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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!

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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!

Gymjunkie01's picture

yes but then it got out of controll

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brandoc84's picture

How are you managing your pain now that you are off?

Gymjunkie01's picture

Honestly I don't have pain I feel it's just my head telling me things hurt bro .. Because it's not constant as soon as I take my mind off it it goes away. When I do it's just ibuprophen ,

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IronJulius's picture

that obsession i call the little bastard will say whatever to try to kill me. the physical part of withdrawal can last up to a month. hang in there brother i had to find stuff to keep me busy to try and shut that bastard up. working a 12 step program made sure to quiet that obsession and gave me tools to deal with life. who wouldve thought this know it all didnt know shit on how to live

Gymjunkie01's picture

It's deff a daily struggle but it is getting easier

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Roid Noid's picture

you really should consider going to meetings, good place to learn about that thing in your head talking to you. it dont stop for many years, truth be told it gets slicker about how it tries to manipulate you. a support group would do you wonders....

Gymjunkie01's picture

Always had a phobia about opening up in a group setting lol never been one to share things like that but I guess it's worth a try if it helps

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TheFatKid's picture

When the pain gets bad enough you won't have no problem opening up. Like they told me. What do you have to lose? It's gets easier big dog but we have to stay consistent in our recovery and like someone said up top. Helping g Others is key to maintain sobriety. Good luck and always know you are not alone

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Roid Noid's picture

the disease has you right where it wants you, alone, isolated, stuck with your secrets, you'll lose this battle. in order to achieve long term recovery your gonna have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations. As addicts we dont like those feelings but just know there is power in sharing and bringing those secrets to light, there is power in one addict helping another, there is power in surrender.

tragac's picture

exactly

Gymjunkie01's picture

Going to my first meeting tomorrow with a coworker tomorrow night . We will see how it goes

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Plates-N-Quarters's picture

Roid is right. Once you get out of that zone and start to share with others that support is what keeps you going man. Always knowing you have people not only to support you and your journey but you to do the same with them. Your story may help more people then you could fathom.

How was your meeting?

Ever need to talk in here for you bro. Been through this shit from a shoulder surgery a few years back.

IronJulius's picture

try to stay open minded and look as similarities. my first meeting i was looking at how i was different and that little bastard talked me right back into getting high. those assholes who new it all remind me of the assholes on these boards with a newbie i can learn from others experience if im honest, open and willing

Gh0st's picture

X2. Well put and spot on.

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DaveyCrocket's picture

Thats how I feel

brandoc84's picture

^^^^^^^^ TRUTH

robb's picture

If you have been clean now for over 3 weeks it's just your head fucking with you. Good work, been there before it's a hard fuking task so I know were your coming from.

It's time to stay clean of them now so if you have any about the house make sure you destroy them responsibly. Good luck with moving forwards!

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Gymjunkie01's picture

Yeah I flushed everything I had and told my doctor about my problem so he will be mindful moving forward

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chilukes77's picture

About to celebrate 15 months!! Pumped about this forum!! Just left my homegroup tonight. Truely grateful

IronJulius's picture

congrats brother having a good home group has been very helpful for me

onelove's picture

I'm a recovering addict. And by addict I mean anything that makes me feel good! Drugs of choice were opiates and alcohol. I've been sober for going on 7.years now. I am a.leader in celebrate recovery, the chemical dependency group. Last night I got the blessing to take c.r. into the county jail. What a blessing! Great to be here. Please pm me if you ever need to talk or prayers.

Ekalb567's picture

Such a blessing to stumble across this. Love how many eroids members are in the program.

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TheFatKid's picture

WOW!!!!! I'm so happy I found this forum. I'm also a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I'm coming up on 18 months Feb the 6th. Only bu God's grace and the 12 steps of AA!!!!

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IronJulius's picture

congrats brother

TheFatKid's picture

Thanks big dog

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House's picture

Bout to hit a meeting right now first one in awhile.

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Clemenza's picture

How did that meeting go?

Gh0st's picture

How was the meeting bro. Haven't been myself in a bit.

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knuckleswollen's picture

We all will continue to fight. The gym will serve as our rehab. God bless all of us that need it.

Grindstonelabs's picture

I got clean 9-28-1996 . I relapsed in june 2010. My new clean date is 1-1-11 coming up on 5 years again. Ithank God!

House's picture

Yeah man i relapsed after 9 years clean. I have not been able to put together 90 days in the last 2 years. I came close over the last couple months with a day slip here and there. It is very disappointing to myself. Very depressing. I go to the gym look at myself in the mirror and say never again. I fckn hate the person i am, how i look, the shit i do, its sickening.

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TheFatKid's picture

I know the feeling somewhat. I relapsed after 2.5 years and it was complete misery. I just wanted to die. And it only took 2 months to get back to that incomprehensible demoralization the big book talks about. Thank God for his Grace and mercy. And one of the most important things that was told to me is that I never had to feel that way again. WHAT A RELIEF!!! now I'm back at 18 months again and still have a long road ahead of me. But one thing I can say is that I haven't had to feel that way yet. Keep it simple bro and do the work!!!

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House's picture

Yeah man. Thanks. Why do we go back to killing ourselves after loving ourself is beyond me but its a ruff road to travel.

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Roid Noid's picture

your missing spirituality right now, talk to your God, practice some spiritual principles. get out of yourself. inside job brother, the onion, work toward the core issues, they are there I can see them in this post. Talk with your sponsor, tell him how you feel, he will have some answers for you or find another sponsor. Remember, if you think it you will eventually believe it/become it.

Clemenza's picture

We're addicts. It's what we have done. Stop beating yourself up and do something different. Step by Step. Nothin' changes if nothin' changes!

catkinson's picture

Not intirely true buddy...I found this lil gem over the weekend at convention.

If nothing changes....eventuallyy my clean date will.

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Clemenza's picture

Thanks, Brother. I like that even better. I'll borrow it and use it at my next meeting.

House's picture

Im not beating myself up. Im keeping it real.

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Clemenza's picture

Okay

IronJulius's picture

a guy tried to fight me after the meeting i chaired tonight. a similar situation happened early in sobriety which i did not handle as well and ended up being arrested. the charges were later dropped but i learned so much from that experience. these are perfect opportunities to look at myself and what is disturbing me, then share that with somebody, then pray for willingness to humbly pray for these defect of character to be removed what happens after that i dont know but it works

i have fought and fought, reacted hastily on so many things in life and now i can be patient and tolerant if im doing the work

Jimmydasaint's picture

8 years clean today... What a journey.. I have things in my life today i would have never imagined... I came to see if i could learn to not use and ended up with much more! Wierd things like. Integrity. Hope. Faith. Love. Peace. Trust. JFT!!
I never have to use again! Recently relocated to socal and the fellowship has welcomed me open arms!

IronJulius's picture

Congrats brother

Gh0st's picture

So I recently moved to a new area and I've been getting more active in the rooms here after spending some time away. It's amazing after all of these years that this program continues to humble me.

I'm so grateful to be where I am. The most rewarding thing for me lately has been sponsorship. I started working with a guy these last few weeks going over step 1 and it just blows my mind. I'm looking in a mirror. With every person I've ever sponsored. They keep it green for us And they don't even know it. It's an incredible feeling to be able to spread hope to others and at the same time get so much back.

If you haven't gone out lately and just been there for someone, expecting absolutely nothing in return, I suggest you get out there. Start giving. The positivity we project outward always finds it's way back to us.

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IronJulius's picture

right on brother

KLF's picture

Good to see a Room Dedicated to Recovery.

Grindstonelabs's picture

Great to see so many members in recovery!

House's picture

Hellz yeah

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