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+ 11 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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I get the generic tabs from the government, they pay for my health care. I don't think civilian pharmacies can get the generic tabs, just the name brand tabs and film strips, which are a lot of $$$.
Mr.pumpI'm on the film. My insurance covers it all I don't pay shit for it. But , it's still a pain in the ass to be depended on them . An for some reason they seem to put me in a good mood . Lol
Yup, I feel awesome about a half an hour after that tab dissolves. Not really high as shit, but more relaxed, motivated, and content. It is a bitch coming off of them.
Mr.pumpI heard it wasn't pleasant . But , I'm gonna try at least but I'll turn my dose down like u did till 1mg a day. I'm at 14mg now an I get a new script every month on the dot. I'll keep ya posted on how it's going . FR sent.
Accepted, since you are working out regularly now, it shouldn't be to bad, because your body can better heal from the trauma. I notice my post withdrawal symptoms go away faster when I go to the gym after I get clean, it helps. When you down dose yourself just lower your dose 1 to 2mg every 3 to 5 days, then in a few weeks you will be down to were you need to be to get off.
Well, I officially broke it off with my ex, and when I tried to leaver her whore cheating asses place, she called the cops on me. She knew if I left with my shit, she would probably never see me again. She told them, I took her shit, but I only left with the property that was mine. I was pissed during the argument and told her I was going to pawn the ring that I bought her for a big ass rock and smoke it in 3 rips. Maybe I shouldn't have said that, but the cops did release me with my property and ring, which is registered to me at the jewelry store. I was really temped to use yesterday, after all she really let me down when she was telling me the things I wanted to hear and sneaking around behind my back, but I know I cant give in like that. I would only be giving her to much credit. I used every other time like this, and it only went down hill, so maybe I will try something new and not use for once. On a plus side, I did meet a couple other girls that I have been talking to, they are free game now.
AnonWell I just had some fun on Facebook. A friend posted "are taking steroids a relapse" the nonsense that followed was just ridiculous. How can someone say the practice principles when they say there way is the only way and that although they've never taken steroids they "know its a relapse there is no gray area" fuckin people man. I did a lot of grimey ass shit to get my fix robbed my mother, broke into strangers homes, stole credit cards, you name it. I get into recovery find a few way to live find out the disease affects us mind body and spirit. Worked on my mind and spirit and body. Now because I've hit a platue and use steroids to get past it I'm "high" I didn't use steroids to change the way I felt I didn't use them to get outside of myself... Ahhhh thanks for letting me share.
Give them a vote if you find it helpful.PermalinkI understand your frustration bro. I put myself in rehab for alcohol and got clean. Been clean now for close to 3 years. I was fortunate that I took myself to rehab before anything terrible happened to me or anyone else since I drove like a drunken fool. I do use gear and some people give me the same shit. But I'm on your side as I don't use steroids to get a fix but simply to improve myself in the gym. I'm not out drinking and doing stupid shit anymore and much better off now as a "gear head" than an alcoholic lol. Stay strong bro and don't sweat the bs. There will always be people to rain on your parade and hate.
shred, I have a best friend of over 40 yrs I stopped talking to because he thought his casual (3x a week) cocaine use was not using abusing drugs but that my taking anabolics was f*cked up. We are both 55. Whose body would you rather have in 5 yrs? I also have stopped talking to my last relative thjat I love because that person thinks that any kind of use of benzos even if under a doctors care is the same as being an addict just because I had been on valium for years. I am all for a complete drug free life. Period. I am also for getting rid of all the immigrants who compromise this countries safety as well. Doesnt mean the world is going to listen to me! I would rather live drug free, even testosterone free. But if I have a choice of being depressed and not wanting to get out of bed, or doing 10mg of valium or 2cc of testosterone, I am definitely going with the drugs. I hate when people make judgements when they cant feel whats going on inside YOUR body. We arent talking about either doing nothing or taking what Cutler takes for a contest. But if its a fine grey line....often nobody should judge. As Steve Michalik Mr Universe 1974 told me 33 yrs ago. Yuh gotta choose..".you want to be the guy in the audience clapping, or the guy on the stage receiving all the clapping. Its just a personal choice."
AnonThis is awesome glad a came across this forum. Friend of jimmy k here 4.5 yrs clean
congrats on the time clean! may 6 2006 was my sober from street drugs date. my life has improved immeasurably since that day. keep up the good work!
FantasiathescammerUpdate: Full week off any opiate. Training and diet back in check. Sleep is slowly returning to normal.
It's amazing how getting stoned every few days you can convince yourself that it's not impacting your life too badly. I was truly living in a fantasy world for the past few months.
Today's friday- I have funds and a few reasons to get stoned. Im even telling myself I have sat/sunday to sleep it off. But I wont. I know the true picture is me burning money I cant afford to spend, dropping all my social plans, burning my brain function that will last for weeks after use, waking up monday malnourished depressed and sleepy.
wanna get fucked up go rage on some weights instead. thats what i did my first couple years clean i literally had no friends no life and was profoundly lonely.. i turned to weights and diet as a distraction at first and it slowly became a way of life. now i have good freinds a wife and job and havnt seen the inside of cell for a good amount of time now! good luck stay strong and do the hard thing the right thing, stay off of the drugs or they will destroy you and everything you love
Fuck yeah bro!!! U just told my story to the T!!! No differences whatsoever.
right on bro! its always good to know others have suffered and prevailed in a similar way. good to know that no matter how shitty things are people have been there before and that change is possible! cheers to the new drug of choice. iron and a barbell! adapt and overcome:)
Right on brutha! Thts What we used to say in the marine corps "adapt n overcome"
good phrase! relevant in life at many different times in my humble experience.
Dont do it bro! Get to some meetings and surround urself with some healthy ppl. You'll thank yourself come Monday Trust me!!!
Damn hope everyone is too busy with service to be in here
Stay safe my friends
FantasiathescammerIve been dreading posting this but I should get this out and written so I can refer to it when I feel weak. Years ago I had a pretty heavy oxy pill issue. I had a lot of money and access to the drug that allowed me to do an equal amount of damage to myself and others.
Fast forward to today. I had years of sobriety from the pills and alcohol. I began to take roxi 30s every once in awhile to celebrate getting my life back together. Once every couple weeks didnt seem to negatively affect me at all. About a month ago I got an abcess and was hospitalized. I basically used the hospital stay to ride the morphine pump, complain about my pain, and follow up the stay by visiting every doctor available for multiple rx's. Ive outstayed my welcome at a few offices, urgent cares, and the local emergency room.
Well it's spring break now... No doctors left to write my rx's and no money to go buy them illegally. It's time to get my act together and get a hold of my work, school, training, family , and social life. All of which took a dramatic hit while I indulged in this garbage.
I think the legit medical issue left me feeling even more entitled to feel good all the time and never come off. My mind is pretty low tonight- but it's detox related and it's my own fault. Ill feel better when I actually put the work in to feel better.
One is to many and a thousand is never enough...
Welcome brother keep us in touch with what's going on...keep checking in here
FantasiathescammerUgh.. Feeling like garbage now. My use was pretty much binging and cleansing. So I would get an rx and use it all day and then go with out for 3-4 days. I last used a few 30s 2 days ago. Before that I was detoxed. So im thinking the ride shouldnt be that bad. Im thinking it's more in my head and compounded by being broke and bored.
On a positive note I am on cycle, hgh, have spring break off to detox before classes, live alone so I can do this in privacy, and I still have time to put on some solid weight before shorts/tshirt weather here.
Narcotics Anonymous taught me the disease of addiction, it is only through understanding how it works am I able to obtain and keep clean time. The disease will talk to you in many ways, one being a roxy every other week is fine, another being to not ask for non narcotic at the hospital. This disease will kill you, it preys on you not understanding it, it hopes you try to do this alone, itll find your weakest moments whether that is a celebration or depression, its relentless, it loves your using buddies and any reason you might need to see them, your head is the enemy dont believe it. get to some meetings and talk about whats going on, find people with long term recovery and LEARN about what you have.
Well said Noid! I go and get a check up from the neck up a couple times a week. Keeps me out of my own head and keeps me calm.
So, I'm 38yo and getting ready to come off suboxone. Been on this shit for 4 years after being addicted to oxy's for 12 years. Done many other drugs but the oxy got ahold of me, BAD!! Started my Suboxone treatment @ 16mg a day, have tapered down to 2 mg a day. Next week is gonna be last visit to the Doc for my meds. I'm only taking Suboxone only. Been on 2mg for a month, so I plan on splitting my 2 mg strip to last me as long as possible. I wanna come off, but it's the fear of withdrawal that keeps me on. I've been thru withdrawal before and it fucking sux! Which I am pretty headstrong about coming off. I know its not gonna be pretty, but i have a job and a kid to support, and im the thpe if im feeling bad, well i will call into work. And i dont wanna do that. Just asking for a little support from someone who has been in my shoes.Any help would be greatly appriciated.
Damn! I know I'm 3 years too late but this dude was in the same situation I am now. If your still around bro I'd like to talk to you as I've seemed down off subs over the past year. Got myself down to 4mg/day currently but plan to try to come completely off by this spring. And to be honest that thought scares the holy shit out of me. I've been on something for so long the thought of being on nothing is hard to understand for me. Like how will I cope day to day without a crutch. I know this sounds weak but for me overcoming drug/alcohol addiction has never been about will power. Anyways, just thought I'd throw this out there n see if I get lucky and hear back. Stay strong all you that have gotten sober! Your truly inspiring!!
First n foremost bro stick with ur protocol! Try to space it out so u take ur last dose on Wednesday. Thurs u wont feel bad at all, fri ull start to feel a bit bad but u can make it thru work. Stay in bed over the weeke.d plenty of fluids and potassium. Sat n sun shld b ur worst days. By mon ull still feel bad but shld b nearing the end but u shld b able to make work. Rmbr it is physical but so much more mental. I had to do this very same thing It wasn't the best case scenario but it was for my situation And it worked mind over matter. Don't misunderstand what I'm saying it's going to be hard. But it is very doable. Good luck brother If you need any help or pointers You can always PM me. I hope this helped you out!
Yes brother! Helped tremendously! Never thought about taking my last dose on a Wednesday. I'll do that for sure. Thanks for all your support fellas.
Its not bullet proof brother... But it worked for me. Now do the damn thing!!! U got this bro!!!
I look back on ot and relize this....
The half life if naloxone and busp... Is a lot longer than straight up h
Now the life I live free from all mind altering drugs is better than any I could of imagined using... TRULY
Is it gonna suck? Yes will you withdraw? Yes, will it feel like forever? Prob, for me it was like this ( when in treatment) on the 17th day (I was using benzos too) I said WTF if I don't feel better tomorrow I don't give a FUCK Where I am I'm going to cop!! Day 18 I felt better and it was slow but steady but it was great! So for me it was long bc of benzos, regardless of length of detox stick with it brother it does/can/will get better on day at a time
I'm gonna stick with it. Thanks for The words of wisdom brother. Never been on benzos., I hear they are hell coming off of.
Good to hear bro!
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TARANISBest of luck my friend its hard but you can do it,you have more important things in life to focus on,struggled myself with methadone, for 2o years first time came off i was clean for 7 years the gym was my life,relapsed being stupid started using kit again,same old story 6 month later was back on meth and now ive been totally clean for 4 years,the gym has saved me again, and i promise this i will never go back there,
if you need to talk FR me
Stay safe +keep the faith
you can do it bro
mngymtrollmay 6th 2006 day i stopped using street drugs. mainly meth..... had a year and half in the joint and seven years suspended sentence with treatment,n/a,counseling,psychiatric care, hundreds off drug tests never failed. the fear of returning to prison for a full execution of sentence along with,the suicides of 2 close friends, a will to change, a supportive family and of course THE GYM saved my life. just got off parole last june. first time ive been out of the system as an adult. im still on drugs but only the ones doctors give me... i am 5 11 and was about 120 lbs when i got clean now im at 175 been as big as 200 all naturally but not for much longer im getting old lol
Great forum, I am also in recovery with 3 years clean thanks to God and AA. I didnt know there were other bros like me on here. I was a meth addict/alcoholic for a good part of my life and now i try to be fit and healthy. I also don't do gear to get a high, i use it to get in the best shape i can which is the exact opposite of how i used to live. Its good to know i am not the only one. I will be checking back with this forum, get another day bros.
bigwillygood for you my friend. im gessing your mid west, meth and all? any way stay strong and try to help other people along the way. ya gota give it away to keep it, aint that what they say,lol
bigwillyAint it a shame this rooms sitting in the back with cob webs on it.Like we don't need it, wer better now we don't shoot drugs anymore so we can move on with life like every thing is ok now. RONG ! I will be a tryflin dope phene until the day I die. I will carry this problem and this addiction with me threw every aspect of my life and the second I start thinking im cured will be the beginning of the end for me. I may look now as if there aint a problem because im in real good shape and to look at me you may never know what I come from but believe gang deep with in me is a crusty no good piece of shit junkie just waiting patiently to get out. That's why its mandatory that I spend at least some time every single day making sure that junkie don't get out. Lets make a deal to get on here every day for at least a couple seconds to keep in touch. I mean hell some sexy chick posts some dumb shit and wer all over that 100000 comments yet we cant spend 30 seconds in here just to keep togeather and help each other to remember how funky life can be. Wer paying a heavy price for the chance to live again and we shouldn't forget that.I know where youv come from and I know what you go threw and I would like to help if I can. Gang we need each other we really do. Lets get togeather and light this place up. Lets show these mother fuckers how greatful we are and lets show em how much we enjoy the life they take for granted. We love life more then they do because wev lost it befor and we know how hard it is to get it back. You are not alone. We are many and we are getting stronger.
I hear ya bro aa saved my life I shot dope for 10 years been to prison, stabbed, homeless the whole nine. how ever eriods is about gear so no surprise that this room isn't being used to its fullest how ever there are tons of other online sites dedicated to nothing but sobriety and any one interested in knowing what those are fell free to pm me and I would be glad to share them with you. it is great this forum exists tho because i dont know about you guys but I sure as hell dont talk to many people in the rooms about gear so its cool to have a safe place to discuss both
bigwillyfellas we know something the rest of the world don't know we appreciate life more then they do. I think we owe it to our self to give back and be greatful that we can. never pass the opertunity to spread the word that life can be good. its not allways fantastic but man its worth living. to all my fellow dope fenes crack heads drunks and who ever else,,,,,i love ya.
Love the message. I would love for this forum to get active, I go to my NA meetings 3-4 times a week but never dare mention I'm on gear, I haven't even told my sponsor. I know what using is and running gear is NOT using. Truthfully it strengthens me to live an even healthier life. None the less I am finding it weighing on my mind being that I keep this as a secret. I'm 26 months clean now and would love a clean recovery room on the site to talk on. Ill be dropping messages on here I hope you guys do to. Love ya Brothas
bigwillyNo bro its not using!! The concern is because wer dope phenes aas will get out of hand as dose any thing we do. We have to be extra diligent about keeping things under control. And bro by no means should it be kept secret. secrets kill us dog.
I hate to disagree twice bro but, the reason I am selective about who I tell in the rooms is because I don't want some guy with two days looking at me with 3 years saying oh he does it so can I then he ends up going out. again I hope you don't fell like I'm knocking you your right secrets do keep us sick how ever we need to be careful what we say for the sake of the new guy
bigwillyYour right but your sponser should know what your doing.
oh my sponsor and and quite a few of my close friends know. I just don't announce it to everyone
bigwillyAnd you shouldnt! Its not everyone's business. Only the people that are crucial to you should know everything. Stay strong brotha.
bigwillyF R sent.
Nicely fkg put bro!!! U definitely made me go hmmmm!!! Thanx my brother, its been so long my built in forgetter took over
bigwillythis room don't get nearly the action it should. a few of us should get togeather and change that. id be willing to donate a few hours a week to get this room jumping. I mean hell I shouldn't even be alive ya know.
Im with that.
Lol...i never thought I would live this long. Beat death couple times already.