of coffee.
I used to SERIOUSLY look down on individuals who allowed themselves to be ruled by depression, and even on guys who used to cry. "Men DON'T Cry". Simple as.
But after being covered by the shadow of depression I now understand when a human being wants to give up what is most precious to us.
And I will ALWAYS be around as a mate to talk to when my fellow brother/sister needs one.
I was addicted to meth and coke for a couple years when i was young and that shit tore me up, 6'4" , 150lbs. I ended up in prison for 6 years and that's where I lifted my first weight. I never looked back, and i wouldn't trade this lifestyle for anything.
My name is jprizzle and I'm a oxy/vicodin/alcohol addict. I have been "clean" for close to 2 years now after starting suboxone.
I have a very addictive personality. I know have a productive addiction (bodybuilding). I started using steroids because of opiates. They lowered my test levels and I was put on Trt. I figured (with my addictive personality) I might as well go all the way .my test levels are already screwed. I'm not in any program aa/na but have been to some meetings a few years back. The courts thought it was a good idea.
My couselor I once had said I was self medicating, my girl stayed with me all through those years. She left me for one year out of the two decades. I tried most all of it. Never did prescription med like oxy my kid brother got pretty screwed up from that type of drugs. He's had to be institutionalized on more than one occasion. He tells me about some of the guys and gals that I used to run with. A lot of the he couldn't actually.meet cause there buried somewhere. You can really get on a fast track to pushin daisies.
The suboxone saved me for sure but it is a double edgr sword. The withdrawal from the subs is ten times worse and hardet to stop then the other stuff. But it wont kill me and it blocks all opiates. Even made me not like alcohol .
I feel I've lived the rock opera Tommy...
Had an acid queen of a girl friend in the 80's that got me started with shooting up Chrystal Meth, coke and heroin. Cleaned myself up but started drinking heavy 15 years later, around 2000; sobered up around 2006.
Took up running to get myself back in shape. Took up lifting when I saw how much muscle I lost once the fat came off.
Haven't had a drink since 2006, can't remember when the last time I even took a toke from a joint. No desire to do so either.
I never attended AA or NA but when I look at my personal experiences I can see how many of the things I did paralleled the 12 steps.
yes sir no doubt you have an addictive personality! welcome!
my name is.... and I am an addict
Sweet welcome home! LOL