posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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It never worked for me because when I did try it, I didn't believe in God, I didn't believe in myself and in my mind at the time, I had no desire whatsoever to ever quit using. So when I ended up in jail and reality sit in, it was a cold wake up call that stuck around. Yeah I been in jail plenty of times prior but never long enough to really get clean and to have the chance to stand back and look at myself. Maybe noid is right, maybe I need to look through it and work the steps just as a safety precaution, but to be completely honest, I don't want to use anymore, it was a simple mistake... I just need to focus my attention on my codependency issues i think.
because your picker is broken, your making unhealthy decisions based on all the wrong reasons. when this goes all bad, work the 12 steps of recovery and youll have your answer!...google search codependency, thats a vicious one many newly recovering addicts suffer from.
Dude I hate not having someone.. I know I could look for girls in better places.. I just seem attracted to the wrong ones bro. I've been doing a little reading on it, seems like I'm trying to replace my addiction with another addiction, which isn't necessarily a drug bro.
Healthy people are attracted to other healthy people. Unhealthy people are attracted to other unhealthy people.
Everyone is saying it: you need to work on yourself and get yourself to a healthier place. The rest will take care if it's self.
Take some confidence in your eroids name.
Don't laugh bro, but I went to a few meetings lately, and they are telling me I'm addicted to sex and codependency. I feel like they're completely correct. I'm going to talk to her and try to come to some sort of answer, we've been doing awesome, no relapse.. everything seems meant to be at this moment.. So should I still bail on her? I feel like If I do, then she'll get depress and start using again. Me I'm fine, I could careless about drugs and alcohol, women are another battle I'm trying to deal with... I'm just confused right at the moment dude.
Why would I laugh at that??? I think that's fantastic! I also think they are on to something. Codependency is definitely part of your makeup.
This is a perfect example of codependency. You're worried about whats going on with her, but not what effects it's having on you.
You HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT YOURSELF FIRST. She's NOT your wife or even a long term girlfriend. Sorry to say, but from what you've described, she's a train wreck and you're along for the destructive ride. Put the time and effort you've put into your lifting, into fixing your life and becoming healthy emotionally. If you don't, you'll repeat this destructive cycle time and time again and will lose everything.
You can do this. Make the hard, but right decisions, to make your life right, not sell yourself short. Again, you can do this. Become a true champion of your mind, body and emotions. A happy, healthy life awaits.
Well I finally did it bro. I explained things to her.. it seems like i broke her heart, but I know theres better women out there... I'm pretty sure shes using right now, but like you guys said I need to focus on myself. It's hard not to think about her, but I keep telling myself its for the best and another women will come along. With the last couple months I've literally went through so much, verge of homelessness, shoulder injury, relapse, my ex coming back into my life, I lost a family member, but it's all coming back together for me.. life seems to be on my side now.. working a second job, got my own place again, finally got my car legal and got a powerlifting comp coming up.. I'm really thankful to be a member here and to have the support you guys are willing to lend. I'm honestly in your debt.
Gotta agree with noid, I've been their and tried to do it myself. It's a road to ruin bro. We both ended back on and fortunately I got my shit back together in a few months but not so for my distant ex. Took her a couple of years, she's probably back on now, I still think about her and miss her but...Fuck that if I'm gonna fuck myself up ever again. Nobody's worth it!
Take it from someone who's older and been through every possible scenario of drug use, cut her loose and don't look back. Save yourself not others!
Not judging you brother. I'm sober today. I have 980 days. My wife just relapsed. She was shy of 2 years. She was trying help a friend who just like this girl your describing. Had all the potential in the world. Sang the same song of I want to get better. But ultimately she didn't. And my wife made a bad choice and relapsed. That girl is now dead from this disease. I've been in the rooms and a believer in the power of Jesus Christ transforming me. I think it's dangerous for you to be so close to active addiction. She needs the rooms,a sponsor,and Jesus. I hope the best for you. And I pray for both of you. No one can get sober for some one else. Eventually it will fail. I got sober for me. And every one in my support group got sober for them selves. I don't want to come off wrong here. I just hope you do what's best for your sobriety. God speed my brother.
So what's the consensus on steroids and the steps? Do steroids get in the way of helping others and communication with a higher power? I'm running first cycle while on suboxone and working a 12 step program.
you should be concerned about the suboxone.
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The Step can't work, nor will the obsession to use ever go away for long, unless we're completely abstinent. That's why subs are so bad. Methadone was bad enough because the fear of going thru the industrial strength withdrawals made it impossible without cops stopping me.
AnonNoid you spoke about your years in the gutter and said you had rough dry souls on the foot..was that gout from kidney damage and how did you sort this out apart from getting off the junk..dr..has said my kidney has taken a battering described the symptons leading to gout and I should be drinking water as often as I could..which I do..
no mine was from wearing shoes all the damn time, I only slept like 14 hours everyday 6-7 days, and most of those wasnt by choice so I sometimes fell out with shoes on.
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**Don't know... I keep getting a fast busy signal.
You are calling the wrong number....
bigwillywhats up gang. a fella and I wer talking the other day, hes on pain pills. he has a real problem and really dose need to take them. out talk was about do the pain pills stop his ability to make gains. any input on this one ?
Well, there is one way I know forsure tjey will stop gains atleast for me. I literally wouldn't not eat when I was using. Probably 1000 cals a day max and that's why I weighed 130lbs at 6ft tall. So without the necessary calories no gains will be made.
Now if he's talking them as prescribed and not abusing them and lives a normal stable life then no I don't think they will hinder gains much at all.
bigwillyHe claims his doctor has told him exactly what you just wrote lol
lol i unfortantely have a long past and alot of experience with opiates despite my age. But its in the past now.
Opiates cause an fluctuation of estrogen so keep that in mind
5 years sober, no alcohol, feels good!
Congrats, bro. Stay straight.
Thanks, bro!
PhishphanToday is my 2years being of opiates!! Im so happy and feel amazing.thanks to all the friends on here that has supported me thru it all.this by far is the best group of people to help me to climb up from the gutter
Grats for you, too.
6 years recently
bigwilly13 years in may. FR on the way bro.
Gratulation, stay straight bro.
Congrats noid.... Takes a lot more balls to stay clean than it does to pick up and use! Also we now have the opportunity to prove.... The Lie Is Dead.... We do recover! Thanks!
We appreciate your commitment to your sobriety. Celebrated 7 whole ones back in July, the wife celebrated 6.
Hey bros. Nice to see theres a group like this here. I think its a good idea. I took drugs for many years, espacially heroin and cocain. I am clean since over ten years. So i know, how hard it is to stay straight. Fascinating how many ex users are taking anabolics and switched from drugs to sports. I think its not the best way for our life to replace the drugs with anabolics, but its much better than dying in a crackhouse. Stay straight guys.
I am also on subs...want to ween off soon tho cause I feel just as sick as coming off heroin when I come off subs..so I gotta ween slowly or I won't make it to the gym for a few weeks.
Tendernips23im on suboxone too!!!!! ive been off meth and heroin for 2 and a half years now. Honestly it doesn't surprise me that roiders are often addicts/ ex addicts I mean we are the ones crazy enough to inject some shit and hope it goes well. normies just arnt that crazy.
the gym saved my life 4 sure im super addictive person so if i dont have dumbbells then i have a needle in my arm 10 yrs back and forth between the 2 but now ive got 2 years off the shit good luck to u all
Celebrating 6 years today~!
Benny BlancoCongratulations, AUTO!
Anontheres absolutely no sight of me getting back together with my girl but i need to do what is right and drop the gear and leave eroids and try to show her that i mean it because actions speak louder then words i appreciate all the help especially from your suggestion noid
Looks like he made a descision
Shouldn't have told her in the first place. Handing a woman ammo that can b used against u is like giving a 2 year old a hand gun, it never turns out well. Good luck winning her back.
Benny BlancoI don't believe in hiding stuff from the old lady, well, at least if you're married which he is not. But most opposition to steroid use is due to ignorance. People act like it's crack for fuck's sake.
I could never agree more. Hiding something is not being honest. If you have to hide it from your wife you shouldn't be doing it no matter what the situation is. When you got married you formed a partnership and 100% honesty is the only way its gonna work. Just because we know steroids is not the devil doesn't mean she doesn't believe that. Its gonna cause serious problems later. No matter if its wrong or right. What happens is you hide one thing and get away with it for awhile then you hide something else. The whole time its wrong but you think its OK and you deserve it. The Snowball effect happens and before you know it you are lying about all kinds of shit and your life turns into shit because you living a lie. Trust me homeboy. Its a dead in road. Tell her...if she can't deal with you doing roids then you don't get to do it because you made the decision to be her partner first. This is coming from a hard lesson learned. Not just cause I think its right...take this advice an soak it up like a sponge.
When it comes to life and liberty its best to not take chances. Being completely honest is fine until u cross the line into the illegal. There's an old mafia saying, two ppl can keep a secret if one of them is dead. Lifting is what keeps me sober and aas is what keeps it fresh. Who knows if that guy will continue lifting and maybe he relapses because of it. I c some hotties and at meetings but I'd never date 1. Reg women have issues, addicts have scary ones.
Benny BlancoLol, the mafia. I'd like to see the Feds knock this guy's door down for his casual steroid use. And if you're suggesting one should hide the stuff from their spouse, you're wrong, or you have the wrong spouse.
I've had bad stuff happen and I did have the wrong 1. Only 1 I'll ever trust about n e thing illegal is me, myself and I. The 12 step programs r great but a lot of the ppl can b childish. That guy and his chick were both in the program. If she's working a program, she told her sponsor and who knows who her sponsor told. Everyone tries to learn everyones business. I do suggest one should hide n e thing that could put their ass behind bars from their spouse everything else shouldn't b hidden. What possible benifit could there b to telling your chick ur doing something illegal? There is no upside to that, its all possible downside. There was a crazy bitch that was putting antifreeze in her husbands roid vials.
Benny BlancoI remember that forum. That's messed up. I personally don't believe in marriage without 100% trust. I know not everyone can attain that. To answer your question, well I suppose I don't wish to speak on that in public. It depends on the situation though. I'd say like a Bonnie and Clyde thing though. Really with the shit. And my wife is a "normie" so I got lucky. Program chicks can be a lot of fun, but fuck, they can bring a ton of baggage.
Tronhttp://www.eroids.com/pics/before-and-after-the-comeback
This is a post from about a year ago of how eroids changed my life.. I look at these pics now and I am astonished at how much I changed by getting off the prescription pills and am still off to this day.
AnonSo the love of my life left me because she doesn't agree with my use of steroids she's in the program as well but doesn't view it as a relapse. But struggling tonight and struggling with if I get another chances (this would be a fourth one) if Id be willing to stop gear. I love this girl and ones like her are rare never been so happy with anyone. Feeling very lost and other then my small support group and sponsor I can't really talk about this in my area.
this is a no brainer, if shes worth it drop the gear, leave eroids and build your life together! what are you waiting for?
AnonNoid can you delete my account I'm taking g your suggestion