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So, I'm 38yo and getting ready to come off suboxone. Been on this shit for 4 years after being addicted to oxy's for 12 years. Done many other drugs but the oxy got ahold of me, BAD!! Started my Suboxone treatment @ 16mg a day, have tapered down to 2 mg a day. Next week is gonna be last visit to the Doc for my meds. I'm only taking Suboxone only. Been on 2mg for a month, so I plan on splitting my 2 mg strip to last me as long as possible. I wanna come off, but it's the fear of withdrawal that keeps me on. I've been thru withdrawal before and it fucking sux! Which I am pretty headstrong about coming off. I know its not gonna be pretty, but i have a job and a kid to support, and im the thpe if im feeling bad, well i will call into work. And i dont wanna do that. Just asking for a little support from someone who has been in my shoes.Any help would be greatly appriciated.
Damn! I know I'm 3 years too late but this dude was in the same situation I am now. If your still around bro I'd like to talk to you as I've seemed down off subs over the past year. Got myself down to 4mg/day currently but plan to try to come completely off by this spring. And to be honest that thought scares the holy shit out of me. I've been on something for so long the thought of being on nothing is hard to understand for me. Like how will I cope day to day without a crutch. I know this sounds weak but for me overcoming drug/alcohol addiction has never been about will power. Anyways, just thought I'd throw this out there n see if I get lucky and hear back. Stay strong all you that have gotten sober! Your truly inspiring!!
First n foremost bro stick with ur protocol! Try to space it out so u take ur last dose on Wednesday. Thurs u wont feel bad at all, fri ull start to feel a bit bad but u can make it thru work. Stay in bed over the weeke.d plenty of fluids and potassium. Sat n sun shld b ur worst days. By mon ull still feel bad but shld b nearing the end but u shld b able to make work. Rmbr it is physical but so much more mental. I had to do this very same thing It wasn't the best case scenario but it was for my situation And it worked mind over matter. Don't misunderstand what I'm saying it's going to be hard. But it is very doable. Good luck brother If you need any help or pointers You can always PM me. I hope this helped you out!
Yes brother! Helped tremendously! Never thought about taking my last dose on a Wednesday. I'll do that for sure. Thanks for all your support fellas.
Its not bullet proof brother... But it worked for me. Now do the damn thing!!! U got this bro!!!
I look back on ot and relize this....
The half life if naloxone and busp... Is a lot longer than straight up h
Now the life I live free from all mind altering drugs is better than any I could of imagined using... TRULY
Is it gonna suck? Yes will you withdraw? Yes, will it feel like forever? Prob, for me it was like this ( when in treatment) on the 17th day (I was using benzos too) I said WTF if I don't feel better tomorrow I don't give a FUCK Where I am I'm going to cop!! Day 18 I felt better and it was slow but steady but it was great! So for me it was long bc of benzos, regardless of length of detox stick with it brother it does/can/will get better on day at a time
I'm gonna stick with it. Thanks for The words of wisdom brother. Never been on benzos., I hear they are hell coming off of.
Good to hear bro!
Keep checking In With us
TARANISBest of luck my friend its hard but you can do it,you have more important things in life to focus on,struggled myself with methadone, for 2o years first time came off i was clean for 7 years the gym was my life,relapsed being stupid started using kit again,same old story 6 month later was back on meth and now ive been totally clean for 4 years,the gym has saved me again, and i promise this i will never go back there,
if you need to talk FR me
Stay safe +keep the faith
you can do it bro
mngymtrollmay 6th 2006 day i stopped using street drugs. mainly meth..... had a year and half in the joint and seven years suspended sentence with treatment,n/a,counseling,psychiatric care, hundreds off drug tests never failed. the fear of returning to prison for a full execution of sentence along with,the suicides of 2 close friends, a will to change, a supportive family and of course THE GYM saved my life. just got off parole last june. first time ive been out of the system as an adult. im still on drugs but only the ones doctors give me... i am 5 11 and was about 120 lbs when i got clean now im at 175 been as big as 200 all naturally but not for much longer im getting old lol
Great forum, I am also in recovery with 3 years clean thanks to God and AA. I didnt know there were other bros like me on here. I was a meth addict/alcoholic for a good part of my life and now i try to be fit and healthy. I also don't do gear to get a high, i use it to get in the best shape i can which is the exact opposite of how i used to live. Its good to know i am not the only one. I will be checking back with this forum, get another day bros.
bigwillygood for you my friend. im gessing your mid west, meth and all? any way stay strong and try to help other people along the way. ya gota give it away to keep it, aint that what they say,lol
bigwillyAint it a shame this rooms sitting in the back with cob webs on it.Like we don't need it, wer better now we don't shoot drugs anymore so we can move on with life like every thing is ok now. RONG ! I will be a tryflin dope phene until the day I die. I will carry this problem and this addiction with me threw every aspect of my life and the second I start thinking im cured will be the beginning of the end for me. I may look now as if there aint a problem because im in real good shape and to look at me you may never know what I come from but believe gang deep with in me is a crusty no good piece of shit junkie just waiting patiently to get out. That's why its mandatory that I spend at least some time every single day making sure that junkie don't get out. Lets make a deal to get on here every day for at least a couple seconds to keep in touch. I mean hell some sexy chick posts some dumb shit and wer all over that 100000 comments yet we cant spend 30 seconds in here just to keep togeather and help each other to remember how funky life can be. Wer paying a heavy price for the chance to live again and we shouldn't forget that.I know where youv come from and I know what you go threw and I would like to help if I can. Gang we need each other we really do. Lets get togeather and light this place up. Lets show these mother fuckers how greatful we are and lets show em how much we enjoy the life they take for granted. We love life more then they do because wev lost it befor and we know how hard it is to get it back. You are not alone. We are many and we are getting stronger.
I hear ya bro aa saved my life I shot dope for 10 years been to prison, stabbed, homeless the whole nine. how ever eriods is about gear so no surprise that this room isn't being used to its fullest how ever there are tons of other online sites dedicated to nothing but sobriety and any one interested in knowing what those are fell free to pm me and I would be glad to share them with you. it is great this forum exists tho because i dont know about you guys but I sure as hell dont talk to many people in the rooms about gear so its cool to have a safe place to discuss both
bigwillyfellas we know something the rest of the world don't know we appreciate life more then they do. I think we owe it to our self to give back and be greatful that we can. never pass the opertunity to spread the word that life can be good. its not allways fantastic but man its worth living. to all my fellow dope fenes crack heads drunks and who ever else,,,,,i love ya.
Love the message. I would love for this forum to get active, I go to my NA meetings 3-4 times a week but never dare mention I'm on gear, I haven't even told my sponsor. I know what using is and running gear is NOT using. Truthfully it strengthens me to live an even healthier life. None the less I am finding it weighing on my mind being that I keep this as a secret. I'm 26 months clean now and would love a clean recovery room on the site to talk on. Ill be dropping messages on here I hope you guys do to. Love ya Brothas
bigwillyNo bro its not using!! The concern is because wer dope phenes aas will get out of hand as dose any thing we do. We have to be extra diligent about keeping things under control. And bro by no means should it be kept secret. secrets kill us dog.
I hate to disagree twice bro but, the reason I am selective about who I tell in the rooms is because I don't want some guy with two days looking at me with 3 years saying oh he does it so can I then he ends up going out. again I hope you don't fell like I'm knocking you your right secrets do keep us sick how ever we need to be careful what we say for the sake of the new guy
bigwillyYour right but your sponser should know what your doing.
oh my sponsor and and quite a few of my close friends know. I just don't announce it to everyone
bigwillyAnd you shouldnt! Its not everyone's business. Only the people that are crucial to you should know everything. Stay strong brotha.
bigwillyF R sent.
Nicely fkg put bro!!! U definitely made me go hmmmm!!! Thanx my brother, its been so long my built in forgetter took over
bigwillythis room don't get nearly the action it should. a few of us should get togeather and change that. id be willing to donate a few hours a week to get this room jumping. I mean hell I shouldn't even be alive ya know.
Im with that.
Lol...i never thought I would live this long. Beat death couple times already.
Today makes one year clean and sober....it feels great to say that. Lol
AWESOME!
Thank u
Congratulations, great job!
And thank u
bigwillyamen dog
Whats up guys so i was on methadone for 8 years and have been having a real hard time trying to ween off so i made the switch to suboxone about 2 1/2 months ago i went up to 16mgs of the subs a day and i am now at 2mgs and planing to come off next week i was just wondering if anyone has any helpfull tips or anything i am not going to lie i am nervous but i am determend to get off it has been way to long of being a slave to a drug i just want to feel like i did before all this anyways thanks for listening
Friend request sent. I can tell you all about it bro
dude i was on subs for about 3 months, i was still shootin my subs tho when i was on them because i was a fucking retard to be honest lol. but when i ended up in the hospital after my last use they asked me if i wanted to go back on my subs and i said fuckkkkkk no. i had already been detoxed off of them and just said THE HELL WITH THEM!! they just kept me in that mind frame of using drugs, selling drugs, drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs lol. So man get off of that shit and be done with it! it gets better for sure
bigwillyAmen brother. You can do it.
Most places have protocols on dosage/time when coming off. It's usually a long process, but it works. Take it slow. Small increments are the key. If you don't feel right, hold off for a week or two and stabilize. This is not a race. It won't do any good if you get off next week and then start using the next. If you really want to be clean, take it slow, but be determined to get there.
Hey folks. I just saw this now. Crazy. Anyways, I'm 5 years without a drink or drug(street drug). Anything was my choice. Mainly heroin.
I got clean at 19(6 impatient facilities and 2 penitentiaries later). One of the most commonly asked things with family and friends is how does this affect me. It's rather simple. To me, it's about intentions. Am I looking to get f**ked up talking gear? Nope. In fact, it's simply supplementation to me considering there are many pieces to the puzzle when it comes to this lifestyle. Nutrition, training, sleep, supps, gear etc. my intentions are simply the same as they are with micro and macronutrients etc, to assist the ultimate goal. I would buy OTC if I could to assist my body transformation. I just wanted to share that with you all so maybe it helps just one person. Thanks bros.
AnonSaw your post. I am new here. I been in AA since 06 never been able to stay 100% clean for too long. Now that pot is legal I slipped. Had some beers and some weeds. Now I want to do a little cycle and see if I can get back in shape like before coke and meth got me in 09. I saw your post and was wondering why you want to transform your body? I wish you the best and it would be nice to hear back from you. Good luck.
X3. Not that anyone cant tell by looking at me but ive been asked b4 and i tell them im on TRT (which is true). My sponsor knows and also shares a like stance on gear. My girl always asks me "but doesnt the needle trigger u?" No no it does not 6 yrs off H and i nvr wanna live that hell again!!! Good luck brothers!!!
Seeing slin pins gets to me a bit, but fuck if Id ever consider jamming a 22g in the main vein lol no trigger there. I did OC from the beginng of 06 until I got busted Christmas day 2007. That was a fun call home "sorry mom Im not gonna make it for Christmas dinner because Im in jail." I got clean for 2 years then I relapsed winter 2010 on morphine this time and finally got clean for good a year later. November 2, 2011 was my last time shooting up. I was also taking 2-3mg of xanax plus smoking huge amounts of "spice" that fake pot shit that everywhere for a while. Both times I got clean I just quit everything cold turkey at once, 240mg a day of morphine plus xanax to nothing overnight was rough. But kicking the morphine oc and xanax was absolutely NOTHING compared to the spice. That stuff f'ed me up royally. It took a whole nother 6 months before I could kick it, and the withdrawls and craving for it lasted for months on end after. That stuff was by far the worst thing I ever had to quit.
Wow bro i nvr knew that spice had any withdrawl. I nvr tried that or bath salts either which i know has gotten alot of my clients by the balls. What do the withdrawls feel like from spice?
Id say it feels something like a cross between a really bad cigarette craving and opiate craving/withdrawl (yes I used to smoke cigs too, but quit those too when i got off morphine, also way way easier than spice). it gave you that feeling of helplessness where you just want to scream and pound on the floor and cry all at the same time like during the worst part of an opiate withdrawl. It messed me up in other ways too tho like internal temp control, id be shivering and sweating at the same time. sleeping or eating were completely out of the question without it. and after time it made it so that if id go more than an hr or so without smoking it my hands would get all shakey and Id feel really awkward like I couldnt look anyone in the eye. i always felt like people could tell something was wrong with me. it was peolly a full year before all those side effects went away and even now 18 month later I will still occasionally get the shakey hands and awkward feelings. its really a terrible drug. Nothing helped the cravings either, like as far as other substances. like if I drank it just increased the cravings and I was told that it blocks THC receptors and I noticed pot had no effect at all when I was on the spice. Time was the only cure. i never tried the bath salts.
Hoky shit dude... I nvr knew that it could do that. Shhows how long ive been out the game lol. This synthetic shit is getting outta control. It seems more n more of the younger generation that i encounter r strung out on some shit someone made in a toilet in their buddys basement. I know 1 thing brother every morning i wake up not dopesick is a blessing!!!
Amen brother!
Well put bro, loved how u broke it down. Nonetheless I never mention gear at my NA meetings for being judged
I second that. I speak with a select few that I trust including my sponsor.
Just stumbled on to this thread and love it. I didn't think there was many others that are going threw what i am. Thanks all that have wrote there lives down on here so that others like me know we're not alone.
TARANISI think this thread is absolutely brilliant and have been following on a regular basis,some time soon when i work up the courage i will share my own battles and demons with this community
love you all
bigwillywow is all I can say.