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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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Right here brotha. Oct 20, 2009
when groups got made years ago I noticed that rarely do people post in them.
Well all you need is two addicts to have aeeting so aslong as one person keeps the door open it will hopefully keep the ball rolling
groups is dead. always has been. whoever thought it was a good idea to move the thread over here killed it.
Just ask BFG to move it back man
Wasn't me
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Just got 9 months the other day for the first time (weekends and holidays included)
Sweet!! Great job bro!!!
This is awesome. I'm shredski, I am an addict 8 years clean from opiates oct 20, 2009
Congratulations brother!!!
Here it is....This will be a private group so that the discussions are not open to the public. Perhaps this will open a door of opportunity for you to feel more comfortable posting honest discussions.
https://www.eroids.com/og/the-recovery-lounge-group
awesome to see this here. god willing i will celebrate 9 mos. on the 24th. work an unconventional program. fitness is a huge part of my sobriety. it's weird seeing how much my health can flip in the span of a year. congrats to all.
I'll have 10 years clean this March 8th. Now I'm wanting to put down the cigarettes but its proving more difficult Than any drugs I've taken. I tend to smoke ALOT at work. Work for the gas/oil industry. Graveyard shift. It gets stressful and I started smoking them back to back to back. Any suggestions fellas?
For me I know that I work well when I am being a leader of some kind. SO when my wife said she was going to quit for like a month straight I finally said here let me show you how. I had some motivation to stop yet I didnt want to.
Its been about 7 years now. quitting smoking really wasn't the hard part. The hard part was quitting the fkn routines! The habit of putting that thing in your mouth. Going outside to chat and smoke after a meal, sex, coffee, or just for plain boredom. Thats the part that was hard to get past. I couldnt believe how addicted I was to that part! Me and the wife would go out on the front porch and smoke, drink coffee, watch the hummingbirds in the morning, and read our just for today book.
About 5 days went by of me not going outside with her before she finally noticed I hadnt smoked since saying I would quit.
SO first thing I would say is start looking at your daily smoking ROUTINE, then figure out what you could be doing instead of that. Bring some tooth paste and tooth brush, little hard candies like lemon drops, blowpops(no homo), and gum. The real trick for me was having something to do with my hands too, so suckers work good. When you want to smoke go brush your teeth. shit you not after brushing your teeth ten times a day youll get tired of thinking about smoking. lol
DOnt go hang out with everybody smoking if you can avoid it.
Throw your cigerattes away and leave your money at home.
Bet someone else you can go without smoking longer than them. Motovation/healthy competition is good.
I've set a date of February 24th. I'm going to buy a 5 lb bag of bio pops (NO HOMO) or may e those little Dum Dum suckers you get at the doctors office. My wife says she is going to quit with me. I hate to say it but the woman has ZERO will power. Maybe like you suggest, me being a "leader" for her will help us both. Shit, just thinking of the money I'll save is exciting to think about. I have to buy both of ours everyday. Me 2 packs and her 1. That's roughly $18 per day, $127/week. That's $540 every fucking month! That could be a new car note or more towards the mortgage on a bigger home. Or even save all that money and take the wife and kiddo on an an awesome weeks vacation somewhere.
Sweeeet bro, so you got 11 days off cigs?
Awesome! You can do it. Once your past the first couple days it should get easier. Do your beat to stay busy. And yea, check that app out. It's crazy watching the money you save pile up. I wish I put the 9.50 I spent a day on a pack in a jar. Im up to 11 mo 12 days 5hrs and have saved $3,230 fuck thats a lot of money that I would have blown. Good luck!!
Ten years ago I quit smoking tobacco June 2007, after like 30+years, i know i'm old(15yo+30=45yo + ten clean = 55yo dam) It was the most painful three days of my life, and I've buried two lovers. Quitting is soooooo worth the efforts. Withdraw hurt so bad, I remember so clearly that I have never picked up another. I didn't use candy or gum. I filled a coffee can with butts for awhile before my designated quit day. When i wanted one I opened and smelled the contents. Didn't take long before I didn't need to open the can to get grossed out. I had 3 days of a clear schedule to get through worst withdraw. I kept busy, but no work, no family commitments. I slept a lot too Good Luck~! Keep doing!
Damn, that's a hardcore plan. I have to try something. This may just be my answer brother. Thanks!
I quit almost a year ago. I spend a lot of time driving so that was the worst for me. When I finally said fuck it I need to do this, I wore a patch for 3 or 4 days. Chewed nicotine gum every time I felt it was needed but the biggest help was having an old coffee can on the passengers seat filled with lollipops, hard candy, gum, etc...For days I constantly had a pop in my mouth. But slowly I got through the worst of it. Your right. Its definitely one of the hardest things to do. I also ran an app called Smoke Free. Which tracks how much time you havent smoked and how much money youve saved since you quit. Good luck man, you can do it!
Thats some great ideas. Im going to buy a bag of dum dums as soon as I get off and I definitely have to find that app. I figured it up and me smoking 2 packs a day plus the wife's 1 pack, I was roughly spending $450 a month on those fucking things! Its time. That morning eyes could go to so much more.
This is an awesome post & lounge.... I wonder if it would be beneficial to have an actual “recovery group?” Some of the personal posts could be hidden that way & maybe people could open up more.
What do y’all think? I’m sure Roid Noid wouldn’t mind making one & I would help anyway possible!
I like the idea. Count me in.
https://www.eroids.com/og/the-recovery-lounge-group
Awesome bro!!
Great idea! Theres alot of us out there in the fitness community that, let's be honest, owe our lives to the gym and the catalyst it can be for recovery, that would love a spot to open a vein regarding our struggles, past and present.
https://www.eroids.com/og/the-recovery-lounge-group
have at it, im not on here much anymore.
Just wanted to poke my head in and let you all know that today I can say I celebrate 2 years clean!!
It’s been a long rough road and I’m still learning about myself and struggle with different defects of character that I have but everyday is an opportunity to be a better person than I was yesterday. I wake up clean and go to bed clean and pray I continue to do so.
I’m very grateful that this thread is on here and am able to speak about my issues with other people who do what we do. Thanks to each and every one of you.
Congratulations brother!!! Keep on keeping on :-))
Thanks big dog!
Congratulations Sir~! 2years is Awesome~! Keep it up. Life just keeps getting better. I am grateful for Eroids and this thread too. Prayer and meditation daily, reading recovery literature daily, talking with Recovering addicts daily, regularly attending meetings, staying involved in service, participating in sponsorship, living the steps, then lifting and cardio= a great life that just keeps getting better.
backup2018currently "off the opoid wagon" tapering down helped me get off last time. I couldnt handle the "cold turkey" starting monday im going to be taking 60mg three times a day give my missus control of the tabs and make her take them to work with her that worked for me last time. Til i can eventually stop. Opiates is the only thing that ever got me. Ive dont damn near everything in my 37 years nothing got me like opiates that warm fuzzy feeling is like nothing else. Ive sole ustody of my child and its not right i carry on doing it i know its wrong and wanna stop its just so fucking hard when theyre everywhere literally at the touch of a button! Dont get me wrong i dont even get wasted anymore i just dont feel sick when i take them. Really gonna do it this time! For me and family and the baby on the way. I want nothing more than to be clean and not fuzzy headed and tired all the fucking time!
Dude my spine looks like Skelitors I need them just to walk around the lake. The only thing holding me together is muscle.. I can go without them but it is hard to work from my recliner. I feel your pain brother.
I have tried acupuncture, cortisone shots in my back shoulders hips and knees. Nothing stops the nerve pain in my back I hope the HG I’m trying with help.
I will keep you all posted on this. It is my goal.
Bro it truly breaks my heart to hear about the position you’re in, & at the same time I’m encouraged that you’ve decided to get clean. So many of us here have been right where you’re at & now have testimonies of victory. If I could offer you a word of advice from someone who’s been there & someone who’s seen it over & over again, don’t do it alone! Go get help man. You can get some temporary meds to subside the withdrawals. The sooner that you’re clean, the more time you can truly enjoy with the family. The time your spending now is cheating yourself & more importantly it’s cheating them. Can you ween yourself off.. sure it happens, but it’s a long hard road that usually leads to consoling yourself that you’re doing much less than you use to & having days that you “reward” yourself. Those kids are worth it man!!
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backup2018Thanks for the support mate, I just mailed you. Good to talk to people who "get it".
Broke my foot and leg real bad a few years ago, whilst I was on crutches in a plaster I fell over and shatters the navicular bone into 8 pieces, long story short I had bad complications, no blood flow, bone started dying, chronic pain that I still have now 3 years later, the bone ended up healing nearly 3 years later but I have a 1cm fragment of bone floating in foot still.
First 3 months I didn't even touch a panadol.
I saw my Dr at month 4 ish and he prescribed codeine, I thought nothing of it, one night I took 5 of them (30mg) tabs and it got me high, a nice warm euphoric feeling and put me in a great mood, the next day I done it again, fuckall pain and same nice high feeling, I kept going back to the doctor and getting them and all of a sudden I was taking 12 of them a day all at once for 6 months.
I went to dr and asked for something stronger, fucking tramadol, 50mg tablets rapid release, started at 4 tabs at a time, even better high feeling that lasted longer, everyday I would pop them all at once to the point I got to 25 tabs each day, sometimes I would wake up and take them in bed before getting up, this went on for a year I was fucked up, went to Dr got Valium to sleep, was popping ten the 5 mg tabs with my tramadol everyday, I was a mess, I would slurr my speech and bump into walls etc and this was everyday for a year, people who know me on here know I used to drink hard but I quit, well about 3 months ago I started drinking again to mix with the pills and puffing weed it fucked me up worse I was a mess, I crashed my car, lost a misses lost my job and nearly went bust, I complety stopped the drinking all together easily, stopped the Valium but unfortunately I was hooked on the tramadol.
In that time frame I would pop oxy contin when ever I could get it, I got my hand on fantanyl patches that release 12.5mg every hour for 10 days, I would cut the plastic strip from the patch and put it under my tounge and that shit fucks you up hard.
The feeling of all these drugs was amazing I used as a coping tool and it got out of hand.
I kicked everything except cigarettes 6 weeks ago because I took Valium mixed with tramadol and crashed my car driving to see family, that woke me up.
Two weeks ago I couldn't remember anything from say the last 3 years, literally ask me what I done two days ago and I'm blank, I've most my concentration and my balance, I go to doctors and turns out I got serotonin syndrome from the tramadol, up to a year to recover after cessation.
Unfortunately tonight I went and got tramadol from chemist with a script I had, I popped 8, I'm dissapointed I'm myself and I know I won't do it again.
So its hard to admit but I guess I'm a drug addict, 17 months on pain killers and Valium.
I look like shit, it happened so fast I did not realise before it was too late, I will try my best not to take again I know it will kill me if I don't stop.
Hey mate I’ve been thinking about you & wondering how things are going?
backup2018I hope you get yourself together mate. Its an ugly thing we do to ourselves to survive the withdrawl. Im the same ive been an addict for around 4 years now. popping up to 30 odd pills a day sometimes more. Its my whole day to day ritual first thing in the morning then afternooon then later that afternoon then before bed. It takes everything from you.I wish they were harder to get i cant get them on the street where im from but there are other means to get them as we all know on here. Im gonna do my best to get off them once and for all this time ive so much going for me and i could lose it all so easily yet i still fukcing do it.
Hope you get all the support you need to aid u in your recovery loads of ppl here to talk to as ive found out. Im here to if you ever need to off load anytime.
your a sucker for a good feeling too I see.....You know the blue book says this disease is cunning, baffling, and insidious! I used to say I had a madman running around in my head grabbing my thoughts and tweaking them before i had a chance to listen to them. He would manipulate me without me even knowing. Yeah thats pretty sick when your manipulating yourself and dont even know. This is why they say an addict by themselves is in bad company. When I got clean I put that madman in a cage in my head, he was no longer free to roam around and still all my thoughts, but the longer he is in the cage the craftier he gets. even after years of recovery I sometimes have to laugh at myself when I realize the disease slipped in and tweaked some of my thoughts.
Early recovery can be an emotional ride that gets the best of us. The disease wants you to do this alone because it knows that is your weakest point, its gonna tell you over and over again you got this by yourself while its manipulating you into using. Its a vicious cycle of building you up thinking your in control, powerful and can do this on your own, while it sends using thoughts and dreams all day long. gives you all kinds of justifications, rationalizations, resentments, depression, until you use again. Then you feel like shit cause it beat you and the cycle continues. Most of us would not be able to do it by ourselves. very good idea to get to some Narcotics Anonymous meetings. you might find out their is many people there that think like you and been through what you been through.
While you get a few days, months, years clean, the disease is in the parking lot doing push ups. there is no more I can control it, I can do it for the weekend, ill just do this for the birthday party, I have to do it for the pain.
Your life is in the balance, eroids is a not a source of recovery, this thread is a good start but you need to seek help brother. not tomorrow, or next week, but right now. find some meetings in your area....Go there, raise your hand and tell them you need help.....There is something extremely powerful that happens when you talk to other addicts about whats going on....
Keep us posted
Goddamn brother, you truly have a gift for articulating this. Wow.
How’s everything going now bro? I just wanted to let you know that I’m in your corner & I believe you’re more than strong enough to kick it all man!!
I’m sorry that you’ve been going through this. I’m glad that things seem to be taking a turn for the good. Do what it takes to get clean and get back control over your life. Lots of guys here understand and support you. Thanks for sharing and the very best of luck in 2018.
Im glad you posted this. To myself and so many others this is like a replay on our own past experiences. Without taking too much time, I did the oxy route for a few yrs but that shit was expensive.
Switched to opana for awhile. Let me tell you what. Those 40mg opana are the fucking devil. Once those went bust found little bags of brown powder. Fuck sniffing them. That shit hits harder when you boot it. Did that for more yrs than I care to count. Finally found my way out 4 yrs ago on veterans day(states). Had a fee fuck ups the 1st 6mo but eventually kicked it. Its a monkey on your back that will never go away because we cant forget the euphoric feeling you describe but we can strap that fucking monkey down so he cant fuck with us any more. Glad you're kicking this shit. Its a bitch for sure but just keep doing it.
Sharing that experience is invaluable bro & whatever you do keep sharing it!!
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Bro I’m sorry that I’m just seeing this!! The lesson is a hard lesson to learn, but I’ve known many drug addicts & I’ve never met one who planned to be or who wanted to be a drug addict. The choice is now yours & no one can make it for you or take it from you my man. This is truly do or die. You’re not alone & you don’t have to do it alone & without a doubt it is possible to kick it & never look back.
So you fell down, then get back up & don’t be a twig
Do not focus on the bad, but 100% focus must be on the positive & the positive in this situation is you’re alive & it’s not too late. You’ve been given a great door of opportunity now knock it down & walk through it man!! A man isn’t measured by your mistakes, but rather how you recover from them. You have help here & you can pm me anytime bro. I deal with this on a weekly & sometimes daily basis. I’ve been through it & I feel I made it so I can help others make it. I was on crack, heroine & anything else I could snort or smoke. You got this brother!!!
How are you today man?
Hey guys,
New to the forum. Been using it to source gear sites but recently joined so I can leave a review of some orders. I was browsing and was pretty shocked to see this as a topic. Pretty cool! I'm a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. Have been clean and sober for about 7.5 years now. Congrats to all of you on your sobriety! And to the people who are still struggling, there is hope. It takes a lot of discipline and understanding. You can get through it!
Congratulations bro & thanks for the encouragement here!!