posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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Thats how I feel
^^^^^^^^ TRUTH
If you have been clean now for over 3 weeks it's just your head fucking with you. Good work, been there before it's a hard fuking task so I know were your coming from.
It's time to stay clean of them now so if you have any about the house make sure you destroy them responsibly. Good luck with moving forwards!
Yeah I flushed everything I had and told my doctor about my problem so he will be mindful moving forward
About to celebrate 15 months!! Pumped about this forum!! Just left my homegroup tonight. Truely grateful
congrats brother having a good home group has been very helpful for me
I'm a recovering addict. And by addict I mean anything that makes me feel good! Drugs of choice were opiates and alcohol. I've been sober for going on 7.years now. I am a.leader in celebrate recovery, the chemical dependency group. Last night I got the blessing to take c.r. into the county jail. What a blessing! Great to be here. Please pm me if you ever need to talk or prayers.
Such a blessing to stumble across this. Love how many eroids members are in the program.
WOW!!!!! I'm so happy I found this forum. I'm also a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I'm coming up on 18 months Feb the 6th. Only bu God's grace and the 12 steps of AA!!!!
congrats brother
Thanks big dog
Bout to hit a meeting right now first one in awhile.
How did that meeting go?
How was the meeting bro. Haven't been myself in a bit.
We all will continue to fight. The gym will serve as our rehab. God bless all of us that need it.
I got clean 9-28-1996 . I relapsed in june 2010. My new clean date is 1-1-11 coming up on 5 years again. Ithank God!
Yeah man i relapsed after 9 years clean. I have not been able to put together 90 days in the last 2 years. I came close over the last couple months with a day slip here and there. It is very disappointing to myself. Very depressing. I go to the gym look at myself in the mirror and say never again. I fckn hate the person i am, how i look, the shit i do, its sickening.
I know the feeling somewhat. I relapsed after 2.5 years and it was complete misery. I just wanted to die. And it only took 2 months to get back to that incomprehensible demoralization the big book talks about. Thank God for his Grace and mercy. And one of the most important things that was told to me is that I never had to feel that way again. WHAT A RELIEF!!! now I'm back at 18 months again and still have a long road ahead of me. But one thing I can say is that I haven't had to feel that way yet. Keep it simple bro and do the work!!!
Yeah man. Thanks. Why do we go back to killing ourselves after loving ourself is beyond me but its a ruff road to travel.
your missing spirituality right now, talk to your God, practice some spiritual principles. get out of yourself. inside job brother, the onion, work toward the core issues, they are there I can see them in this post. Talk with your sponsor, tell him how you feel, he will have some answers for you or find another sponsor. Remember, if you think it you will eventually believe it/become it.
We're addicts. It's what we have done. Stop beating yourself up and do something different. Step by Step. Nothin' changes if nothin' changes!
Not intirely true buddy...I found this lil gem over the weekend at convention.
If nothing changes....eventuallyy my clean date will.
Ace VenturaOh snap
Thanks, Brother. I like that even better. I'll borrow it and use it at my next meeting.
Im not beating myself up. Im keeping it real.
Okay
TARANISCongratulations so much my friend, , we are all a big family here and the purpose is to help people by which anyway is possible,
Lots of us have been there and lots have came back from the brink, myself included, many times, we are always here for you fella,
You will always have a place to turn when things seem bad,
I cannot emphasize enough this place is a God send , and here for a reason.
When things seem so bad,
GYM GYM GYM GYM GYM GYM,
Gives you time to think, bring out that aggression, and work that body as hard as you ever have.
STAYE SAFE MY FRIEND
OME DAY AT A TIME
TIME WAITS FOR NO MAN.
BE GOOD, BE KIND AND BE CAREFUL.
LOVE MY FRIEND
a guy tried to fight me after the meeting i chaired tonight. a similar situation happened early in sobriety which i did not handle as well and ended up being arrested. the charges were later dropped but i learned so much from that experience. these are perfect opportunities to look at myself and what is disturbing me, then share that with somebody, then pray for willingness to humbly pray for these defect of character to be removed what happens after that i dont know but it works
i have fought and fought, reacted hastily on so many things in life and now i can be patient and tolerant if im doing the work
8 years clean today... What a journey.. I have things in my life today i would have never imagined... I came to see if i could learn to not use and ended up with much more! Wierd things like. Integrity. Hope. Faith. Love. Peace. Trust. JFT!!
I never have to use again! Recently relocated to socal and the fellowship has welcomed me open arms!
Congrats brother
Getting back to good.
https://www.eroids.com/pics/self-esteem-on-the-rise
So I recently moved to a new area and I've been getting more active in the rooms here after spending some time away. It's amazing after all of these years that this program continues to humble me.
I'm so grateful to be where I am. The most rewarding thing for me lately has been sponsorship. I started working with a guy these last few weeks going over step 1 and it just blows my mind. I'm looking in a mirror. With every person I've ever sponsored. They keep it green for us And they don't even know it. It's an incredible feeling to be able to spread hope to others and at the same time get so much back.
If you haven't gone out lately and just been there for someone, expecting absolutely nothing in return, I suggest you get out there. Start giving. The positivity we project outward always finds it's way back to us.
right on brother
Good to see a Room Dedicated to Recovery.
Great to see so many members in recovery!
Hellz yeah
I have quit tobacco products, smoking 3 years ago, chewing little over year ago, thanks to smokey mountain chew, have now quit all drugs to lose weight, and become fitter, thanks to the gym life!
i picked up VIII year chip tonight. right now im reflecting on this recovery journey, different stages to where i am now and the work that still needs to be done. how some of those patterns can still pop up when im sober. i take a meeting to detox at the hospital so im reminded often on where i was and where i hope/pray i never return to the hopeless state of mind and body. Life has a new meaning and purpose I just got to keep doing the work and grow
7 years clean earlier this month!
Awesome bro.cant wait till i get to put up a post like that.i cant even string a week together at the moment.and my training is suffering because of it.keep on keeping on bro
Truth be told im always a few seconds away from using, just takes one bad decision, wrong place right time and im done. I feel like I have bought some time at this point of my recovery, but I thought that before and ended up using again. So I changed every fucken thing this time, places I go, people i know, things I do, thoughts I have. People have told me you cant change your thinking, I say bullshit, change everything else and your thinking will change too, Guaranteed I dont think nothing like I used too. Its a life change, scary and awkward at first, but just walk through those feelings and know that there is a light on the other side so long as you dont use no matter fucking what...Change those things my friend, make it so the drugs arent right there in front of you and you dont got fiends calling you, misery loves company! toss out that phone and get one filled with people in recovery, get rid of the ole lady, family, or anybody else that jeopardizes your recovery. And what ever you do, keep going to meetings and trying to get clean. Do all the shit they say to do in meetings. Good luck
2step talks in how it works and why if we take action that our thinking will change. So i am with you. I believe in the literature cause everyhhing i read has happened from staying clean to using. 7 yrs is a miracle dude, fckn awesome and wish i could be at your celebration. I wish i never threw away my 9 and change but like you said it is a fight everyday but it does get easier. The disease is all over me everday being a new commer again but all i can do is think about the person i want to be instead of the person i was.(scumbag) thanks for the hope RN;)
Love your posts in here big guy. I go to enough meetings to separate the guys that walk it, from the guys that just talk it. I can tell you speak the language of the heart.
And it's true, all we have is today. But as my sponsor likes to say, "They give out those fucking chips for a reason." I'm a lot further from a drink or a drug than I was 8 years ago and I'll stay that way as long as I keep on keeping on.
Lastly, why is your karma zero again?
lots of years of H&I, love those meetings where its not really a meeting and new addicts can ask you questions about things in your story, just a different setting where you can give back to a group of hungry, confused, scared addicts. Best feeling in the world to see the lights start to come up, these guys are a few days into treatment, been listening to counselors and videos and workbooks. And then we come in once every 2 weeks during their 4 week dryout, and they see its real. This shit really works, and then the hope and fear really starts to set in, and like good addicts they want the answers right fucking now, so i feed em the real shit. LOVE H&I....I just took over Birthday Night, aside from H&I its the best damn commitment I have had. Done it three times now over the last 6 years. 1st year wasnt all that, i asked people to help me find speakers, never heard them before, just asked them on the phone and they came. 2nd time I took it different ballgame, every single speaker I found myself, none of them from my town. I drove hours in every direction going to meetings looking for speakers, had a fucking blast. 3rd time im gonna one up it again, this year me and the wife are gonna plan out our meeting schedule and grab a hotel for the weekend. So saturday we head out to a city far away and grab a 6, 7 and 830 meeting, crash at a hotel. site see on sunday, grab as many meeting as we can and come back late sunday night.
Recovery is what you make of it, put in the hard work and reap the benefits. I went to 14 meetings a week for my first 16 months, thats like 160 in 90days 5 times over! no bullshit!
once a week I still go out with the guys after my home group meeting. its just maintenance for me at this point, but i keep doing it.
My points are zero because I dont want new guys feeling that they have to have points, and because karma corrupts the site.
danariNext to nitti youre the best mod eroids have had!
H&I is the nitty gritty. It's as close to what Bill and Bob did as we get now days. Way more high bottom guys than there used to be. If you want to reach the low bottom, skid row guys, H&I is where it's at. I got sober in a homeless shelter. A far cry from the resort in the woods my parents paid for after my first fuck up. I love drunks and dope fiends. I understand them. We are truly the chosen ones. If you're ever passing through Bama, shoot me a PM. I know where all the real drunks meet.
As always, thank you for your commitment to your sobriety.
yeah man. I was living in my car and got real sick. my mom and her boyfriend took me in and gave me another chance. I have been wanting to use so bad but been looking for a job, hitting the gym and eating and sitting still. I know its not what I want. I lost everything and will give my life to shoot a bag. I feel positive though and ready to love myself again cause I did not give a fck. I was like Biggie "ready to die'
Until you find a jobby job, get your ass somewhere and volunteer. Do something to help somebody. It'll get you outta your own head and give you a reason to feel good about yourself. PM me any time man. Nobody does this shit alone.
solid advice.. stay sober by helping others
Solid advice.