posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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Just tracked this spot down, I thought I had come across i before. Im 3 1/2 yrs clean and getting back to the gym and training has played a huge part in that.
Been clean 7-1/2 years didn't know this was even here. Very cool
Today I have a job a apt a girlfriend a vehicle that I'm allowed to drive because I have a license money in my pocket and integrity. Why? Because I'm not shooting dope today. Did that shit off and on for a little over 20 years. Sometimes I'm surprised I'm still alive. Guess god has a plan. No more jail prison rehabs halfways drug court. Life is good. Anybody struggling hang the fuck in there. Leave your shit here if you need to. Thanks again noid for creating this group.
Just over 20 yrs of my life wasted too. It is such an awesome feeling to be a member of society again. Never thought I would be, I had resigned to the fact I would have to shoot dope ever day. I had figured it was just the way things had to be. Life is so much better and I love to talk to people that are just starting in recovery and explan how much better life gets. Glad to hear you are doing well. Keep it up.
you too brother. hit me up anytime. keep up the good work.
So I relapsed last night had 2 years. I go to a couple treatment centers to tell my story, and feel like a phony. If I pick up a slip chip I go back to prison. I'm in drug court and they will find out. I will have to change my sobriety date. If I tell the truth I go to jail if I don't it eats me up inside. any advise? I know what my sponsor will say....tell the truth, but fuck I don't wanna go back. Just another thing I guess.
congrats brother. its certainly better then the alternative if you were anything like me. keep up the good work.
Picked up 7 years in January using AA. If anyone ever needs any help feel free to message me! Much love!
5 years on the 22nd of march. Keep pushing my friends.
congrats bro. you earned it I'm sure.
Thanks man!
Much respect brother. So very proud of you. I know its been hell at times and at times its been easy but just know you can do it. Stay strong and continue to reach out for help. Were all here for you at any time for anything keep pushing brother.
Thanks man with out support I wouldn't be where I am.
this is fucking awesome this forum exists...I'm a super active member in NA around me. I had a relapse that was kind of directly related to a crazy ex who threw out all my PCT stuff from my last cycle....I crashed hard and ended up relapsing onto percs and dope. The depression you get from low t is fucking horrible. My test was at like 164 or something stupid. I ended up going to a mens health doctor who put me on clomid and within a few months I was back into the 600s but then had to kick dope..fuck that. Keep fighting the good fight guys, channeling your addiction to bodybuilding can be super beneficial to staying clean so long as you PCT right...and I have the clear from my sponsor to run gear lol its not mind altering so we're all good
Today I had 3000 days clean!.....what a trip, didnt know if I would get 30. My life is different today I can hardly even remember how it was and when I talk about it it sounds like someone else. My kids dont even believe me...lol...No matter how hard it gets just dont pick up. It gets better!
Congrats and thank you for starting this forum. I haven't been in here in awhile and need to make more of an effort to stop in. Keep it up bro
Way to go Homie I proud of you I know its been a long hard road but just keep it up. Ill have 5yrs in June and at times its been an absolute nightmare but its been blessing and im so thankful to still be around. Like you said there's always friends around to lend a helping hand and a ear to listen. Keep on keeping on brother.
Way to go. 3530 days here, according to my 12 step companion app., one day at a time. Told my story at a local half-way house last night. A good reminder of where I've been and don't want to return.
Rick GrimesCan u share how i get thiss aa companion app plz? I need it bad. Ty brother. And congrats.
Just go to your phone's app store and download the 12 step companion. It comes with a big book (AA) and 12x12. There's probably one for NA too. I think it's a one time fee of $1.99. Pretty cool little app. It tells you how many years, months, days or hours you've been sober.
Congrats that's amazing keep it up
Had 8 years. Fucked it off for a year and a half. Back at 9 months. And those last 9 months went from 130 to 175 as yesterday. Going to the gym. Eating and what not. I look better now than I did with 6 and 7 years sober.
Rick GrimesWelcome pwb211! Keel it up. 8yrs aint a walk in the park! Dont beat urself up(easier said than done). 1min at a time if thsts whAT it takes. Get back into ur home group, get active at meetings and as always well welcome u with open arms. Change ur phone #. Surround urself with nothing bit sober people when possible( like if ur in construction ur around it all day obv) but in ur personal and home life. Its cliché but true, people, places,& things. Hang in there. U know what u have to do to stay clean and u knkw what u did/stopped doing to trigger the relapse. 1 is too many 1,000 is never enough for us. Much respect Rick
Perfect response.
Thanks man. I'm not even uin my home state. My wife just left me and took muy daughter. Luckily I'm oil field so I work 18 hours a day. Go to the gym then sleep. Just working on eating more lifting more. Jerking of more.
Rick GrimesBeen shooting dope and coke for over 10 yrs. Not tryna tell war stories but its led me to some fucked up places.had a few slip ups past few months and i know where its gonna lead if i dont get to a meeting and get focussed. Thanks for this group.
Good luck brother. stay strong
Definitely make a meeting, Brother. I've not had slip ups but I've made choices that nearly took my life. I've made better choices in the last 5 years but I'm just one bad choice away from a whole lotta suffering.
Rick GrimesIt boggles my mind how i continue this vicious cycle knowing where it brings me every single fucking time without fail!!! Not to sound cliché but i like this saying," u can CHOOSE to give up everything for 1 thing (drug of ur choice). Or u could choose to give up 1 thing( drug of choice) & have everything." its crazy how i choose to give up everything good and meaningfull in my life for a $40 bag. To most people thats a no brainer. Ive never been the "social drinker" or weekend warrior. Normal people go home after the bar. Me im calling flacco, jumping counters and dont stop till im in the can. Im not bragging nor proud of what this shit does/has done to me/life. Its fucking embarrassing tbh. I greatly appreciate ur responding to me with the positivity and good feedback. Much respect. 1day at a time.
I beat myself up over and over with this same problem. I fought for my life tooth and nail for many ah years struggling to kick painpills. I finialy got clean with subutx and I done wonderful for several years until I replaced one problem with another. I worked myself down from 3 a day down to a half a one life problems happen, work, stress, bills and this and that and I feel back to my old ways and started abusing my subutx. So what went from a half of one went to 5 or 6 a day for awhile I get sick of it and fight to get back down to a half then it starts all over again. I know that I have to stay strong but it is a very vicisous cycle and it has been for 20yrs of my life i pray for the day where I never have to rely on any substance to live me life. Subutx for sure saved my life but at the same time it still controls my life and holds me down. We all have to stay strong and find comfort and safety in one another we have to make ourselves available to help each other and the new comer you never know when just taking a few minutes to talk to or to type a few encouraging words will save the life of a stranger. Share your experiences and your story and strive to help just one addict everyday. Stay strong RICK you can beat this and you always have friends here at eroids and inside of the rooms who don't mind helping you even if its just to have someone to talk to for a bit. STAY STRONG HOMIE.
You're not alone bro! There r so many of us out here who have been right in that spot. We know what we need to do. We dont like being addicts but there is that part of our brain that keeps us coming back for more. It took me 21 yrs to finally be able to break free. All but a couple of yrs were absolutely horrible because I had stopped enjoying dope a hell of a long time ago. Was just a part of my life I had to deal with and I had resigned myself to accepting I was always going to have to use dope. Even though it ruined everything...EVERYTHING!.. just stay strong man. You are sick of the life. You will get there, its cliche but take one day at a time. If that dont work take 1 hr, or 1 min at a time. U can do it, FR me and send a pm if u wanna chat sometime.
To most that aren't addicts it's a no brainier. I was an addict before I ever put a drug in me. It's not the drugs that make me an addict. It's my thought process. The way I see life. Drugs are a symptom of my problem. It took me not only goin' to meetings but gettin' professional help in one on one counselling and group therapy before I could ever get as honest as I needed to be at a meeting. It takes time. Stop beating yourself up and make a meeting. When I was stuck in the mind frame of addiction, whether I was active or not, it was inevitable I would use. It's no surprise. It's what addicts do.
Friday. Home group day. I got best commitment. Greeter! Get to hug all the new commer girls lol!!
That could be a good thing but it could also be a bad thing. There are some pretty damn fine girls at the meetings from where im from. I have to stay on my toes and stay focused at all times. Its so hard to ne a good guy at times.
Recently celebrated 10 years strong. Blessed.
So proud of you brother. That's an awesome feat and hard to do. Keep up the hard work.
Congrats. Thanks for being a example.
Thanks bro. One day at a time.
bigmurphI just had a good guy reach out to me. He is in a bad spot where we all have been before I asked him to come over here told him there wee alot of good guys over here. I don't want to throw his name out but hopefully he will post here soon.
dont bring him here take him to a meeting
bigmurphHe is on eroids
Yes I told him to goto 3 meeting a day and to check this page out
Yes!! Ill be at one in a few hours. Woot woot
bigmurphYeah brother i hope he pops up here
He has a similar story as the 2 of us.
Im glad your doing well brother you been hitting the weight also
Of course. Bout 220 now. Npp and sus is kicking in full speed ahead. Are u bout to run that deca cycle?
bigmurphThats the next one out i have one wk left of the 12 wk cycle I was running. Im at 200 give or take lean and solid.
Im looking to bulk heavy next I figured sust decca adrol is my best bet.
I love eroids and I'm happy there's somewhere on here where addiction can be discussed too. I've spoke about it before about using drugs again. I came off a 10 month run 5 months ago that almost killed me. Literally died from an overdose. I lost a sister from an overdose. This shit is no joke with the drugs nowadays. Plus the drugs suck anyways nowadays. I was 220 pounds healthy and feeling great and went down to 150 pounds. Definitely not what I want for my life. To be living like junkie or bum. All I can say is I'm happy that people have made it and are still here to share there experience.
Welcome back. Lots of people dying in my area. It's bad. Stay grateful.
Glad you're here bro. One day at a time.
JSR3412, drug addict. I have 21 months as of April 2nd, 2015 and I'm coming up on 2 years. I'm grateful to be here
Welcome bro