posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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testaholicThis is true. Just recently looked into it and found out I couldnt get it off
My father said to some wisdom words to me once and i wish i would have listened well. You dont ever want to be in the system once you are in you will forever be a victim of control. In other words your time is never served the laws are put in place for a reason and it is to make sure you will always struggle to make it to the top. Keeps the government in control of you. Nevef admit to anything even if its in your own hand. An attorney can get you off of anything and if you study on your crime before going to court alot of times you can keep yourself from any convictions or atleast take care of the first small steps to save money on attorney fees.
I was in a similar situation and it was pretty hardcore shit. Several charges and convictions but i was young 19 and able to get it all exsponged. I had one call about it when i registering a fire arm and i called the courts were it was placed and had them update there records and they gladly did so. I know of others that have done it, im not sure if it works for all states but the 2 i have had problems with exsponging your record works. Call a defense attorney you might have to call more then one to get any type of good info.
I plan on writing an extensive post about this subject soon.
Times have changed----used to be you could keep quiet and land a job if everything fell into place. Now we live in the information age and convicted felons are FUCKED even more than they already were.
That's going to come back and haunt this society-----I know guys who don't even want to give up their single cell in prison because they know they're coming back, and in my state, it takes about 5 years to get a single cell.
Crime is going to skyrocket as this economy continues to collapse.
Yea we really have to change the criminal justice system in th US. The way prosecutors throw around years of people's lives a d the cycle is starts when they throw young men in prison. Throw em' in prison first ask questions later, and prosecutors talk about their conviction rate like a batting average and never about justice. Or crime fitting the punishment. Meanwhile if you dont have money you cant navigate the justice system and you end up pleading to a felony and throwing your life away over mistake where no one was really hurt. Its good to have so much in common with people here. This is something i feel passionately about and i hope i can do something to change. So much wasted talent.
The ONLY time I obtained ANY kind of criminal record was when I had my breakdown. I never even had speeding or parking tickets. So for me to end with a record, simply because I was crying out for help, bites my a*se a bit when I think about it.
But WHEN is your debt to society REALLY paid?
Is it when the judge hands down your sentence, because that's what the law lords have decreed is a worthy sentence for the crime you committed and he tells you, "THIS is the amount of time that you must serve to repay society for what you did"?
HELL NO!!!
IF you break a law today, it's with you for life, so your sentence, no matter what the crime, is a LIFE sentence.
And in my opinion, now that I know what it feels like to live in that 8x14 double manned box, is WRONG.
How long should people have to pay for a drug offense? A 5 year sentence is really a life sentence. Every sentence is a life sentence at this point. You're right. This will come back to haunt society!
Bollox to the job, you prolly wouldn't have liked it any way! Yea, but soz to hear that. Sometimes it once step forward, then one back. Something better will come along.
Just wish that sometimes, life could be a little bit smoother. You have your health, & your money is spent how you want it, not with some prat.
Ever notice how the toughest times are at night after the day is done and you want to vent----relax and let off steam?
THAT'S when coke would call me the loudest. I still will fire up a bowl of weed, but the coke days are long-gone.
My highest highs-----and my lowest lows cam from coke.
I have a friend who a "functional coke-head"....amazes me how well he gets through life-----must be genetic.
You know man.. I thought I was a functioning addict as well.. I held a job as a math professor in a large college.. But once I cleaned up and gained some knowledge I realized i was crazy for thinking that.. I dont think there is a such thing as a functioning addict. you are barely functioning at best.. the only thing on your mind is your next fix and not wanting to get sick and you become insane over it. Well thats just how i feel..
TxBigBoyYour right bro, you always tell yourself that your doing just fine until you hit rock bottom and are forced to clean yourself up, that's when you realize you were never really a functioning addict but that your addiction just wasn't as bad as it could be. I know several people who are addicts but the addiction is weak enough that they can withdraw themselves for several days and go right back on. I have met one person in my life that I believe was a true functioning addict. He is a foreman for a big construction company, wakes up every morning at 4am works his ass off then comes home and smokes crack till he pretty much passes out. Wakes up an does it all over again. The thing is you would never know he's a crack addict unless you saw him smoke it. Only reason I know is cause I sold him the blow for years, never even knew he cooked it up until one day I brought it to him.
testaholicThere a shit ton of functioning addicts in construction. I was one for the last 4 years. I was addicted to drugs before that too, but just wasnt functioning till the last 4. ALOT of dope in construction, mostly pills, alcohol, weed, crack n heroin out my way. I liked it all except the crack.
TxBigBoyThat's the truth, got a lot of friends in construction and factory work and vicoden is like candy out there. I've done damn near every drug there is and never really got addicted until a friend got me on pain pills. Started taking them for a tooth ache one day and just never really stopped. I'd wein myself off all the time just so I could get high again, luckily I never turned H but pretty much everyone I used with did. Met my wife around the time everything started going to shit and she really helped me turn things around.
The docs have me on Norco for the numerous injuries I have. 98 they had me on oxycontin for a broken neck. I took it as prescribed shit made me amped as hell felt like speed to me. I got sick of the shit I hated it. So i cold turkyed the shit had a full bottle sitten on my night stand. Never touched it I will never take that shit again withdrawls about killed me. Since then pain pills have been part of my life I cant stand them except for when they take away pain. Then I was introduced to AAS and what a difference. Pain med intake dropped dramaticly after the first month and slowly down to a full day with out needing one. I have a full story on and off meds and how much help AAS has been not only for me but other friends and family. In moderation for most. I hate pain meds on them now for another spinal surgery, shoulder and knee surgerys. I had the worst post cycle after emergency surgery. Just now recovering and need to start a new cycle, to help with pain and rehab. Then I wont have to take as much meds or none at all.
I feel the same way sometimes, after a hard day, just a 'little something' to relax me, to level the day off, would be nice. But then, I remember the loneliness it brought, along with the other sh!te!
I would do 5 to 7 day runs and never sleep, so yes the night time was the hardest but I didnt have to worry much cause the only place that can get me clean is a cell! But I still get some pretty good using dreams to remind me of where I dont want to be anymore!
man im actually thankful for that last cell i was in, it forced me to detox and i prayed everyday for the strenght to not use but the opiate sickness would get me everytime. its crazy cause i had using dreams every time i closed my eyes in there for about 2 months and it was really getting to me because at that time i had already surrendered and wanted to be clean so the dreams were aweful i would wake up depressed and angry..so thats when i really found faith in my higher power to lead the way, i got down on my knees and prayed harder than i ever had for the dreams and urges to be gone..i havnt had a using dream to this day and that was 2 years ago.
May 22
Symptoms of a spiritual awakening
“The steps lead to an awakening of a spiritual nature. This awakening is evidenced by changes in our lives.”
Basic Text, p. 49
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We know how to recognize the disease of addiction. Its symptoms are indisputable. Besides an uncontrollable appetite for drugs, those suffering exhibit self-centered, self-seeking behavior. When our addiction was at its peak of activity, we were obviously in a great deal of pain. We relentlessly judged ourselves and others, and spent most of our time worrying or trying to control outcomes.
Just as the disease of addiction is evidenced by definite symptoms, so is a spiritual awakening made manifest by certain obvious signs in a recovering addict. We may observe a tendency to think and act spontane
Self centered self seeking behavior! That pretty much sums up my story! even today with many years of recovery, sponsee's, a home group, lots of work man im still fucked up when it comes to this, getting better but still fucked up. First thought is always about myself, second thought is "man im fucked up what about everybody else"!
thats what we are man self centered obsessed addicts,,but with the steps and fellowship we slowy become better and learn who we are. i try to do something good for someone else everyday just to try to keep me off myself im the most self centered ego maniac ive ever met lol
May 21, 2012
Keep coming back!
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"Meetings keep us in touch with where we've been, but more importantly with where we could go in our recovery."
Basic Text, p. 56
In many ways, addicts are different. When we came to Narcotics Anonymous we found others like ourselves, people who understood us and whom we could understand. No longer did we feel like aliens, strangers wherever we went. We were at home in NA meetings, among friends.
We don't stop being addicts after we've been clean awhile. We still need to identify with other addicts. We continue coming to NA meetings to keep in touch with who we are, where we've come from, and where we're going. Every meeting reminds us that we can never use drugs successfully. Every meeting reminds us that we'll never be cured, but that by practicing the principles of the program we can recover. And every meeting offers us the experience and example of other addicts in ongoing recovery.
At meetings, we see how different people work their program, and the results are apparent in their lives. If we want the lives we see others living, we can find out what they've done to get where they are. Narcotics Anonymous meetings offer us identification with where we've been and where we can go-identification we can't do without and can't get anywhere else. That keeps us coming back.
Just for Today: I will attend an NA meeting to remind myself of who I am, where I've come from, and where I can go in my recovery.
I love it! I bet if I tell my sponsor he'll make me write an essay on what tradition im violating!
Well the way I look at it we are all really anonymous here arnt we and we arnt giving the program a bad name in anyway aslong as we talk of the positive changes and possibly helping a fellow addict through our messages. Yakno its funny only one person in the program knows of my aas use but every one else just keeps telling me how swole and good Im looking lol I have gained 40 lbs in a year and a half..everyone asks me to train them haha.
LOL
We should also maybe have an online meeting if that would work in this lounge... But I suppose that is the purpose of it lol
The online meetings are hard to put together. You need a streaming app and speaker. We could all agree on a daily topic and try to stick to it for that day/week
That works... thinking about it, it would take a huge amount of time and energy for it. Most of us probably work, or are busy with other commitments. I like your idea for a daily/weekly topic.
i make rrreeeaalll good coffee!!! LOL
Thanks bro
Yea I think a "thought for the day" and a daily topic like "Gratitude" or something.
we could always use the "just for today book as our topic! they are different and already printed for us! I wouldnt be able to type that shit out in the mornings cause i work!
I'll be happy to put something up everyday so here it is (look up)
Def. good ideas...i type and spell like a tool..(cooked brain ya'know) but i'll try my best to keep up with my brothers!!!
LOL..ya,its like an online check in meeting!
Havent worked all 12 steps. Actually haven't been to a meeting for over a year and a half. Probably more. I just choose for today not to drink, not to use any illicit drug that alters my state of mind.
TrenfiendHey mates year and a half sober this time around good to see much support here
Any of you boys worked all 12 steps? Got sponsee's? in service?
Yes to all 3. I take this seriously.
testaholicCurrently on step 11, this is a hard one for me. I really struggle with spirituality... I'm strongly anti religion as well. No sponsee's, I have a home group, and as far as service work me and a few sober peeps like to go up to the detox unit at the hospital and just sit and talk with the people in there. Kinda helps them recognize someone when they get out and decide to hit a meeting, also it really helps me to remember the pain and misery. I thoroughly enjoy it. I'm loving the daily topic thing
I never worked the steps, however I'll still pop into an na meeting from time to time. Love the feeling of comradery you get while being there ya know. And I'm clean so that's what's important.
Yes
OS/OD/C12 step/etc
Yes
By service if you mean helping others an speaking at commitments YES. I've been to about ten thousand meeti gs
Yes,no,and yes...
What's up fellas I'm a recovering addict. My drugs of choice were booze, speed, and benzo pills. I have been through detox several times as well as a few 30 day inpatient programs and sober houses. I lost my license for 5 years and pretty much kept digging that trench deeper an deeper. I'm recently sober/clean again and feel that for the first time in my life 24 hours a day is possible and that's what I focus on and it's added up. I now have a house 2 dogs 2 cats and a Fiance who is supportive. I went back to school and have an associates degree and am in my senior year now of college and plan to get my masters in education. I got my liscence back and a new car after years of walking an bussing to work and bumming rides. I go to meetings and have a sponsor and things are good.
Hello, Im subs and Im a recovering addict. I have over 3 years clean time. I stopped counting my clean time over three years ago. I have abused it all, it started back in 1993. I have been in and out detox centers and in and out of the doors of N/A..I have lost 2 very close friends due to drugs. I am perscribed suboxone and xanax, under a doctor's supervision and we are tappering off and Im on a very low dose of both. I havent had any kind of buzz in years. I can enjoy a beer or two with my steak, like once a week and not go off and binge.
Honestly, I found the best way to achieve years of clean time was to drop the left over friends I have and also not communicate with any people who are actively using. I have had alot of help with my family and especialy my older sister. The only thing that sux is I dont go out nor do I socialize with people, exept at school. My weekends involve staying home with my family. Maybe in another year when Im off all medication I can step out of hidding from my home...
Subs - hang in there bud. I remember when I first got sober I wasn't social at all (aside from school) for 1-2 years. It will get better. Do you go to meetings?
testaholicThis is cool as fuck.
Im a heroin/alcohol/weed/pills/coke/lsd/xtc/pussy/gambling/food/gear/exercise addict. 5 overdoses, and about 7 or so rehab trips, and a few trips to county jail sprinkled in. Not trying to brag, just saying I qualify. Been in and out the rooms since about 19. Just NOW put together 7 months. Its not alot of time but its a start and I'm proud of it. This is really cool to see that theres alot of people in recovery who run a bit of gear every now and again. When I first started trying to get clean again I was a little scared about whether or not id still be able to juice up....i was pretty much at the point of no return anyways. Since then I've actually learned of a few others in recovery in my area using gear. I dont tell people in the rooms about this subject because most are ill informed and judgmental. Bottom line is I live away healthier lifestyle than most, and I contribute that to juice. Alot of people suspect I'm on shit but they dont come up and ask UNLESS they want me to get them some! We are a different breed if people so I really dont like to do that, plus most dont kno shit about training or nutrition or even just good ol fashion hard work. I hope to see this recovery lounge expand, maybe to include topics and such. THANKS NOID YOU THE FUCKIN MAN!
I think this is a great idea thanks noid well done bro
dang i never thought i would see this...im kusha and im an addict been a member of na for about 6 years but unfortanatly just celebrated a yr..ive been working out for the duration of my life while wresteling all through school but with the use of opiates i had destroyed my body. about 2years ago i was down too 140lbs..and im 5'10" im glad to say im back up too 180lbs. i just started using aas im actually fixing to start my first pct. glad too see that im not the only person who has found another positive addiction. and glad too see there is a place where we can come share
Hi my name's abman & I am an addict. I was addicted to Opiates for too long, & have been in recovery for 5 years.
I thought I was the 'one special case' & I'd never get clean. But I did.
Nearly forgot, I lost everything in the process.
Those days were worse than hell on earth.
You know I go to meetings and everybody pretty much knows whats going on and they kinda look at me down their nose because well they dont know shit about roids, and truth be told it dont make me feel less then, really I feel like im on a pedistool, leaps and bounds above them health wise. I dont share about Roids but my sponsor and my grand sponsor know im on, and sometimes people will hit me up about going to the gym and diet and thats cool but they are really looking for the quick fix and how can I stop looking like this and start looking like you! None of them want to put in the hard work, or learn about everything that needs to happen before roids.
AnonI know just what you mean.... I find myself in that same situation