posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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Hey whats up brother. Dont know ya but glad to meet ya. Congrats on being released and 100 days. Keep it up!
Thanks bud
Damn bro. Take it easy and stay clean brother.
Made a meeting last night. It was a struggle today but I'm in the gym and will hit a meeting tonight.
Has any one else been on suboxone post drug addiction?
It's good short term, but it is also addictive...
Methadone and sub. Saved me as well
It helped save my life
Helped save my life too
Got me a 5 month chip last Saturday, and I've been sitting on my gear for over a month getting my diet in check. Talk about testing the will power!! Staying off stuff that affects the head is for life, but hopefully I can tune in my diet, gain about 4-6 natural pounds and be good to go by September 22. Side note, my 35th bday is next week, and God willing, it will be my first sober bday in 21 years!
Keep it up! The best is yet to come
Wsup dude
CONGRATS!!!
5 month chip! MAJOR ACCOMPLISHMENT!!!
Ace VenturaThat's very cool. Congratulations
Wow cool I'm glad I found this page is not use the gym in place of my addiction trying to get bigger and ripped is my new addiction I've got 6 months clean after getting out of prison
I hate jail. Welcome home. Stay strong.
Good for you, bigrick. The gym is a much healthier "addiction" than getting wasted. Just take it one day at a time, focus on service to others, being good to yourself and working your program. 18+ years of sobriety from alcohol here and I don't miss it at all. PM/friend me if you need moral support, bro. Good luck to you.
Keep it up brother . Wasted too much of my life in institutions take advantage of the choice you have been givin today . Don't pick up . No matter what!!!!
Thanks bro and this life is so much better people used to look at me and say wow he is fucked up now people say how good it look but now I'm in my early 30s and it's time to grow up my kids deserve a good father
Me too. Running the streets all sweaty wheighing in at 190. Clothes falling off me. Looking like death. Now 225. Beast mode. Head up. Total 360.
Ace VenturaThat's awesome brother. Keep it up
Work on body and mind and soul bro.
Just made 90 days...life is starting to get real again. Love the support in this forum, thanks brothers!
Congrats bro. Sure you earned it. Keep up the good work
Thanks bro, and yea, I earned it with blood, sweat and tears. It took 7 years to get 3 months. I wasted my entire fuckin' 20's! Better late than never, and my 30's will have to do for my prime.
Getting sober was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I started smoking pot and drinking at age 12. Had tried LSD, coke, and several different pills before I even turned 18. My 20s are a blur. I can remember some things, but alot of shit is gone. I regret the milestones of my kids I missed the most. In 2007 I crashed inot an 18 wheeler that was waiting at a redlight. I was coming off the interstate and blacked out. I had been drinking and popping xanax all day long. Woke up 4 days layer in ICU not knowing what the hell had happened. I just knew I was in pain and something bad took place. 4 broke ribs, ruptured spleen, lacerated liver, concussion, and shattered pelvis were my reality. A month amd a half in the hospital, 8 months in a wheel chair. Did I stop? No. If anything I was worse from the oxycontin and morphine I was now addicted to. Had another minor accident about 15 months aftee that one and was arrested for possession of schedule 4. Was looking at 5 years for my first offense. I was offered drug court and jumoved on that shit to avoid jailtime. I thought I could fake my way through the program. HA! NOPE. 2nd court date and I failed a drug screen. My probation officer informed the judge of my accidents and told him I was one of the most defiant addicts in the program, I was ordered to jail until a bed became available at a rehab. I was pissed! That asshole couldn't do that shit to me! After a month waiting in minimum security, I was finally in rehab for the very first time. That first weekend my mother brouht my kids to visit. Seeing them visibly upset and watching them cry as they drove off made me realize I had to get my shit together. Nothing was worth losing them or being taken from them for something so selfish as drugs and alcohol. It's been 9 years March 18th, 2017. It's been hard. VERY HARD. I had to walk away from everyone I knew and start over. I was in AA and NA meetings 2, sometimes 3 times a day for well over a year before I was comfortable enough to go 3 or 4 times a week. It's rough man, but it does get better. And easier. Music and art were my lifesavers. Just keep on keeping on. If I can do it, anyone can.
Anonymous or not your story told here takes extreme courage. Keep up the good fight.
Congrats on 9yrs, fuckin awesome! Definitely can relate to a lot. Missing most of my oldest boys milestones hurts. Fortunately I had my wife by my side for 17 yrs of hell and she was able to keep things together. All we can do now is continue improving. Already seen the worst we can be. Nowhere but up from there.
Thanks man. It's definitely been a long, hard road. It's much harder to stay sober than it is to go get fucked up. Thankfully I haven't had to have any surgeries or anything like that in years. Doctors these days are so quick to give you narcotics are a remedy knowing damn well what the dangers are. That's why pills are the crack of today's generation. I was told I'd have to have a full hip replacement someday because of the wreck but so far I'm not at that point. I worry what kind of problems I may encounter if I decide to start cycling and hitting the gym hard. Can't leave out those legs! Right now I'm just trying to figure out if I need to start trt. I'm going in this week for bloodwork and all that. Unfortunately, I don't have insurance at the moment so it's all out of pocket. I know I can't afford trt from a doctor so I've been researching doing it on my own. After I decide what to do, I want to start getting my diet in tune. 6'2"/175lbs isn't heavy at all I know. My eating habits aren't great. I could use another solid 25lbs I'm asssuming on my own. Just need to up those calories and protein intake. I wasted away 20 years of my life partying. Lucky I'm still alive for sure. I want to get myself in shape so I can be around another 40 years for my kiddos.
Exactly the same as you! Blew my 20's away with it and God knows how not my liver. This now feels like living not then :-)
You can do it brother stay strong you've got to stay strong. If you haven't already you got to lose the people you use to run with their not your friends. That may seem harsh I know but as long as you can stay as far away from that shit as you can you can make it. Get to meetings find a sponsor do what ever you got to do to stay clean man. Were all here for you I got faith in you. You'll be in my prayers homie.
Thank you my friend, Im doing just that. Just nailed down 5th step last night, but its not easy. I appreciate your words bro!
Bros, my roommate was in recovery with me and had fallen off for the past couple months. This morning, he attempted suicide right in front of me. We could both use your prayers!
Unfortunately, the roommate is back. I could not find a legal way out of the lease, and his Mom begged me. I made him and his mother sign a notarized contract stating
-no alcohol or drugs
-no theft
-no destruction of property
-no sexual harassment or stalking
-no threatening of suicide
-no violence or threats of violence
-no dishonesty
-no failure to pay rent or bills
-no taking my meds, journals or underwear
-no unauthorized pictures
Any offense will result in explosion but he will retain his obligation for rent.
Furthermore, both parties must work a program of recovery.
Ya'll think I covered myself adequately given this terrible situation>
Dam that really sucks that you are stuck in that lease. At least you made him sign that contract. Im not a lawyer so I really have no clue but does getting it notarized do anything for you if he violates. In terms of getting out of the lease? I do thinl that is cool you put in there that you both must continue working toward recovery. We cant do shit if we're fucked up. In general though it sucks you are stuck. I know my house is the only place I feel safe. Can walk around in my boxers without being arrested. Need to feel safe and secure at home for sure. Thinking about you man. Hope everything works out well.
Im praying for you both brother. You need to get him to a hospital he needs the help man. He might not want to go but it could justsave his life. If it get worse have him commeted he might be pissedbut he will thank you in the long run. You don't need his death on your hands that would destroy your recovery
Been down that road, feeling like you cannot go another day. I hope he is ok and can get somewhere to rest for a bit and start feeling better so the feeling of having hope comes back and inspires him. Stay strong we do get better.
Yeah me too. Now that the dust has settled and he is safely in the psych clinic, I got a lot of anger in my heart, and I feel guilty about that. I went through his room that night and found that he had stolen a bunch of my underwear and my personal journals, not to mention meds and possessions. Evidently, he also had pics of me on his phone. I am really creeped out, and even more scared of what I will do to the bastard if I see him again anytime soon. After putting the pieces together it feels like he has some creepy little crush on me...Granted, I don't know this dude, I met him in treatment. The next step, it seems, if he doesn't cleanly part out of this lease, is a restraining order...
Wow. I don't even know what to say to that. Some are sicker then others I guess. Dude clearly has problems other then addiction. You just do what you got to do brother. It would be best for you to never see the dude again. If he eventually needs to come pick up belongings have one of your boys at the house and maybe you go out. I would want to trash the dude but you know youll just end up in county. I accepted your FR. Hit me up if you need to.
Thanks bro, good advice! I'll be in touch.
ah????!!!!%%^&&**&^^ Whoa! That motherfucker is an addict because he knows hes weird and no-body thinks like him....no wonder he tried to kill himself! I aint never heard anybody in the rooms talk about that kind of stuff, the meds sure but the rest?....Yeah im creeped out for you bro
I took him back into the apartment for one last chance in response to pathetic begging from his mother and his father just had heart surgery. Stipulations:
-No theft.
-No nonpayment of rent.
-No intox on premises.
-Taking meds of mine.
-Threats or acts of violence.
-Any for of stalking or sexual harassment, detailed in contract.
which places either party in compromised position with employer.
-Destruction of property on premises.
-Threatening or attempting to commit suicide.
-Destruction of premises.
-Any other illegal or unlawful activity resulting in offense.
Furthermore, both parties hold an obligation to work a program of recovery, including but not limited to AA meetings, religious services, obtaining and working with a sponsor, doctor apps, therapy apps or any combination thereof.
Anything I left off, please add. I had myself, my roommate and Jeff and his parents sigh, plus it was notarized. Any holes you may see. PM me and Ill forward you the real contract.
I hate you've had to go through all this bro. You should really reconsider your tjouggt of letting him move back in. It really sounds like he needs some long term treatment. Don't put yourself in a situation where you can find yourself in harms way. He sounds really unstable and there is no telling what he could do if Hes not on the proper mess or getting the help he truly needs. Don't let yourself get in a situation where you can get in trouble for have to go to his ass and Please my friend don't let this get you to a point where you jeopardize your sobriety. Go talk to your land lord their are ways out of a lease so as it to to affect your credit. Is their anyone you could get to come in and take his place to help cover the rent and bills. Think and I mean really think about this before you comet to letting him back in seriously. With having papers signed and notarized about letting him back don't get yourself in a situation where you are stuck with him and not able to kick him out. Because once signed and notarized its a legal and binding document and your stuck. Just put yourself and your health and safety first his family knows Hes sick and they should help get him the help he needs. Remember sobriety first. Good luck friend were always here to talk with you if you ever need us. Were all a big family here.
I would be gone if not for the lease. I have a good job, but I can't afford 2 rents right now.
Today family we have 902 days clean and sober !!
Awesome bro! Keep it up!
Rick GrimesFell off the wagon 2months ago. Heading to detox tomm to rid my body of the junk. See u guys in a week. The day i get home im immediately hitting a meeting and plan on 90in90. Im gonna chase my recovery like ive been chasing this little $40 brown bag around the city. Tired of being a slave to flacco and everything else that goes with this disgusting lifestyle. Stay strong bros. Much respect
Bro I know things can be hard. It seems like your rolling through life on top of the world and life snatches the rug out from under you and the next thing you know your making love to a a little balloon or plastic baggie or an rx bottle. It hard man its damn hard. My biggest trigger has always been stress. Some say money is their stressor but for me its stress of the world. I never learned how to deal or process stress growing up and now its my biggest enemy. I tried for years to get clean but with no luck and I only got clean with suboxon and therapy. With therapy I learned how to process stress and over come it. I still have my down days but for the most im riding high. I wish you luck brother I really do you can do it homie I have faith in you. Where always here for you.
I know how shitty you feel. We are slaves to our addiction. Whats important is you keep faith that you will live a clean life. We all fuck up. Just get back up and keep moving forward good luck bro!
Friend of Bill here, pick up my first blue chip May 30, I was an every day meeting guy until I got back into the gym in Dec. last year, never thought I could actually stay sober long enough to get back into shape, finding this site and a better way to source gear is part of the reason for that. Love this community even more now that this forum is up.