posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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Today I had 3000 days clean!.....what a trip, didnt know if I would get 30. My life is different today I can hardly even remember how it was and when I talk about it it sounds like someone else. My kids dont even believe me...lol...No matter how hard it gets just dont pick up. It gets better!
Congrats and thank you for starting this forum. I haven't been in here in awhile and need to make more of an effort to stop in. Keep it up bro
Way to go Homie I proud of you I know its been a long hard road but just keep it up. Ill have 5yrs in June and at times its been an absolute nightmare but its been blessing and im so thankful to still be around. Like you said there's always friends around to lend a helping hand and a ear to listen. Keep on keeping on brother.
Way to go. 3530 days here, according to my 12 step companion app., one day at a time. Told my story at a local half-way house last night. A good reminder of where I've been and don't want to return.
Rick GrimesCan u share how i get thiss aa companion app plz? I need it bad. Ty brother. And congrats.
Just go to your phone's app store and download the 12 step companion. It comes with a big book (AA) and 12x12. There's probably one for NA too. I think it's a one time fee of $1.99. Pretty cool little app. It tells you how many years, months, days or hours you've been sober.
Congrats that's amazing keep it up
Had 8 years. Fucked it off for a year and a half. Back at 9 months. And those last 9 months went from 130 to 175 as yesterday. Going to the gym. Eating and what not. I look better now than I did with 6 and 7 years sober.
Rick GrimesWelcome pwb211! Keel it up. 8yrs aint a walk in the park! Dont beat urself up(easier said than done). 1min at a time if thsts whAT it takes. Get back into ur home group, get active at meetings and as always well welcome u with open arms. Change ur phone #. Surround urself with nothing bit sober people when possible( like if ur in construction ur around it all day obv) but in ur personal and home life. Its cliché but true, people, places,& things. Hang in there. U know what u have to do to stay clean and u knkw what u did/stopped doing to trigger the relapse. 1 is too many 1,000 is never enough for us. Much respect Rick
Perfect response.
Thanks man. I'm not even uin my home state. My wife just left me and took muy daughter. Luckily I'm oil field so I work 18 hours a day. Go to the gym then sleep. Just working on eating more lifting more. Jerking of more.
Rick GrimesBeen shooting dope and coke for over 10 yrs. Not tryna tell war stories but its led me to some fucked up places.had a few slip ups past few months and i know where its gonna lead if i dont get to a meeting and get focussed. Thanks for this group.
Good luck brother. stay strong
Definitely make a meeting, Brother. I've not had slip ups but I've made choices that nearly took my life. I've made better choices in the last 5 years but I'm just one bad choice away from a whole lotta suffering.
Rick GrimesIt boggles my mind how i continue this vicious cycle knowing where it brings me every single fucking time without fail!!! Not to sound cliché but i like this saying," u can CHOOSE to give up everything for 1 thing (drug of ur choice). Or u could choose to give up 1 thing( drug of choice) & have everything." its crazy how i choose to give up everything good and meaningfull in my life for a $40 bag. To most people thats a no brainer. Ive never been the "social drinker" or weekend warrior. Normal people go home after the bar. Me im calling flacco, jumping counters and dont stop till im in the can. Im not bragging nor proud of what this shit does/has done to me/life. Its fucking embarrassing tbh. I greatly appreciate ur responding to me with the positivity and good feedback. Much respect. 1day at a time.
I beat myself up over and over with this same problem. I fought for my life tooth and nail for many ah years struggling to kick painpills. I finialy got clean with subutx and I done wonderful for several years until I replaced one problem with another. I worked myself down from 3 a day down to a half a one life problems happen, work, stress, bills and this and that and I feel back to my old ways and started abusing my subutx. So what went from a half of one went to 5 or 6 a day for awhile I get sick of it and fight to get back down to a half then it starts all over again. I know that I have to stay strong but it is a very vicisous cycle and it has been for 20yrs of my life i pray for the day where I never have to rely on any substance to live me life. Subutx for sure saved my life but at the same time it still controls my life and holds me down. We all have to stay strong and find comfort and safety in one another we have to make ourselves available to help each other and the new comer you never know when just taking a few minutes to talk to or to type a few encouraging words will save the life of a stranger. Share your experiences and your story and strive to help just one addict everyday. Stay strong RICK you can beat this and you always have friends here at eroids and inside of the rooms who don't mind helping you even if its just to have someone to talk to for a bit. STAY STRONG HOMIE.
You're not alone bro! There r so many of us out here who have been right in that spot. We know what we need to do. We dont like being addicts but there is that part of our brain that keeps us coming back for more. It took me 21 yrs to finally be able to break free. All but a couple of yrs were absolutely horrible because I had stopped enjoying dope a hell of a long time ago. Was just a part of my life I had to deal with and I had resigned myself to accepting I was always going to have to use dope. Even though it ruined everything...EVERYTHING!.. just stay strong man. You are sick of the life. You will get there, its cliche but take one day at a time. If that dont work take 1 hr, or 1 min at a time. U can do it, FR me and send a pm if u wanna chat sometime.
To most that aren't addicts it's a no brainier. I was an addict before I ever put a drug in me. It's not the drugs that make me an addict. It's my thought process. The way I see life. Drugs are a symptom of my problem. It took me not only goin' to meetings but gettin' professional help in one on one counselling and group therapy before I could ever get as honest as I needed to be at a meeting. It takes time. Stop beating yourself up and make a meeting. When I was stuck in the mind frame of addiction, whether I was active or not, it was inevitable I would use. It's no surprise. It's what addicts do.
Friday. Home group day. I got best commitment. Greeter! Get to hug all the new commer girls lol!!
That could be a good thing but it could also be a bad thing. There are some pretty damn fine girls at the meetings from where im from. I have to stay on my toes and stay focused at all times. Its so hard to ne a good guy at times.
Recently celebrated 10 years strong. Blessed.
So proud of you brother. That's an awesome feat and hard to do. Keep up the hard work.
Congrats. Thanks for being a example.
Thanks bro. One day at a time.
bigmurphI just had a good guy reach out to me. He is in a bad spot where we all have been before I asked him to come over here told him there wee alot of good guys over here. I don't want to throw his name out but hopefully he will post here soon.
dont bring him here take him to a meeting
bigmurphHe is on eroids
Yes I told him to goto 3 meeting a day and to check this page out
Yes!! Ill be at one in a few hours. Woot woot
bigmurphYeah brother i hope he pops up here
He has a similar story as the 2 of us.
Im glad your doing well brother you been hitting the weight also
Of course. Bout 220 now. Npp and sus is kicking in full speed ahead. Are u bout to run that deca cycle?
bigmurphThats the next one out i have one wk left of the 12 wk cycle I was running. Im at 200 give or take lean and solid.
Im looking to bulk heavy next I figured sust decca adrol is my best bet.
I love eroids and I'm happy there's somewhere on here where addiction can be discussed too. I've spoke about it before about using drugs again. I came off a 10 month run 5 months ago that almost killed me. Literally died from an overdose. I lost a sister from an overdose. This shit is no joke with the drugs nowadays. Plus the drugs suck anyways nowadays. I was 220 pounds healthy and feeling great and went down to 150 pounds. Definitely not what I want for my life. To be living like junkie or bum. All I can say is I'm happy that people have made it and are still here to share there experience.
Welcome back. Lots of people dying in my area. It's bad. Stay grateful.
Glad you're here bro. One day at a time.
JSR3412, drug addict. I have 21 months as of April 2nd, 2015 and I'm coming up on 2 years. I'm grateful to be here
Welcome bro
Hey guys just wanted to say what up. March will be 5 years for me off alcohol and hard drugs. I posted something in the off topic section about recovery not seeing this tag on top lol. Makes me love eroids more that they have a place for us thanks OP. Recovery ain't the easiest thing at times but god is it worth it. Look forward to talking to you all.
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Congrats brother. Keep it up! One day at a time.
Thanks bro.
Hey guys new here. Been struggling with addiction for 13 years. Got off perks and starting taking subs. Subs for 7 years then got off them
No energy so started taking adderall and xanax to calm the nerves before going to bed
Landed in rehab a year ago
Started taking subs 8 months ago for lack of energy and not wanting to start taking perks again but the subs are just making me depressed and lethargic
Started a cycle 4 weeks ago hoping diet and lifting would curb depression and motivation but hasn't seemed to help yet. Forcing myself to go to the gym 4x a week but i still have no energy motivation and the depression is still pretty bad
Anyone have any input or advise on my story. Anything would help out
Thanks for hearing me out
You got to stop substituting. gonna have to get clean and wait a few months to take some labs and see whats going on with your body. Self diagnosing is clearly not working. I would recommend meetings to get started, get connected with people in your area, sponsor.....
Sounds good. I have been on 10 different depression/anxiety meds over the past 5 years and none of them work. I see a doctor everyother month besides my sub doctor for depression. In a way im self medicating but have been a guini pig for the past 5 yrs with trial
And error. As of 2 weeks ago i weened off 2 meds and i am still taking lamictal
I will try some meeting
Hey brother keep your head up. Your story is so much like mine its crazy tbh. Ive been on subs now for right at 6yrs. I started out at 3 a day but im on a steady taper or should I say a good maintenance dose I take 1/4 a day now and damn do I feel so much better. It was a hard row to hoe and it took me near about losing everything I love to get myself right. Im also type 2 bipolar. I take limtical as well for moodswings and also welbutrein spelled that wrong I know lol. I still fight with depression everyday but I focus my time on my family work and gym. I know you have heard this a 1000 times so here is 1001 people places and things have to change find yourself clean and compassionate new friends there are 100s inside the rooms of N/A alot of people who want nothing more than to see you overcome this. Im sending you much love and prayers brother you can do this I know you can. Hit me up on here any time you may need a friend or just someone you can vent to. Were all here for you good luck and remember one day at a time don't worry about tomorrow and don't worry about next week worry only about what you can do to stay clean just for today.
In other words, a program. It's worked for me for 9.5 years. But I had to take a few suggestions like the ones you mentioned above. Good stuff.
40 days my friends soooo grateful
Boom!!!
Boom boom vhman
very nice, congratulations...
Wow, I'd love to find a in person meeting with all you guys. This is awesome, a bunch of guys just like me. I'm a recovering alcoholic/ heroin addict with 15 months sober after a brief relapse. I got sober the first time in prison in 2012. Now I traded the heroin rig for a gear pin and actually learned to love myself and take care of me.
shoutout to everyone in this group and all the fellow addicts and alcoholics... everything happens for a reason and what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. thats for DAMN sure. most everyone on here and especially this group is always encouraging others and giving em a helpin hand.& thats whats up. thats how it should be. alot of people dont understand why we are hard-headed or do the things we do but once you transfer that will & passion into something positive the sky is the fuckin limit. thanks to everyone on here for always being there and cheers(viking's tuna shake) to sobriety everyone.
Just hoping someone who needed to hear this comes across.