posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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I CANT SAY THAT DOING A CYCLE HAS MADE THE BEAST KNOCK ON THE DOOR AND WANT TO COME OUT I AM THANKFUL FOR THAT .. BUT I KNOW IT CAN BE A FINE LINE AND WOULD BE LOOKED UPON POORLY IN THE ROOMS THATS WHY ITS INPORTANT TO STAY GROUNDED STAY AWAY FROM OLD PEOPLE PLACES AND THINGS THAT COULD PUT YOUR RECOVERY INJERPERTY.. WE ALL KNOW THAT OUR SECRETS OUR WHAT TAKE KEEPS US SICK AND TAKES US OUT..
I AM JUST GLAD TO PEOPLE THAT ARE NOT AFRAID TO STAND UP AND FACE THEIR DEMON AND SAY FOR IT FOR WHAT IT IS... CONGRATS TO ALL ON THE ROAD OF RECOVERY
REMEMBER EASY DOES IT AMD ONE DAY AT A TIME
It won't unearth old obsessions, but if you are really into your training and live for increasing your numbers and size then it may possibly become an obsession in itself. Some people don't find this, but they are often the guys who will take long periods from the gym which in itself I couldn't do as I'm addicted to training - I could not live without it. You have to think of it like this, you go on cycle and within a few days everything starts increasing in numbers very easily. All those years slogging away for minimal increases being frustrated, then all of a sudden you find something that gets you those numbers you thought you would never lift in a lifetime.
TesTobolinHi guys,
So glad i was pointed in this direction was looking for a section like this to share stories of our own and uplift eachother where we can.
Ive had my battle with opiate abuse for damn 6 years now and failed so mamny mnay many times always found an excuse to pick up using again. Im 14 days clean now and i swear im really gonna try and stay clean this time ive a lotta responsibility ive a 10 year year old daughter who depends on me and me alone being that im a single father. The longest i went clean was 3 months i could kick myself everyday i think back to how good i felt when i was off the opiates and had spo much energy to be a real human being. Seeing this sub section and reading the stories of uplifting success that you guyes have had and seeing that IT IS POSSIBLE. Im really going to keep my head down and push myself to get through this to the other side and hopoefully share my success story with you guys. I hoope to get a chat with you all over the time im here ive been a member long time here now.
Any way thanks for reading if you made it to the end of this lol!! Have a good day brothers&sisters!!
I just pulled out my workout journal.
It's been over a year
My last entry was "felt weak, did molly"
Between injuries and the lockdown I found myself getting dopamine from non natural sources.
Ready to get in shape again .
I had a panic moment at the gym. Stepped on the scale and it said 152.
Did it 10 more times...same.
I was like oh noooo.
How much did I shrink.
Fortunately it was busted.
Only shrunk to 177.
Missed you guys
AnonShow us.how it's done, Superchief.
Signed,
Rookie
Shit, look who crawled out from under a rock.
Good to be back!
Did the bjj thing for a bit, before the drug/ covid distraction.
Still a white belt, first I got cauliflower ears.
Followed with catching HPV from someone mashing their feet on my ears to finish an arm bar.
Caught someone's foot warts on my ear.
I'm gonna be one of those guys that always wears a Knit hat now.
NOOoooo Lol!
Do you hear them crunching when the cartilage starts going in them? Bet thats awful to watch in the mirror at first.
The warts were way grosser.
They went away, but kind of ruined bjj for a while.
I wasn't gonna infect someone else.
I thought I was going to save my ears from cauliflower, but even draining them didn't help.
OMG Is that what you are supposed to do drain them, do they fill up with fluid as they get damaged?
Yep.
The skin gets peeled away from the cartilage and they fill up.with blood.
Like an ear hemorrhoid.
Some guys are able to keep them looking normal by sucking the blood out.
Id get about a cc each time.
Never had them bleed on the mats though.
https://youtu.be/FTl_UOrHlhM
I remember that fight - Her face was unrecognisable after.
Every passing Second is a chance to change your Future :-))
TesTobolinI love this, im gonna use this as my mantra today!
Yep
The motivation is back, and it feels good.
Not training made me feel like a loser. Doing too much drugs, same thing.
Recently celebrated 14 years and couldn’t be more grateful. Hope all is well for the brothers here in recovery.
Great message. Thanks for sharing. 14 years Rocks~! Please keep sharing your experience, strength and Hope.
I'm "Buzz" been sober for 18 months. In the fellowship performance enhancers are very frowned upon. Anyone else run into this?
Hey Buzz!@@ Congrats on 18 months keep it. I am Living in Recovery since 2008. I attended a lot of 12 step meetings & used roids for 12 years before covid19. I used this group to be accountable because nobody I ever met in meetings would have been supportive of taking prescription medication without medical supervision. Get a sponsor, get a service position, build a network, use a step working guide, learn to meditate. Some people in this group have found sponsors they could be completely honest with. I never have found that guy. I don't think for me Testosterone or deca or tren etc. that I self prescribed, had the same kind of negative effects on my life or my health as alcohol or other prescriptions. I never found a Doctor that would prescribe for me. By the time I found a Doctor at my gym that was helping other men, I didn't feel like I really needed his help. There are Doctors that are willing to help. Quitting Roids was difficult for me at the end of cycles, suggesting roids may be addictive, but I was able to follow a taper down schedule, not as quickly as I wanted 100%, but eventually. Respect~!
When covid come along March 2020, I took my last dose the last day my gym was open. I did not suffer any withdrawal. Home gym is just not for me,(struggling with that) & I'm not working out in a mask, My favorite Golds Gym membership ended because they closed all 10 stores in my area. I do not know if I will start to use roids again, but not going to use until I join a gym & hit plateau again. 60 years old now, staying clean gets easier with more clean time. I am grateful for this group & sponsorship.
Err Buddy - I would never admit to using steroids in an AA meeting. I can imagine that going down like an Atomic bomb!! Lol I've been asked in one before and I just said 'No' - Leave it at that. Most of them there still smoke like their life depends on it anyway and can't manage to kick that habit so just leave the steroid topic out of it all :-) People that don't lift will never get 'it' anyway ....
BCrabtree84Man this place really is a graveyard huh?
I guess that's a good thing
Glad you found us~! I'm an Addict named John. I'm staying Clean too. ODAT~!
BCrabtree84My names Brian and I’m an addict. Been in and out of rooms since 2011. I’ve been clean this time since Sept 11,2020. I’ve read some of the posts here and I wanna say I’m really grateful to have found this and look forward to interacting with everyone. Proud of you all. On my way to gym but will talk more later
TesTobolinHi brian,
I hope your doing well in your sobriety still. How have you been getting on my friend?
Nice one Bud - Be strong and keep it up :-)
Hello everyone, so I have been clean off heroin for now for two years, I leaned myself off Suboxone, and am doing well.
Very Well done mate :-))
Well done. Keep it up my man. I just hit 20 yrs. No looking back .
ChoadHi y’all...I’m two weeks clean and feelin good!!
God is great!!
Hey Mate - That's Brilliant
What were you using?
ChoadMostly just smoking bud but I’ve struggled hard with sex addiction! I know it sounds stupid but when your married it’s a big problem and my wife swears pharmaci, steroids in this case, is satanic...seems I trade one evil for another...really gotta get a grip on the libido during my next cycle....
Celebrating 12 years today clean~! Thanks Eroids, y'all make this journey with me, One Day at a Time.. Thanks to the 12 Steps, my Higher Power, the people of who came before me, and the newcomers. I attend meetings regularly, maintain conscious conscience with a Higher Power to pray and meditate everyday, live the 12 Steps, call my sponsor often, answer the phone for sponsees, read recovery literature, keep my service commitments. Making the World a better place Just for Today. Love you~! Thanks for reading this.
Yukon_JackCongratulations bro. it's either more god or more dope for me. keep it up
Nice one Mate - Wishing you all the Happiness in the World :-)))
6 Years Sober from the drink today :-)
Great Job.....
Thanks Buddy :-)
Congratulations~! Living the Dream~! Thanks for sharing~!
Cheers mate - means a lot :-))
Anyone else feel like subboxen takin in higher doses to curve withdrawal caused them to have permanent stomach issues and or gastrointestinal problems
Are you eating enough and drinking enough water everyday?
So I was talking to a friend the other day about AA meetings, or lack there of at the moment, and the question arose as to how alot of us, particularly "the new-comer", are dealing w/the inability to attend meetings.
I generally try to hit a couple meetings a month give or take. Personally, I've had zero issues w/the lack of meetings. But I'm not a militant 12 stepper. I basically just go to recharge and relax within the fellowship. Ive got a friend whos running online meetings via zoom. But that just seems chaotic to me.
So how has your experience been through covid w/the lack of brick and mortar meetings?
I must admit there has been 1 instance where I really fancied going to an AA meeting again during the virus but then realised they would be the last thing that would be allowed during the pandemic. I'm sure many will have relapsed during it, I know my building has been full of people getting drunk most nights.
Steroids play a big part in my success at life after 10 years of drug and alcohol abuse. I get to scratch the proverbial itch in a way that is much healthier (if done intelligently) and it benefits my family. My wife is much happier with the libido improvements. The self confidence I’ve gained through juicing has translated to my career where after multiple promotions, I can provide for my family in a way that I never thought possible. I can go on and on about this, but the short version is this stuff saved my life.
Nice man :-))
I’m coming up on 2 years clean May 9th. It’s been rough but never as bad as it was before. Lately I’ve been struggling though wondering if I can even count my clean time while blasting and cruising. I don’t know why, because honestly this lifestyle has benefitted me in a way beyond belief, self love, self confidence, happiness, and I can look in a mirror and be happy with what I see. Anyone else ever struggled with this?
Being sober is more than putting down the drug. Its a 180 degree way of thinking and change for the better. Unless you start relapsing (stinking thinking, old behavior, self centeredness) which is what a relapse is. Happens way before you pick the drug back up. But i dont believe juicing counts as that. My opinion. I have 10 years off drugs and drinking but daily practicing what i was taught on relapse prevention and cognitive behavior. I also turned my life and will over to the care of Jesus Christ and i hear "how can you be a Christian but your juicing?!" I am not perfect and i have faults which is why i need my higher power and never claim to be perfect. I always say "i may not be as Good as i should be but thank God im better than i used to be!" I always struggle with if juicing is using or the breaking the law part but i make sure that if i ever start "relapsing" mentally then maybe i will give it up. But after jail i did 90 days in halfway house then 2 yrs in a sober house while on probation so i have enough tools in my tool box and a supportive network if juicing turns me in the other direction. When im juicing and working out im not even thinking about drugs because i know drugs will reverse all the physical hard work in half the time. Dont feel like starting over at 165lbs. This is all my opinion only.
So is it just the legality of steroids that you feel they are wrong?
What if you lived in a county where they are legal..,would it still be an issue?
Then i wouldnt have a problem with it. Hormone replacement is different than using heroin, liquor to escape my problems and not deal with it. I was using them as a way out. I dont abuse steroids like the old WWF wrestlers of old. Anything can be abused. Its the intention your using it and the reason your using something that makes it right or wrong. Now when i start making steroids my idol or it causes me to commit sins is when i believe i have crossed over and its time to lay it to bed. Its not first in my life so right now its not threatening my integrity as a man, father or husband. When my priorities become jumbled or reversed from 1. Sobriety 2. Family 3. Job, then im doing wrong. Steroids will never be in that top 3 priority list of my life.