posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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dont get caught up in the AA drama. its insane. just cuz people talk a good game doesnt mean their still not FUCKING SICK
Right I already know haha. What about AA girls though. Are they ok to date??
Ace VenturaI feel like you're joking. You should know the answer to this.
oh yeah the physco ward is the best place to find healthy women!
Their recovered!
from a temporary drug or drink for the day, if you got to pick one make sure she is in service and has worked all 12 steps, that when she shares she talks about recovery and preferably one that has been in a relationship in recovery and made it out with grace and not showing her ass or relapsing. then go ahead! have at it she will probably tell you to work some steps and then we can talk! :)....messing with those new comers will get someone killed or in jail, be careful that YOUR picker aint broken cause the realities can be life changing!
all my boys fuck with program girls...i stay away. they are so fucking sick. and most of them have tricked and have diseases. i find that "normal" girls are much more sane, and usually think your bad boy turned good image is sexy.
My chick has been sober for like 7 years and she was batshit crazy at first. Somewhere along the way she got sick of being "dry" and got to work with her sponsor.
It's awesome seeing the change that takes place. Now, she goes with the flow and is constantly cracking jokes when I'm acting like a douche.
Girls that actually do the deal are worth fuckin around with if your looking for something long term. imo
Ace VenturaI had a fairly serious, yet short lived relationship with a program girl. It was really more like a 'friend' type of relationship. She had a great sense of humor, was a blast to hang out with, and we humped all the time. (I know, that's real healthy early in recovery) She was a lot of fun but definitely not wife material. Now I'm married to a "normie" and I couldn't be happier. She's never even touched a drug, and the very little drinking she did do, she gave up years ago.
Yes I was mostly joking about the AA girls. I dated a girl that qualified for the rooms one time but it was a disaster. Now I am humpin some girl at work which probably isnt much better cause Im her boss.
But I see ALOT of guys dating AA chicks and I just shake my head.
Ace VenturaThat's a tough one for you, it's obviously bad behavior, but it's still pretty awesome.
I can't speak for you but for me it is not even the same thing. And I was a intravenous drug user.
It has never become anything more than a maintenance drug; like taking a pill for acid reflux.
Thats well put. I guess I really dont even know what it is for me, I also was an IV drug user for some time but I dabbled in everything really.
But I'd like to tell myself its like taking a pecid ac but I know that something in my alcoholic mind is the root of it. I cant really put it into words I guess.
I like your point though.
AnonDude your killing me with the cool answers.
I have to agree with you. Doing AAS isn't even in the same fruit bowl as recreational drugs. I would say that AAS was just the opposite. When I wasn't doing a cycle I would lose site of the goal and slip up a few times. Being on a cycle gave me the willpower to tow the line because I wanted to see just how far I could push myself. I was surrounded by like minded people at the gym and spent my money on healthy food, protein and any vitamin I thought would give me an edge.
Romanbrand+1
and Greg +1
RomanbrandJust found this thread this morning, and I am glad I did. I am addicted to benzo's opiates, and amphetamines, I have been clean for two years (4-28-11). Its nice to be drug and ETOH free, the biggest problem was I got fat and lazy for a while and have been striving to get back into shape lol. Is juice/AAS an addiction? IDK, I have yet to do my first cycle but I think the feeling the of being/feeling in optimum shape/performance along with the needle sticks maybe somewhat addictive.
I get addicted to routines, I dunno if others have the same problem? OCD maybe. Crushing pills and snorting them or whatever the routine was was always just as fun for me. Can anyone relate?
waltrwell i don't know about the needle sticks, i injected my quads this morning after doing legs last night =/
not a whole lot of fun, wasn't pip or anything but i could feel the muscle still being sore when the needle went in.
i used to be an IV dope/pills/coke user and i can relate
RomanbrandIm sure you were addicted to the "routine" just as I was. I feel like I might like it to much lol But Im doing a cycle anyway because Im bullheaded and going to do what I want when I want, its so bad I cant even change my own mind sometimes lol
cbrant10Glad I came a across this too. I was addicted to benzos, opiates, MDMA but my DOC is Oxys. I have been really good without the drugs and been almost a year clean from pills but I am having a hard time with the booze. I don't drink everyday or copious amounts like I used to but I am drinking non the less. Some people call this a relapse and some don't see a problem with it but I just do not want to end up back where I was not too long ago. I am happy with life and got a great internship and about to graduate school so I can't complain there. Just wanted to stop in and say hey and see what you guys might have to say. Thanks.
waltrI know that for me, when I drink it just opens the door right up for me to go get some pills and shoot up...
I tried giving up the pills/dope one time and just drinking and within a couple months I was back getting high again too.
For me, the only way to be clean is to be off of all of it, the alcohol leaves my judgment messed up to question myself just enough to think it might be a good idea to get high, just this once...which turns into everyday, or every opportunity before too long =(
Think of it this way...
The fact that you're drinking at is evidence that you still are on the fence. You have not decided to quit.
As long as you leave one foot in the door, how long will it be before you start thinking, " I've been handling drinking pretty well this last year or so, taking this pill this one time won't hurt." "I've grown, I can handle it."
Been there, done that.
and it didnt work!
You got that right!
the people that dont call this a relapse arent in recovery, if your getting a head change on something then your keeping the disease alive and well. go to some meetings and learn about the disease from people that know what they are talking about, if they say its not a relapse then find some different people to talk to about it.
cbogan1Ive battled with drugs and alcohol for many years, get sober 6months to a year then back at it. Usually opiates, benzos and alcohol. I feel that when Im cycling I start looking good and feeling good then the next thing I know I am out chasing tail and getting loaded. I know its horrible on the liver but good lord is it possible to stop and never have the urge to look back? if so howd you do it? i know alot of the cliches of aa, one day at a time, keep coming back etc. None of that has EVER worked, I got a sponsor, worked through the steps and continually relapse. Anyone know any tricks?
EASYDOESIT
KEEPITSIMPLESTUPID
I worked the steps?
Sounds like you rushed take your time apply spiritual principles in your life...
We don't work them and stop its a continuos process
SeaHawkAs with everything in life there are no secrets. If you want it , you'll find a way. If you dont, you'll find an excuse. You'll stop using at the precise moment you decided to and no sooner.
X2
-hardest part is getting to that moment.
Wow..great page! Im new to this board and recovery..I actually got sober around the same time i became a member. Im starting to get a real good feeling about this site! Like there is a potential famly here. Been using vicodin, buprenex for years to dull the pain and put up with idiots and life in general. At the same time i was isolating myself from the people i care about. One day at a time! Thanks for letting me share!
Hey brothers hope all is good with you dudes. I came in here cuz I felt like I needed to confess my sin. After 4 yrs 7 mos 19 days....I relapsed. I've come clean to my gf, which sucked since she's in recovery too. I feel like I betrayed more than her trust as I used when she was out of town. She's been great but it looks like I was just waiting for her to turn her back so I could make stupid decisions. Ever since I got clean I had avoided all triggers, but then a close friend (basically family) got in a fight with his girl and needed a place to crash, and whether he was using or not I wasn't gonna turn him away. I thought I had my mind in check, but work stress, lonely feelings cuz my gf was gone, and ex wife issues got the best of me. Those aren't excuses just explanations as I know that I am the one in control. I've been on suboxone since I got clean, but it just didn't control my cravings and I decided to skip a dose just so I could get high. Damn I won't make that mistake again. I guess it's time to reset the sober count. Today is my 13th day clean and I'm thankful for that.
RomanbrandJust do get this straight, have you been on Suboxone for four years?
RomanbrandSuboxone is highly addictive and still a controlled substance. Im sure you already know this but if not you should be informed:
http://recoveringaddict.hubpages.com/hub/Is-Buprenorphine-Suboxone-
http://www.altamirarecovery.com/suboxone-abuse/is-it-addictive/
RomanbrandSorry, that was Mr. Doo that said that, good luck with your new recovery but I would get the fuck off that Suboxone ASAP! You will be in recovery from your "recovery" if you stay on that much longer. I never took it when I quit dope but I had friends that were on it and had bad side affects, and when they quit suboxone they relapsed. Get off that shit, if you were sober for 4+ years you CAN do it again! Wish'n you the best brother!
13 days is no joke bro! Thank you for sharing your story - i I'm new to eroids, I'm a recovering addict (dope, done, rock, MDMA and benzos) with just under 2 years clean. I've been on suboxone for 4 years and I can absolutely relate to what you shared. I don't know how many times I deceived, hurt and fucked over my wife (who is most certainly not an addict nor had she really ever known one till she met my puck ass!). It's hard as hell bro! Thankfully last September my wife had enough (I was being a "dry addict") and kicked me out and took me off the lease. This is what it took to wake my ass up - without it I was on my way to a relapse! I moved back in two months ago and got off of disability (I was on for a suicide attempt) and went back to work and know am ready to get strong as fuck again (I haven't lifted in 8 months).
Thanks again bro! It takes balls to take ownership of actions both good and bad! You're not alone brother!
B
start again bro....like said below...it could be worse. you know what you did...correct it and move foward.
waltrit could be waaaaaay worse man, i used to have to do dope every day so i can relate.
you had 4 and a half years before so you already know what to do.
keep on going man, one day at a time
breakingfaceYou're obviously bright enough to come clean about it. I would be much more worried about your prospects if you chose to keep it to yourself and continue to claim x number of years clean. Good luck!
dont be to hard on your self bro hang in there and congrats on the new 13th day, on a side note how to like the suboxone i am on methadone and i am having a hard time trying to come off
Thanks bro. Im very thankful that it didnt get worse. I stArted on methadone and realized that wasn't for me and after a 72 hour medical detox I got on the subs. Been on em 4 years and I'm slowly tapering down. It is so much better than methadone IMO. It has worked to quell 99% of the urges and triggers.
I got mad
breakingfaceIt's not been a full year with out a drop of alcohol. Although I didn't consider myself an alcoholic I decided it was not helping me move forward in life. Even when you only drink 1x -2x a week ( there were some exceptions after a job loss where I drank everyday for a few weeks) , stopping produces amazing results.
Here's a few I noticed:
- Better sleep
- lower bodyfat
- better gym performance
- seasonal depression was much better
- anxiety is much lower
- Developed better copping skills. ( On bad days you dont have an escape)
- Healthier cravings for food
- more money
The list goes on. I had no idea how detrimental even social drinking is.
waltri always view alcohol as a crutch, well maybe that's just how i used it personally.
breakingfaceMy views are alcohol are warped because both my parents drink every night. Ive never seen them drunk and both are very successful in love and life. Growing up like that I really thought there was nothing wrong with drinking a few times a week. Unfortunately for me even a few times a week in moderation makes me a complete prick and zaps my motivation. Ive often wondered if I developed an intolerance or allergy to the stuff over the years.
AnonI just want to say I am really proud of all of you! Keep up the amazing work. You are all truly dedicated and strong. You will make it far!!
XOXO
For whatever it's worth, I bottomed out hard about 3 years ago and I got sober in AA. I was shooting just about anything I could find and I tried other 12 step programs but AA is the only thing that worked for me.
I've been sober for almost 3 years now and training has helped me tremendously. I think its pretty fuckin cool that Roid Noid made this thread. Imaginary +1 for you sir.
congrats on 3 years
Just wanted to tell everyone i decided to quit drinking isnt good for any of us and is probably the worst drug out there.
waltri've been sober for almost 10 months now and love it. nothing positive about alcohol at all in my mind
waltralmost 10 months clean/sober.
kinda surprised to find this here
congrats bro keep it up