posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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I had a slip up after months of being straight , don't know why either ? Because after I did it when I woke up I was like WTF did I do ? I realized it was stupid hopefully i can learn from it and think of this moment when or if temptation creeps back in
One day at a time bro. Take care of yourself.
Congrats all of you I recently relapsed and over 2 weeks almost fucked off all that I had turned around in almost three years, coming up on 60 days, it's good to know Your not alone out there. Struggled with opiates for almost 15 years lost the love of my life to a benzo opiate O.D. almost 3 years ago, and I picked back up afyer almiat 3 years I thought I had it beat but this shit is sneaky waiting for a moment of weakness
does anyone in recovery feel that if they are taking aas they are not truly clean? has anyoneone told there sponsor or friends in recovery about aas use?
I think it needs its own program....
good question.
I think people are not blind, if u use aas, it will not go unnoticed. (specially if you screw with PCT, and you get two sagging tits
Ace VenturaIt's such a personal decision. There was a point where I wasn't sure. Now I don't feel at all like I'm using. Btw I've been sober a lot longer than NoWeakAces
Lol, I love you. Let's swap fluids.
Ace VenturaDeal!
Sponsor and friends in recovery know I'm on gear. Sponsor doesn't like it. But he does concede that it's not making my life unmanageable and I'm not powerless over it. I'll celebrate 9 years sober in July.
That being said, if you're trying to convince your self that steroids aren't mind and mood altering, you're lying to your self.
Ar11xHey I was reading A lot of these post and I've had my own personal struggles with addiction. And I noticed a lot of ppl were on subs. I actually quit my dope habit by taking Kratom for 10 days and it helped so much so just thought I would throw that out there to help ppl if your trying to get off opiates or subs. If u have any questions hit me up. Now been clean for a while and it's a struggle at times but being swoll helps keep me clean
Hey mann just came across your
Post. I am on subs. I was on them for seven years. Got off them and then started taking adderall due to having no energy. I picked up kratom anfew weeks
Ago but read alot about it doing nothing if you are currently on suboxone. How did you taper off subs with the kratom. By the way i am back on subs after ehab for adderall, took subs from the street to feel better then went and got prescribed. Its just keeping me somewhat normal but still
Depressed and have no motivation. Just started a cycle of test cyp hoping that would make me motivated and feel better with diet and exercise but im on week 4 and notice nothing except i dread making myself go to the gym which is supposed to make you feel better but it doesn't do anything for me
Thanks for hearing me out
Recently celebrated 4 years clean. Was concerned about the use of pins(works) being a possible trigger but so far so good. I've not talked to anyone in my network about my new venture so I'm using youse guys to open up about this. Been a member here since the middle of December after just lookin' in for a few weeks. Made a comment or two in this forum but never about myself. Secrets keep me sick. Thanks for letting me share.
Congratulations bro 4 years sober that's something to be proud of..
Thanks. I've always said if they came up with a single dose pill that could cure addiction, I would take 2 to see what would happen. I believe I've been keeping my doses on cycle fairly low and gettin' good results but, if I'm gettin' good results with low doses, higher doses would be SO much better. I've stuck to my plan!
I was very wary of using pins too brother. Glad you're here. Keep sharing and keep your head up. I've ran three cycles in the last few years since I've started. Still 9 years sober from all other drugs and alcohol. Takes a lot of willpower but I do believe AAS can be used safely if you educate yourself and keep your health (mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual) your priority. Welcome.
Thanks Switch
thanks for sharing
Rick GrimesWhats up fellas? Been struggling with heroin for the past 10yrs. Im not here to tell my war stories but its brought me to places I never thought id be. Kidnapped, shot,stabbed, county,state,federal,&lets not forget about the good ole chain gang. Man they hate us Yankees in the dirty dirty. Im currently on subs and planning to taper off. Im not knocking anyone who is on it but I dont consider myself clean due to the fact that im still putting a substance in my body for an effect. At my point in my life it bests sticking a needle in my neck. Ya I ran out of viens at the old age of 34. Ive had clean time on the street.4yrs at one time until my mother died in my arms of cancer. I picked up the next day cuz,I dint have coping skills and it just made things worse. Im a member of the fellowship now but dont speak cuz im on subs&thats my choice. It can be done. U get over the sickness. Get to a meeting get connected. Ur higer power can be ur family ur kids. Whatever u think makes the tides turn. Im Rick Grimes signing off for now. Hmu if anyone needs to talk. Dueces.
7 month sober. Year and half round program. Glad to be here
Glad your here patrickpump. Keep trudging
I can dig it
has anyone ever taken subs while on test. currently im on subs because the alternative was not being able to stop the other shit. Has anyone had problems with libido while on subs? Does it make a test cycle less productive?
subs and all other opiates really mess with ur endo system bro.... They give great workouts at first, b/c of that energy rush and pain killing effect, BUT its a never ending and viscous cycle.
Try weening/tapering off the subs at a slow but steady rate.
Ex: lets say youre taking 8 mg/day right now... do 7 mg/day for 3 days, 6 mg/day for three days, 5 mg/day for 3 days.....etc etc. All the way down to where ur just taking like 1 mg. per day.
I promise, your gains will be better without em. I have also found that living the 'bodybuilding' lifestyle, making gains, eating clean, being a more 'productive' member of society, getting girls, etc. greatly exceeds any ''high'' that an illicit drug can produce! hope this helps man!
This month it was 12 years, since i quit my heroin addiction. I've had a drug therapy instead the rest of my prison term. After that I've never had any meetings, never prayed to any gods. In summer it will be 12 years being with my wife and daughter and THEY gave me the strength to stay almost clean. I say almost, cause twice a year i take some uppers, when going to the clubs. This is my compensation, to stay clean and for my life with family and honest work, which I've never known before I've quit my drugaddiction. This works fine for me and i don't wanna know where i would be today, if i hadn't met my family....
All the best wishes for you guys, stay straight 'n' strong.
Hope your wife dont leave or something happen to them. Youve got a HUGE reservation right there, and no recovery foundation. Im sure it seems fine right now, and hey it might always be that way, but ive sat with many men that have lost their wives and children before themselves. Ive seen many of them stay clean and a few that lost the battle and went back out. Had a lady speak a few months ago, picking up 10 years clean after having 12 years prior. Her daughter started using, and she went back out to try and save her and keep her safe. 13 years later she picks up 10 and her daughter picked up 1.
Goodluck
There is a guy just posted up top, used after his mom died in his arms, just saying family is a great motivator to get clean, but they can not keep you clean.
Thx brother, for your words. We have had really bad times the last years. My wife had breast cancer with chemotherapy. It was a hard way, but she is cancer free since 4 years. some probs with our daughter, she had the wrong friends and made some bullshit. But we made it through and shes a real good teenage girl again, which i am very proud of. Few week before christmas 2015 the docs told me, that i have got testicular cancer. Left ball was amputated. But hey, we have made it through all these bullshits and i am still going my way....
yes my friend, life shows up....keep fighting the good fight!
Believe me brother, i do. Each day i stand up and think:
FUCK YOU FORTUNE, I'M FAR FROM FINISHED!!!!
Hey yall,im,David & a recovering addict my doc was opiates
Welcome bro
hey David, welcome to recovery lounge
so its been a little over 3 weeks and no pain killers, I was on them for about 9 months hard..but I find its harder and harder to stay away. I find that parts of me start hurting that honestly prob don't hurt and its my head telling me its pain to get me to use again. anyone else experience this ? is it normal to have this type of feeling ?
Percs
morphine
fentanyl
robaxin
What's helped me more than anything is helping someone else. Don't have to be with getting sober but help someone do something. Show the kid at the gym how to sat properly lol.
It's normal. And probably won't go away anytime soon. You just need to know what you want more , a slave to the pp or freedom from the pp.
I've been opiate addict since i was 17 or so and have been clean ( with a few slips here and there ) for 5 years.They're a real mind fuck trying to get off, your mind will play tricks on you but the withdrawl symptoms are extremely " physical ."
With some of those meds you listed i assume you were on pain management?
yes but then it got out of controll
How are you managing your pain now that you are off?
Honestly I don't have pain I feel it's just my head telling me things hurt bro .. Because it's not constant as soon as I take my mind off it it goes away. When I do it's just ibuprophen ,
that obsession i call the little bastard will say whatever to try to kill me. the physical part of withdrawal can last up to a month. hang in there brother i had to find stuff to keep me busy to try and shut that bastard up. working a 12 step program made sure to quiet that obsession and gave me tools to deal with life. who wouldve thought this know it all didnt know shit on how to live
It's deff a daily struggle but it is getting easier
you really should consider going to meetings, good place to learn about that thing in your head talking to you. it dont stop for many years, truth be told it gets slicker about how it tries to manipulate you. a support group would do you wonders....
Always had a phobia about opening up in a group setting lol never been one to share things like that but I guess it's worth a try if it helps
When the pain gets bad enough you won't have no problem opening up. Like they told me. What do you have to lose? It's gets easier big dog but we have to stay consistent in our recovery and like someone said up top. Helping g Others is key to maintain sobriety. Good luck and always know you are not alone
the disease has you right where it wants you, alone, isolated, stuck with your secrets, you'll lose this battle. in order to achieve long term recovery your gonna have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations. As addicts we dont like those feelings but just know there is power in sharing and bringing those secrets to light, there is power in one addict helping another, there is power in surrender.
exactly
Going to my first meeting tomorrow with a coworker tomorrow night . We will see how it goes
Roid is right. Once you get out of that zone and start to share with others that support is what keeps you going man. Always knowing you have people not only to support you and your journey but you to do the same with them. Your story may help more people then you could fathom.
How was your meeting?
Ever need to talk in here for you bro. Been through this shit from a shoulder surgery a few years back.
try to stay open minded and look as similarities. my first meeting i was looking at how i was different and that little bastard talked me right back into getting high. those assholes who new it all remind me of the assholes on these boards with a newbie i can learn from others experience if im honest, open and willing
X2. Well put and spot on.