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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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Hey guys just wanted to say what up. March will be 5 years for me off alcohol and hard drugs. I posted something in the off topic section about recovery not seeing this tag on top lol. Makes me love eroids more that they have a place for us thanks OP. Recovery ain't the easiest thing at times but god is it worth it. Look forward to talking to you all.
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Congrats brother. Keep it up! One day at a time.
Thanks bro.
Hey guys new here. Been struggling with addiction for 13 years. Got off perks and starting taking subs. Subs for 7 years then got off them
No energy so started taking adderall and xanax to calm the nerves before going to bed
Landed in rehab a year ago
Started taking subs 8 months ago for lack of energy and not wanting to start taking perks again but the subs are just making me depressed and lethargic
Started a cycle 4 weeks ago hoping diet and lifting would curb depression and motivation but hasn't seemed to help yet. Forcing myself to go to the gym 4x a week but i still have no energy motivation and the depression is still pretty bad
Anyone have any input or advise on my story. Anything would help out
Thanks for hearing me out
You got to stop substituting. gonna have to get clean and wait a few months to take some labs and see whats going on with your body. Self diagnosing is clearly not working. I would recommend meetings to get started, get connected with people in your area, sponsor.....
Sounds good. I have been on 10 different depression/anxiety meds over the past 5 years and none of them work. I see a doctor everyother month besides my sub doctor for depression. In a way im self medicating but have been a guini pig for the past 5 yrs with trial
And error. As of 2 weeks ago i weened off 2 meds and i am still taking lamictal
I will try some meeting
Hey brother keep your head up. Your story is so much like mine its crazy tbh. Ive been on subs now for right at 6yrs. I started out at 3 a day but im on a steady taper or should I say a good maintenance dose I take 1/4 a day now and damn do I feel so much better. It was a hard row to hoe and it took me near about losing everything I love to get myself right. Im also type 2 bipolar. I take limtical as well for moodswings and also welbutrein spelled that wrong I know lol. I still fight with depression everyday but I focus my time on my family work and gym. I know you have heard this a 1000 times so here is 1001 people places and things have to change find yourself clean and compassionate new friends there are 100s inside the rooms of N/A alot of people who want nothing more than to see you overcome this. Im sending you much love and prayers brother you can do this I know you can. Hit me up on here any time you may need a friend or just someone you can vent to. Were all here for you good luck and remember one day at a time don't worry about tomorrow and don't worry about next week worry only about what you can do to stay clean just for today.
In other words, a program. It's worked for me for 9.5 years. But I had to take a few suggestions like the ones you mentioned above. Good stuff.
40 days my friends soooo grateful
Boom!!!
Boom boom vhman
very nice, congratulations...
Wow, I'd love to find a in person meeting with all you guys. This is awesome, a bunch of guys just like me. I'm a recovering alcoholic/ heroin addict with 15 months sober after a brief relapse. I got sober the first time in prison in 2012. Now I traded the heroin rig for a gear pin and actually learned to love myself and take care of me.
shoutout to everyone in this group and all the fellow addicts and alcoholics... everything happens for a reason and what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. thats for DAMN sure. most everyone on here and especially this group is always encouraging others and giving em a helpin hand.& thats whats up. thats how it should be. alot of people dont understand why we are hard-headed or do the things we do but once you transfer that will & passion into something positive the sky is the fuckin limit. thanks to everyone on here for always being there and cheers(viking's tuna shake) to sobriety everyone.
Just hoping someone who needed to hear this comes across.
elbowOut the rehab n big house back in real world living n have been for 2 weeks Tuesday fucking good to be out the trenches n living healthy putting on some solid muscle at present got 4 gyms with in 10 mins walk a front door ..yes I am a male slag so whent for the one with the sauna n spa better then looking at hairy ass blokes when you training and the rest periods go faster when chatting to a cutey lol just to say to all the types is worth it shit like happens that you would expect when your heads on game n thinking right ....
Whats up fellas? Been making a meeting everyday still cant stop but tomorrow I will try to go cold. I had 9 yrs clean lost everything and havnt held it together over the last 3 yrs. I just got a job at a gym and have a chance to build or destroy. So tired of losing everything over and over comming on here posting im back to disappear for months. I want this. I need help.
It's a viscous cycle bro. If meetings are helping keep it up. Have you tried rehab? some very nice ones out there that give you some peace being stress free for 30/60/90 days. I know that helped me tremendously. Also, there are alternatives to AA & the Big Book. Smart Recovery is one that resonated with me. I'm not much for AA because I'm atheist & have trouble getting past the "higher power" concept. I'm recently 6 months clean after 2 yrs of a bad relapse, before that I had 6 yrs under belt. The one thing that helps me most is concentrating on my diet & workouts. Making small goals to meet daily & weekly. Stay with it man. Everything is so much better when we aren't out there sabotaging our selves. PM for rehabs I looked into. Just FYI for everyone on here: I am not discrediting AA. It just wasnt for me. If it works for you then that is all that matters & stick with it. Good luck!
Rosser01Get a great sponsor , one that will be there for you whenever the need may arise, if you need to go through 50 it's ok weed them out until you find the right one, go to two meetings a day if you have to or whenever you feel any kind of urge to go out and chase whatever it may be..!! Head first don't look back, if you do you will fall..!! It's a way of life, you would like your deff sick and tired of that way, Get involved, make the coffee, take out the garbage, set up the seats and take them down.!.! Get involved.!.! Good Luck Bro
elbowGood luck mofo head up n pull your socks ip
Keep at it man. Make two meetings a day. Call your sponsor. Call a friend. Go for a walk. Whatever you gotta do. Just dont use today.
Nice, I'm glad I came across this forum. Can't believe I never noticed it. Coming up on 4 years clean new years day. Work the n/a program. Saved my fucking life, was the ultimate gutter junkie heroine addict used for 15+ years finally went to my 3rd treatment center and surrendered and have have been clean since. Look forward to bring part of this forum. My wife and I are both in recovery she's actually a. LCDC 2 on way to masters working at a solid treatment center where we live. anyways i love the program and recovery and thin i can contribute some experience strength and hope.
glad you found this congrats and keep up the good work
I am 25 been clean from everything for almost 8 years now. i don't make meetings as much anymore but i built a great base the first 4 years. I have been training in the gym consistency for the last 3 years. I finally started tracking macros last year so my diet is on point. I just finished a 4 month cut. Got down to like 9% body fat. I started bulking about a month ago. Everyone i look up to in this lifestyle is taking AAS. I know i want to do a small cycle. I have made a goal to stay natty until i am 30. If i haven't reached my goals i will then try a small cycle. Maybe 250mg of test and d bol and something to conteract estrogen. i am worried if this will restart my clean time. Anyone have a solid answer for me. the friends in recovery i have told me it would be a relapse. but thats 2 people and have no desire to get high in any way. i love this new lifestyle and i want to progress with it. please help!!
Rick GrimesThis is just my thoughts on aas.i consider steroids using because ur putting a substance in ur body for an effect. Its that simple. Clean is clean. Im no aa/na guru but thats how ive always seen it. Its like asking if i put the heroin down i cant just drink? Or what if im an opiate addict and i get injured and my doc writes me perks? If i take them as perscribed is it a relapse?
What does your sponsor think?
I had a falling out with him a while back over another issue we didn't see eye to eye on. i have just been in contact with the people I've built relationships. again i will state i do not make meetings nearly as much.
Not really sure why you're concerned about something that's 5 years away.
Just seeing what other people like us have experienced
That we all like instant gratification and hard work always seems harder than it us but 10 times more rewarding when we make it there? my experience anyways
elbowThank fook its a a na /ca that says roids are ok got some serious shit at local meeting when I started out again n gains came a bit faster than norm n people noticed but hay ho my choice ,,,,,been on and off street tat whole life from 12\13 full spectrum heroin from 13till18 party script from then till old uncle Colombia got in the Brea basket fuck sake I was shooting sust m snorting a hehe gene then training flat the fuck out did get what I wanted at time but occupational hazard it got out a hand to some scary levels mixed with vodka it got fucking ugly so droped the juice and training till I was on game n right head space again took some time lol then the k seemed like a good idea to cut back the Chang thing wrong back then it was cheap as shit in uk as not illegal n could get ko sent India 350american so you can imagine how that whent lol naked in dual carriage way with two bananas screaming freeze this a fuck up amongst other things pmsl......some heavy shit court cases to do with young young years came round at 29been going on n off till end summer 2015 took a toll n picked up the dreaded big naughty again to stop me taking things in to own hands out a pure frustration with British legal system been in recovery now since end of the court shit so nearly year and half do me na but gym n training does me more good than any therapy and still in a rehab in a fashion lol sssshhhh dont tell em I here lol no... after 6 month in the main program I was training heavy and staff kept joking saying they where going a test me for juice n get a special one on but bantering more than any thing,Gen wasn't back juicing then but after man boss had a word in ear n said as they not mind altering they are not in any of the policy papers n just be discreet I sort a took that as it a be ok lol .... Fucking thats my share done pmsl why has it took this long to find this forum clean serene living the dream lol big love people
so first let me say that i am taking subs. i today have one year clean from everything else/ all opiates and alcohol which was not my thing. so being on subs do i have a year clean or no. most people in the program where i live would say definetely not. ive been doing this a long time and what i do know is that being on subs has allowed me to not just stay off H but ive been employed for the last year ive been a trustworthy member of my family again i pay my bills take care of all other obligations and find time for the gym. I feel guilty taking subs and claiming i have a year clean but at the same time i know how hard it is and am proud of myself. the alternative was not promising. i before have got to this point and decided to stop maintenance meds and wind up right back where i started. i'm not sure what i want to do. but today i wont use. thank you for this group and all who share.
Rosser01Bro I take subs, I have been on them for quite some time, I consider myself clean. I know a lot of ppl disagree but it's not there life. I don't hide it, I am proud of who I have become today and without those I don't know if I would have came this far. I am happy and clean and loving life ( the subs don't get me high).!.! Keep on keeping on Bro
I don't think you'd be asking the question if you didn't feel a certain way about it. Millions of folks have gotten clean without subs or methadone, me being one of them. Heroine is a tough beat. My wife liked to bang K4s. She picked up a white chip and never looked back. If we can do it, anybody can do it. Talk to your sponsor about it.
thanks for the response. im still struggling with figuring out my own feelings. of course it can be done with out the crutch. congrats to both of you
celebrating 2 months today! I know that isn't very long & I have been sober longer before but this time is different. I have made so much more psychological progress this time than any other time before. thanks to every one on eroids who continues to sprout motivation and hope. bodybuilding has always been something to bring me back to my roots and hold me down. if anyone ever needs to talk about something no matter what it is feel free to PM me. god bless everyone. work your steps they truly result in a good life
You say 2 months isn't very long!!!!! I remember when I couldn't stay sober for a DAY!!!! 2 months is a big deal and if you are an alcoholic and drug addict like me then 2 months is like forever, I've been sober almost 2 1/2 years and I'm so grateful for a way out, keep trudging bro, the greatest years of our existence lie ahead,
Rosser01Congrats..!! Full steam ahead and don't look back, it's still fresh but there is a point when you feel absolutely no desire to go backwards and when you reach that point there is no stopping you.
thanks man means more than you know!! im getting there day by day
Ace VenturaI celebrated 14 years clean this month. Well, actually I didn't celebrate shit, and I didn't realize it even happened until now.....but on the 4th it was 14 years.
That's great! I can though see that the drug use has taken its toll on you mentally and emotionally. ;-)
I think that it's fantastic that you've kind of moved on from the "anniversaries" and life has just taken over.
Ace VenturaLol word. Yeah, nothing against anniversaries I guess, I actually don't really celebrate many holidays or birthdays either, but I do just live life the way I am. I'm aware of what I can and can't do, but those substances just aren't a part of my life or my surroundings anymore.
StevebSure if you don't count steroids. 14 years is a long time that's good.
Ace VenturaThank you. Steroids used to be confusing to me. Once I came to peace with it, I shoot that shit all the time. ...plus I never used iv drugs
I did celebrate 9 years in July. If got down like I got down, I'm sure the community is grateful for your commitment. Thank you Ace.
Ace VenturaYou're too kind. Thank you
I celebrated 8 years clean this month.....
Thank you for your commitment.
Congrats brother
Congrats! By now it should just be a distant memory of another lifetime. No regrets, and no desires to return.
I know it's getting easier but does the craving eventually go away ?