posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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yes my friend, life shows up....keep fighting the good fight!
Believe me brother, i do. Each day i stand up and think:
FUCK YOU FORTUNE, I'M FAR FROM FINISHED!!!!
Hey yall,im,David & a recovering addict my doc was opiates
Welcome bro
hey David, welcome to recovery lounge
so its been a little over 3 weeks and no pain killers, I was on them for about 9 months hard..but I find its harder and harder to stay away. I find that parts of me start hurting that honestly prob don't hurt and its my head telling me its pain to get me to use again. anyone else experience this ? is it normal to have this type of feeling ?
Percs
morphine
fentanyl
robaxin
What's helped me more than anything is helping someone else. Don't have to be with getting sober but help someone do something. Show the kid at the gym how to sat properly lol.
It's normal. And probably won't go away anytime soon. You just need to know what you want more , a slave to the pp or freedom from the pp.
I've been opiate addict since i was 17 or so and have been clean ( with a few slips here and there ) for 5 years.They're a real mind fuck trying to get off, your mind will play tricks on you but the withdrawl symptoms are extremely " physical ."
With some of those meds you listed i assume you were on pain management?
yes but then it got out of controll
How are you managing your pain now that you are off?
Honestly I don't have pain I feel it's just my head telling me things hurt bro .. Because it's not constant as soon as I take my mind off it it goes away. When I do it's just ibuprophen ,
that obsession i call the little bastard will say whatever to try to kill me. the physical part of withdrawal can last up to a month. hang in there brother i had to find stuff to keep me busy to try and shut that bastard up. working a 12 step program made sure to quiet that obsession and gave me tools to deal with life. who wouldve thought this know it all didnt know shit on how to live
It's deff a daily struggle but it is getting easier
you really should consider going to meetings, good place to learn about that thing in your head talking to you. it dont stop for many years, truth be told it gets slicker about how it tries to manipulate you. a support group would do you wonders....
Always had a phobia about opening up in a group setting lol never been one to share things like that but I guess it's worth a try if it helps
When the pain gets bad enough you won't have no problem opening up. Like they told me. What do you have to lose? It's gets easier big dog but we have to stay consistent in our recovery and like someone said up top. Helping g Others is key to maintain sobriety. Good luck and always know you are not alone
the disease has you right where it wants you, alone, isolated, stuck with your secrets, you'll lose this battle. in order to achieve long term recovery your gonna have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations. As addicts we dont like those feelings but just know there is power in sharing and bringing those secrets to light, there is power in one addict helping another, there is power in surrender.
exactly
Going to my first meeting tomorrow with a coworker tomorrow night . We will see how it goes
Roid is right. Once you get out of that zone and start to share with others that support is what keeps you going man. Always knowing you have people not only to support you and your journey but you to do the same with them. Your story may help more people then you could fathom.
How was your meeting?
Ever need to talk in here for you bro. Been through this shit from a shoulder surgery a few years back.
try to stay open minded and look as similarities. my first meeting i was looking at how i was different and that little bastard talked me right back into getting high. those assholes who new it all remind me of the assholes on these boards with a newbie i can learn from others experience if im honest, open and willing
X2. Well put and spot on.
Thats how I feel
^^^^^^^^ TRUTH
If you have been clean now for over 3 weeks it's just your head fucking with you. Good work, been there before it's a hard fuking task so I know were your coming from.
It's time to stay clean of them now so if you have any about the house make sure you destroy them responsibly. Good luck with moving forwards!
Yeah I flushed everything I had and told my doctor about my problem so he will be mindful moving forward
About to celebrate 15 months!! Pumped about this forum!! Just left my homegroup tonight. Truely grateful
congrats brother having a good home group has been very helpful for me
I'm a recovering addict. And by addict I mean anything that makes me feel good! Drugs of choice were opiates and alcohol. I've been sober for going on 7.years now. I am a.leader in celebrate recovery, the chemical dependency group. Last night I got the blessing to take c.r. into the county jail. What a blessing! Great to be here. Please pm me if you ever need to talk or prayers.
Such a blessing to stumble across this. Love how many eroids members are in the program.
WOW!!!!! I'm so happy I found this forum. I'm also a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I'm coming up on 18 months Feb the 6th. Only bu God's grace and the 12 steps of AA!!!!
congrats brother
Thanks big dog
Bout to hit a meeting right now first one in awhile.
How did that meeting go?
How was the meeting bro. Haven't been myself in a bit.
We all will continue to fight. The gym will serve as our rehab. God bless all of us that need it.
I got clean 9-28-1996 . I relapsed in june 2010. My new clean date is 1-1-11 coming up on 5 years again. Ithank God!
Yeah man i relapsed after 9 years clean. I have not been able to put together 90 days in the last 2 years. I came close over the last couple months with a day slip here and there. It is very disappointing to myself. Very depressing. I go to the gym look at myself in the mirror and say never again. I fckn hate the person i am, how i look, the shit i do, its sickening.
I know the feeling somewhat. I relapsed after 2.5 years and it was complete misery. I just wanted to die. And it only took 2 months to get back to that incomprehensible demoralization the big book talks about. Thank God for his Grace and mercy. And one of the most important things that was told to me is that I never had to feel that way again. WHAT A RELIEF!!! now I'm back at 18 months again and still have a long road ahead of me. But one thing I can say is that I haven't had to feel that way yet. Keep it simple bro and do the work!!!
Yeah man. Thanks. Why do we go back to killing ourselves after loving ourself is beyond me but its a ruff road to travel.
your missing spirituality right now, talk to your God, practice some spiritual principles. get out of yourself. inside job brother, the onion, work toward the core issues, they are there I can see them in this post. Talk with your sponsor, tell him how you feel, he will have some answers for you or find another sponsor. Remember, if you think it you will eventually believe it/become it.
We're addicts. It's what we have done. Stop beating yourself up and do something different. Step by Step. Nothin' changes if nothin' changes!
Not intirely true buddy...I found this lil gem over the weekend at convention.
If nothing changes....eventuallyy my clean date will.
Ace VenturaOh snap
Thanks, Brother. I like that even better. I'll borrow it and use it at my next meeting.
Im not beating myself up. Im keeping it real.
Okay
TARANISCongratulations so much my friend, , we are all a big family here and the purpose is to help people by which anyway is possible,
Lots of us have been there and lots have came back from the brink, myself included, many times, we are always here for you fella,
You will always have a place to turn when things seem bad,
I cannot emphasize enough this place is a God send , and here for a reason.
When things seem so bad,
GYM GYM GYM GYM GYM GYM,
Gives you time to think, bring out that aggression, and work that body as hard as you ever have.
STAYE SAFE MY FRIEND
OME DAY AT A TIME
TIME WAITS FOR NO MAN.
BE GOOD, BE KIND AND BE CAREFUL.
LOVE MY FRIEND