posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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Good luck bro. Hope all works out!
AnonNoir I really appreciate that man I'm gonna fight for this one if I get her back you won't see me again. Thanks man
Give them a vote if you find it helpful.PermalinkGuys ive been straight for 3 years and had a recent relapse and became physically dependant on subutex. Oh its killing me going cold turkey. But im doing this shit. I havnt trained properly for over a month but now dealing with a detox that sucks. Oh how I wish I could push a button and get past these wds.
So glad to find this thread~! 12-Steps & NA keep me clean. I still claim my clean date even though i take test & other roids. I have trouble keeping to one shot per week sometimes. I just took a break from like 05/28-07/20, did pct, lost 10 pounds. I was trying to go 60 days, but just decided i'm going to gay games 9, August 3, so of course vanity shows up, I wanna be strong & look strong. Coming off sux, but not as bad as it sucked getting off alcohol, meth, or pot. Have i transferred addictions again? Am I kidding myself?
It's good that your self aware but no and no to the questions at the bottom of your post. I think you maybe over thinking things. Relax bro, I don't even recognise my previous self, it's almost like it happened to somebody else.
Gear and drugs/alcohol don't even compare in my book.
There's lots of ex addicts on here, including myself. For me having access to gear and the desire to train has 100% saved my ass! It could be argued that I've transferred my addiction, but bare in mind we don't get a narcotic effect off gear. It would never satisfy the inner fiend in me when I previously wanted to get fucked up.
I own a couple houses and one of them right now is vacant, my mom still gets loaded, she came by a few days ago high as shit talking about she just got a new job this morning, and needs a place to stay. wants to know if ill rent her one of my houses. Temporarily mind you!....I said Mom you been looking for a temporary place to stay since i was 5, you dont stay anywhere temporarily, you just leave after the eviction. I says I got your number ill call you later when your not high. she says well I got to put money on it and Im afraid to drive my car through town because it overheats. (the at&t store is 5 minutes away)...I just shook my head and told her to go to a meeting, I cant help you until you help yourself.....This disease is no joke, I dont even talk to her but maybe once a year and she comes asking me to enable her. crazy shit.
Bout to have 2 years. Was hard getting clean with both my parents being supportive but nonenabling. Couldn't imagine how hard it would b to get clean if my parents actively used. Disease took one of the greatest guys I ever met and the one who really got me into lifting a few months back. U did the right thing and must b working a good program. Keep it up.
Are you my brother?
My mom is and always has been a prescription drug abuser and alcoholic. She got clean for about 10 years when I was young, got her masters degree and a good job. But it was short lived. I'm the only one of my siblings who speaks to her, and I only do it because I feel I owe it to her for not aborting me. Seriously that's the only thing the woman has ever done for me.
TARANISThats rough bro,especially someone that close to you,You know as well as i do you have to hit that gutter but at your moms age i have no comment on that matter.
i feel for you bro, must be hard but you must bite the lip and also be hard,iv'e died inside so many times,
35 years of struggle,but bro i have no magical advice for you as its just me thats struggled not any of the closest of the close,
i wish you all the best and success for you and your family and pray you beat these fuckin demons
TARANIS
I commend you bro as its sometimes not easy to talk about this stuff especially close family members
your a credit to all on this page
that shits rough but you did the right thing. Sorry to hear things like this but addiction is a killer. Getting help is key, but you have to want it!
AnonIm a methamphetamine addict.was straight and doing very well, fell off the wagon recently..just needed another taste..well that was now 3 months ago continous bender and day 1 starts now..not looking forward to the next few weeks..but have promised myself to get clean for the sake of the kids..fkn terrible drug with no help from any doctor in my country in sight.
Cold turkey it is..not looking forward to being withdrawn thats coming in a few days time..I know cardio work and a simple test e cycle makes a world of difference-well it did for me last time.just need to get past the next few weeks and of coarse my dealer who is very close by in my life and ive got a exit.
Good Luck Brother! Just remember you can't do this alone and you don't have to be alone. Get yourself to a meeting and keep going till you get it. Keep us updated and please PM me if you need someone to talk to.
I'm an alcoholic, i am powerless over alcohol, and sober through the grace of God. Today I am celebrating my 8th anniversary. I have enjoyed the support of the eroids community for a couple of years now and i wish to thank all of you for helping me on my journey. Thank You Peace mk
That's awesome! Congrats!!!!
AnonDays like today make me feel like I'm missing out. Deff don't like feelings g like the odd one out I can have fun clean but at some point today I thought drinking would be a lot more fun.
Ace VenturaFuck that! I'm proud to be the odd one out. Then when they're drunken idiots and falling all over themselves, I say "look at me and look at you. That's how I stay sober, motherfucker." Maybe I've just been sober too long, but that has very much lost it's appeal to me over the years. I like the feeling of total control. I like the feeling of getting in my car and not having to be paranoid driving home. That if I do get pulled over, that cop just wasted both our time.
i still catch my self doing a checklist.
what it used to be...
anything in pockets, glovebox or trunk?
now
did i forget to pay my registration? what about my car insurance? ......nope thier payed ;)
AnonNormally I feel the same way just this year fucked with me
you took the word out of my mind. You have to make a meeting and remember the only thing that's out there is being broke, sick, and a scumbag to everyone you know. As much as a day like today can bother us its better then the life of hustling and stealing just to get two bags so we so we don't have to be sick.
AnonAin't that the truth. I went to the casino I fit in there lol
Suboxone clean bitches! Fuck me what a ride this has been. Been coming off subs for awhile now. Started on 16mg a day, down to. 25 mg a day. This in a matter of 6 months. Wasn't too bad until I got down to. 5 mg a day... then it got rough. But I pulled through this fucking thing. I wanna Thank everyone that I've talked to and help me get through the tough times....u know who u are. Feels good to have ppl stand by ya, even tho they're so far away. Thanks! I'll keep going to my N/A meetings and battle this thing head on.. I know I'm not cured, just off the meds for the 1st time in years. Feel good. Thanks again
Congrats bro that's a huge accomplishment. As I'm sure you knkw just never let your guard down. This fucking horrible diseases is always lurking quietly waiting.
Yeah brother I know.. it's an ongoing battle for me. I have GREAT support from friends, family & you guys. Thanks for all the encouraging words from everyone.
Congrats brotha. Glad to hear you did it right and glad your off that stuff. Is a blessing not to have to be dependent on opioids anymore.
Anonawesome dude. no just be a member of the "no matter what club" and youll be good bro. subs suck i wouldve rather kicked cold turkey
good shit
Yes it is my friend!
I'll hit my five year mark on July 8th. This will be the longest I have ever been sober since I started using drugs when I was fourteen I'm 34 at the moment. Thank you roid noid for creating this forum. It took 17 felony convictions, 6 cases, 3 months in county and 1yr in a treatment program for me to realize that enough was enough. I caught all 17 charges at the same time and they bunched them together in 6 cases. All meth related. Congrats to all of you who have taken back control of your lives!
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nola, Im on 20mg suboxone after 3 yrs of tramadol and 2 other tries at suboxone regimines within 4 yrs.Im on this cycle since march. my doc says stay on as long as you need to because the worst thing is to backslide and go back to drug of choice. i am in trouble because i started at 16.mg in march, now in up to 20mg and my body wants 24. im sweating even now. is it from too much or too little? i cant even tell anymore. Im on a high niacin,b12/fish oil diet regime as per a chiropracters recommendation as stopping the tramadol or subbys i take causes immediate depression and anxiety. I also start my day with a raw veggie smoothie of only green vegetables. i alternate with fruit smoothies of blueberries and bannanas. Im on either precocet or suboxone for 4 yrs now. How do I get off this without making the cure worse than the disease? Anyone else with any ideas, feel free. Id like to pm you nola so i sent you a friend request. The mesed up thing is im 55 yrs old. didnt even start with opiates till 51. Is there anyone out there my age who knows what im going thru? tried aa and na. not for me. thank you.
thank you.
I'm not sure why your sweating and withdrawing. If you were stablized on 16 then there's no reason you should be needing more. It's when you first start them, maybe 8mg isn't enough so you go up until you find the dose that keeps you well. My brain is what always wants more but I don't need it to stay well. I stated at 8mg, then went to 12 then to 16 and 16 is good assuming I don't wake up way to early and taken my first one 5 hours before I normally so. I usually take first one at like noon theny second at 7ish but some days I wake up at 6 and take my first one at like 7 then 8 hours later I want another so I take it but then when 7 o'clock pm comes around I wanna take another one. It's not a physical thing it's all mental. And that's what I have to do is stop letting my brain tell me what to do. It's hard tho.
Glad to know I'm welcomed brother... http://heeeeeeeey.com/
Bumped into an old friend today, he's just spent 6 year in prison and gone straight back to heroin. He's almost 50, I don't think he'll stop now till he's six foot under tbh. His 2 brothers are the in the same boat, it's a real shame.
AnonJails institution and death. The unfortunate truth
If anyone needs advice on getting off suboxone or opiates, and how to effectively minimize/vanish w/d effects you can fr me and ask. I kicked both when I was younger, with the use of over the counter meds and herbs. (a lot easier then jumping ship)
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Mate Im from Australia. I use otc medication with 15mg codeine /600mg paracetamol. I put all 40 tabs in ice water and in about 40 mins because paracetamol isn't water soliable I can then strain the contents for
600mg of codeine, In Aus we call it a cold water extraction. I do it every day and have been for about 2 years.
Apart from the runs which are easy fixed with gastro stop I just have the most negative thoughts all day. Minutes feel like weeks. I got to 8 days the other day and celebrated with 600mg...
TARANISHey bro don't mean to sound arsey but although this is an addiction thread,
you shouldn't really be telling anyone about the cold water extraction system, were trying to steer people away from drugs ,not teach them methods of using them.
peace out
T
No worries TARANIS.I appreciate the heads up. Honestly didn't think you had the same kinda pharma drugs that where an issue. Despite that you got Aus members so I wasnt thinking about anyone but my own addiction.
mistake I post
Thanks to all who talked about subs. I have been thinking the same thing since starting out. (which is only two weeks ago). This gives me faith and strength to carry on.
this is amazing...we are everywhere (recovering addicts). glad i found this forum. may 27th i'll have been clean for 14 years. good to know i have a group specific to my way of life.
Wow i cant even say how happy i am to find this thread. Still feel at times that im the only one but ol hp reminds me that im not.
AnonAin't that thrle truth welcome brotha
Thanks
I've been active in recovery for 7+ years now, both NA and AA. Very happy to see a thread like this here. After a long road getting my life together, I'm now in med school and actually planning to start my first cycle next week. If anyone, ANYONE, would like to talk about anything related to recovery or the dynamics of cycling while in recovery, I'd be more than happy to listen. It's something I've given a lot of thought toward and put a lot of time and research in to.
Hello all. Never knew this type of thread was here or would be here! Well, i've been on suboxone for about 9 months with few slip ups. Been injured the past 2 years+ and to be honest, was always way to fucked out of my mind to even think about hitting the gym, prior to that i lifted weight pretty seriously since 16 years old.
Now that my mind is feeling somewhat better and my body is ready to be back in the gym I was wondering is suboxone will have any negative effects for me in bodybuilding, like putting on mass, changing diets threw out the season, ect. ect. Or does it not have any effects at all.
reason i post this, is because i was cycle prepping with my bro and he said he has read that while on suboxone it is much harder to put on muscle mass (didn't provide me any proof, which led me to believe it was broscience)
sorry if this was not suppose to be posted in here and thanks to any reply's.
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Mr.pumpI never had any issues with this . I always get great gains on my cycles. With ofcourse a well adjusted diet an weight regiment!! But , I'm only talking for my self . An it's bin business as usual for the two years I've bin on subs. Hope that help bro!