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I Strongly agree. I can't argue. In reference to the specific lifestyle, If you didn't include the term "Serious", Id bring up an arguable point or two. This includes cycling as well. Serious come with the term responsible; a general subject but I can't argue man. Youre correct. Ultimately boils down to What is the right thing.
Shave your head and ass
They take it from anywhere. My buddy passed his test and he did his at the same time and did more than me. I think I’m ok. But they will take your finger nail if they can’t take your hair. I don’t know why I even did it. I don’t like coke. Worse comes to worse I still have the job I’m at now
Yukon_JackClean from the needle since September 6,2018
1 day at a time.
I see a psychiatrist, therapist & grief&'trauma counselor for my past life experiences. It ain't easy but it's damn sure worth it.
I'll take my worst day sober over my best day high.
Keep it in the day. Don't say" I'll be sober the rest.of my life" just ask God to keep u from a drink or a drug just for today. That's what works for me as well as meetings and constant expanding my sober network
There are only 3 things gauranteed in active addiction!! Jails, institutions,&death.
Why not give up one thing to have everything or u can give up everything for one thing. Think about all the ones you've hurt along the way.
4th step is getting rid of that heavy baggage that you've been carrying around for so long so when u make those ammemds u have at least cleared your side of the street & u know you've done then best you've done to make things right. I've done it and it lifts that weight off it conscience. Just my life experience
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Congratulations, whatever you have to do, Recovery is worth it. I'm really enjoying Russell Brand's book "Recovery: Freedom from Our Addictions." I'm listening to the Audio book read by the author when I work out. ODAT I attend meetings regularly, pray & meditate everyday, read some recovery literature everyday, hang out with other people seeking recovery, stay involved in sponsorship, and service work to my local community(homegroup, phoneline). Live the 12 steps. Just what I do.
Ace VenturaThat’s awesome, dude. A lotta men are too prideful to seek therapy. It’s great that you’re willing to take such big steps to work on improving yourself. Change is good, but too many people are afraid of it
Being Ready, knowing how too and willingness are huge factors and does play a huge role, just as crazy as having a fear of success is a reality for many. Yup, the fear of change. It boils down to just being ready and being sick of tired of being sick
Yukon_JackThanks ace, means a lot coming from u.
Well done Mate - seeing & living life through sober eyes and putting everything into your training is the best feeling in the world I find
Better than any drug...
When you say clean from the needle do you mean steroids bud?
Yukon_JackTy but no the heroin Needle
jayiskthe needle is an addiction in itself. hope you're able to beat that shit...pure evil
An ominous ritual in itself.
Yukon_JackYour Marty? Lol
If your Doctor prescribed TRT, then IOP is saying they know more than a Doctor. If you are self-medicating then I think your IOP has a valid point. I would follow the experts advice. I get myself into trouble when I ignore professional opinion. Staying clean for me is a lot easier than staying high was. My body went through a lot of changes when I stopped taking dope. I had 3 years clean when I went back to self medicating with Testosterone.
They finally gave in. They wanted to see my numbers before and a letter from my doctor. It’s definitely prescribed. I never wanted to trt. I was mid cycle and got arrested for 1 dbol pill. I had a parole hold and sat 5 months. No pct. I tried like hell when I got home to recover, but I couldn’t get it right. I came home January 29 and finally gave in to trt 9 days ago. Stuck with some gyno too from no pct.
Man this shit is so much er harder than I ever thought at 63 days. Anyway l...
My IOP said I can’t take testosterone for trt...which I started this Wednesday. I really want to complete my IOP which = Intensive out patient. So I have to decide.
Unless there's a doctor involved, it's not TRT
It’s doctor prescribed. It’s just my history. I was arrested for juice, and they say it’s just like any other narcotic. Easy to say when you don’t have a 195 test level. But after a lot of paperwork from my doctor they allowed it.
KingsolverJust thought I'd check in and share that I'm 2months clean from opiates. I know it's only 2 months but that's a milestone for me. I only last a few days normally. It's amazing how everything feels so much more intense when your sober. Food and sex is amazing my libido is like when I was a teen haha.
Just wanted to thank you guys for your inspirational comments and supportive comments. One day at time I'm on the right to for once.
You tackled the monster getting in seven days bud. Congrats
Good going bro from an old old addict
He hasn't been on here in over a month now which is very unlike him, hope everything is alright.
Awesome & congratulations bro!!!
Good job bro.
That's really great to hear mate - Well done
All that matters is that you make it through every day clean, the present is all that counts and in time that will turn into 6 month blocks and then years. Just remember that some days will feel brilliant and some days will be tough - But they will never be as tough as your darkest days in addiction. The main thing to get on top of is your triggers, anything that makes you think of using again remove them or stay away from them. Feeling the intensity of the great things in life such as training and nice food instead of feeling numb and down feels awesome doesn't it :-) You stick at it man.
10 years yesterday....
No SHIT??? Way to go!!
Hell yea!!!!!
Hell yeah that's outstanding
That’s awesome man! Congratulations!!
Congratulations~! Thank you for being my Eroids friend, and starting this thread. You are an awesome inspiration here.
Congrats!
Congratulations brother.
Thanks Guys appreciate the words....
Well 7 months down the drain , my wife got prescribed to my doc and thought I was strong enough to be around them and I failed . Bad thing is I'm on 10years paper and got a p.i. on top of it ..I'm kinda loosing it right now not knowing if this is going to cost me my Freedom. My wife knows but haven't really told anyone else and had to get this off my chest .
Well, backing it up isnt gonna change things but might help with understanding. It sounds like both you and your wife let the disease in. At least if you are following program and not white knuckling this process.
Did you both TELL the doctor your recovering addicts and this was your drug of choice? Did you ask for anything else such as non-narcotive pain killers?
WHY was your wife prescribed Xanax?
WHO was in charge of these pills? Certainly you have a relative or friend that could hold them and give them as needed?
Did you BOTH tell your sponsors? Talk about it at meeting level? mingle with longterm recovering addicts after the meeting and ask what to do?
Did you call anybody and tell them?
Things to consider
Very few addicts recover, I dont know of any that are gonna make it in an environment where their drug of choice is readily available. Even my Dumb ass threw away 18 months after discharging parole by trying to hold onto someone elses dope while they figured a situation out. lasted about 2 days and 8 years later I was back for this current clean time.
The most important thing right now is your not using and at least have the ability to make a couple good decisions.
If your not in a recovery program I would be on google trying to find some meetings because this disease will dupe you over and over again if you dont understand it. The situation you just experienced is talked about in depth many times over because it happens all the damn time. Your not alone that for sure. GET TO A MEETING, OR 3 A DAY IF YOU CAN.
if you dont got a sponsor I would get one immediately....
I would buy or get a blue book and start reading it....the first 107 pages I believe it is
if your wife is still using I would find another place to stay, or have her find another place.
youll need to figure out something with your daughter, hopefully a relative or someone can help.
Once I done all that, very quickly! like TODAY quickly!!!...I would than go speak to my PO or whoever is in charge of your case and tell them you done all this. That you have dissected your situation and see where the problem started and how it got out of hand. That it was completely your fault and you now see you need more help than just yourself. That you have reached out to a program and started reading the literature and asked someone to be your sponsor. That you have a phone list of people from that meeting that you can call and WILL call REGULARLY to help you understand this disease. That you are starting the steps of the program. That you have found a safe place to stay while you figure out your living situation in a healthier environment. THAT YOUR WILLING TO DO WHAT IT TAKES, YOUR FREEDOM MEANS SOMETHING TO YOU.
If that dont work, I would then ask to be put in a drug treatment program.
You do that and your chances of staying out will be greatly increased but nothing is for certain.
Damn I needed to hear this I am looking for a sponsor it's a requirement also of my probation now and at least 3 meetings a week.i have explained the whole situation to my PO she seems to be understanding I was supposed to get off the program. Next week where I have to call in everyday to possibly have a piss test but I requested that I stay on it..I have to wait to hear back from my original country that i committed the original offense in because I'm doing my reporting in the count that I live ..she said she told them everything I told her and it's just a wait and see thing now ..I'll be going to a meeting at 12 today on my lunch break ..I do work 10 to 12 he days so inpatient isn't a possibility but I am going to do whatever it takes to stay sober this time ..this all happened Monday ..my wife is doing an outpatient rehab everyday from 9 am to 5 pm so she is on the right track..also no she didn't tell the Dr she's an addict but he knows now..I told her she will have to choose between me staying g or her ever bringing narcotics in our house.e because your right I can not even be around them ..I was the one holding them for her and it went well for the first week but then all that happened and Bam I failed ... I am very serious about my recovery and I want sobriety more than anything ..I had my life going great for the first time I'n a really long time and I'll do whatever it takes to maintain this life I've created .. thank u for all the advice oh and one last thing she told me last night that I may end up having to choose between and my Suboxone because she believes is not right for me to be on them that it's just another drug even know that imo it's the best thing that could have happened for me in a long time I e do e nothing but gone up since I've started that program except for this one recent fail. I'm not sure how to respond to her in that
how would you feel if you got completely clean and she had a marijuana script and smoked?
How long did you last when you saw her get loaded?
The point she is making is that she feels like you are still getting loaded. And yes it probably feels like your cheating and she is not. Which can be a trigger for her.
She has a valid point. and whether you, me, or anybody else views it that way she will likely hold that over your head if you try to put your foot down and set boundaries.
Im a meth addict, dont know nothing about subs other than what i hear and read.
if its possible to get off them I would certainly be trying.
When you say you are a meth addict do you mean you are still using at the moment or is that all in the past now?
I haven't touched drugs and alcohol since Sept 19, 2008...
Nice one mate! Good sobriety
You sound like you attended some AA meetings like myself did you? 10 years coming up for you..
Yes I did. N/A for me but programs both work off of 12 steps. Yep, B-day is coming up soon...
Hi buddy - What does that mean when you say your wife got prescribed to your doc and you failed?
I have always been addicted to Xanax and pain pills well I've been off them both for 7 months I did get on the Suboxone program so some consider that as not being clean but it's my program and it's helped me more than anything ..my wife got prescribed Xanax and she knew my problem with them but I told her I think I can be around them and be ok ..well that didn't work out as planned ..she's an addict her self and after a few days she started popping them like crazy and got completely trashed on. Them the other night and decided she wanted to end her life and took a while hand full ..I called the ambulance after she passed out and they took her to the hospital ..I stayed home due to our daughter being asleep in her room and I didn't want to let her know what was going on .it was about 4 am .she left some in her bottle and in the morning I got up and brought my daughter to her grandmother's I then took the xanax and blacked out and the next thing I remember was waking up in jail .
I'm guessing pill addiction is basically the same as alcoholism in that once you are clean yourself its a very bad idea to be around other people using them once you are clean yourself, especially if its someone you are living with. I sufferred from alcoholism and once I was sober several years ago, about an hour was all I could manage being around people drinking before it was making me feel thirsty and wanting to join in with them also. There are no half measures with dealing with addiction - you cannot be around anyone using themselves or think you are strong enough to be around the substances that cause you problems for any extended periods of time without them causing you some kind of problems or temptations. Its very good that you were still there for your daughter despite what happened - to me the doctor is at fault here for prescribing strong sedatives in the first place to someone who already has addiction problems so DON'T blame yourself for any of it buddy
Keep at it with your training and everything will work out in the end I garauntee it..
Thanks press I'm going to try something I've never tried and get a sponsor this time .
Just remember buddy that sponsor isn't gonna stop you during that split moment descision to take another tablet during your time of stress or depression - that is purely down to you being strong with yourself and not allowing it to happen. You have to want to be sober so bad man - more than anything else in life! NOT for anyone else or for any threats that someone will leave you. You need a deterant so big that simply giving in means you cannot bear to wake up the next day and live with yourself for what you have done as you feel you have let yourelf down that much. Something such as if you give in it means you can't see your daughter Ever again, it has to mean that much to you. Don't just think a sponsor is a magic touch - it is down to you and how bad you want it. I only say this from experience as I did it without a sponsor, everyone else I knew used one and they ALL relapsed within 1 to 12 months and they all told me I would fail without one!! Be strong mate..:))
Thanks Eroids community, & this Recovery thread. What??? Yes, I am celebrating 10 years this week. Yes, Sir~! Damn, some Old fart gets a decade Clean & Serene. Caring & sharing the NA way. I have never regretted following the suggestions in the literature; 90 meetings in 90 days, Sponsorship, & Service. You can do it too. I believe in you. BTW, told my Doc this week I'm going off not legal roids. Test my Test level late September. Doc suggests I chill and eat some CBD. Open to suggestion. Thanks for reading this.