posted Sun, 05/20/2012 - 18:16
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+ 10 THE RECOVERY LOUNGE!....N/A, A/A, C/A, or any other Anonymous drug program!
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Welcome to the recovery lounge, this is safe place where eroid members can talk about recovery, steroids and recovery, or any other topic! There seems to be many of us here on eroids, there will surely be different fellowships in here and they are all welcome! Other eroid brothers are welcome to come and join the lounge if they would like, its open to the public!
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breakingfaceYou're obviously bright enough to come clean about it. I would be much more worried about your prospects if you chose to keep it to yourself and continue to claim x number of years clean. Good luck!
dont be to hard on your self bro hang in there and congrats on the new 13th day, on a side note how to like the suboxone i am on methadone and i am having a hard time trying to come off
Thanks bro. Im very thankful that it didnt get worse. I stArted on methadone and realized that wasn't for me and after a 72 hour medical detox I got on the subs. Been on em 4 years and I'm slowly tapering down. It is so much better than methadone IMO. It has worked to quell 99% of the urges and triggers.
I got mad
breakingfaceIt's not been a full year with out a drop of alcohol. Although I didn't consider myself an alcoholic I decided it was not helping me move forward in life. Even when you only drink 1x -2x a week ( there were some exceptions after a job loss where I drank everyday for a few weeks) , stopping produces amazing results.
Here's a few I noticed:
- Better sleep
- lower bodyfat
- better gym performance
- seasonal depression was much better
- anxiety is much lower
- Developed better copping skills. ( On bad days you dont have an escape)
- Healthier cravings for food
- more money
The list goes on. I had no idea how detrimental even social drinking is.
waltri always view alcohol as a crutch, well maybe that's just how i used it personally.
breakingfaceMy views are alcohol are warped because both my parents drink every night. Ive never seen them drunk and both are very successful in love and life. Growing up like that I really thought there was nothing wrong with drinking a few times a week. Unfortunately for me even a few times a week in moderation makes me a complete prick and zaps my motivation. Ive often wondered if I developed an intolerance or allergy to the stuff over the years.
AnonI just want to say I am really proud of all of you! Keep up the amazing work. You are all truly dedicated and strong. You will make it far!!
XOXO
For whatever it's worth, I bottomed out hard about 3 years ago and I got sober in AA. I was shooting just about anything I could find and I tried other 12 step programs but AA is the only thing that worked for me.
I've been sober for almost 3 years now and training has helped me tremendously. I think its pretty fuckin cool that Roid Noid made this thread. Imaginary +1 for you sir.
congrats on 3 years
Just wanted to tell everyone i decided to quit drinking isnt good for any of us and is probably the worst drug out there.
waltri've been sober for almost 10 months now and love it. nothing positive about alcohol at all in my mind
waltralmost 10 months clean/sober.
kinda surprised to find this here
congrats bro keep it up
Keep it up bro!
I messed around and got another dui (5)...get n ready to go to the slammer n 23 days. I hope I can finally over come that addiction !!!
Just for today bro. We all start at our bottom.
Jails a great place to start working steps. Ive known plenty of people who wrote their fourth step on jailhouse toilet paper. Go to a meeting. man up as hard as it is, raise your hand, and say you have no idea how to stay sober and you need help. Youll have guys come up to you and youll be shown the path. Get a sponsor. Call that sponsor. Get a big book. Work through the book and the 12 steps with that sponsor.
Solid advice. One day at a time, that's what worked for me...
Thats great advice. Thx!
Excellent suggestions. It works if we work it. We are all in this together!
Yes they r. This is kinda like the family we never met ! Good people !!!
Yeah, I WILL overcome it this time !! I have had enough of that shit n my life. Im take n my life BACK ! Thx
ouch! id say you might have a problem! get a hold of some AA literature before and when you get in there!
clean of cocaine four years and counting. fucking awful drug.
congrats! Keep goin. I just passed 1 year off gambling, I also havent had a drop of booze for 4 months, not intentionally, just havent, never been much of a drinker really.
GearofWarHey Noid, is this the place to talk about Narcotics recovery too? If so, i can't believe I haven't browsed and posted here..
yeah bud thats what its for
Good shit
What a great find! I am a month away from being clean/sober in aa. Training has become a very integral part of mt recovery. Everything I do aas wise is done in moderation. As much as my disease wants me to go to extremes I won't. I want to stay healthy and continue to bask in the sunlight of the spirit.
Just the way you worded that first sentance reminds me of something we say in my area....and maybe yours
How much clean time you got?
Ill have a week in ten days
oh geez, duhh I forgot to add the 10 years to the sentence. Thanks for seeing that!
its all good brother.....keep up the good work
Thanks and you too!
Can I get my paper stamped? I'm new here so I guess I will sit in the back.
ahhhhhh welcome back from "the walking dead" sir !!!!
My hat goes off to everyone here for their erforts and successes in their recoveries. This is a great thread as just talking about these issues can be a very intimidating task.
I myself am an addict, I will be 1 year clean on March 1/2013. My addiction is not substance, but gambling.
Long story short, early 2012 I hit rock bottom, lost everything...... again. Every aspect of my life was going to complete sh!t and I just didn't care anymore. The thoughts that go through one's mind in situations like these are nothing short of terrifying. Now almost a year later, several GA meetings as well as 1 on 1 counselling and endless support from friends, family and an awsome gf, I have climbed my way out of the worst hole of my life.
Now I gambling isnt the most common addiction, and many people have voiced their opinion to me that it is not an addiction but I will say this.
I used to look at drug addicts and alcoholics as weak willed and lazy people that chose to be the way they were. I could not have been more wrong, the whole time I was judging them I was sufferring from the same problem.
All the best to everyone!
I have sit in on several of these meetings. the disease is the same. I often refer to gambling as part of the disease when sitting in N/A meetings.
im not really tryin to talk to my sponsor bout this or any other addicts in the prgrm in my area due to AAS ignorance and fear, but also because i dont want to give anyone reason for alarm. i have all my gear already for my next cycle chillin in a box in my closet, and just over the last few days ive been obsessing about just sayin fuck it and startng now, even though i just finished pct a fuckn week ago! somethng about feeling back to normal (morning wood, lustng after my wife and random girls, aggression back to where it was precylce, etc) has the addict inside of me queitly trying to convince me its all good, your using torem and DAA in pct next cycle, it'll bring you back plus you're running hcg throughout. i actually dreamt about it for what felt like the entire night last night which is why im posting this - not because i need to be talked out of it or anything like that, but because i figure this is the next best thing to sharing about it in a meeting. telling on myself has always been an effective means of sabatoging my addiction. anyways brothas, just wanted to get that off my shoulders and stay on point
Doing this will only make for a worse cycle. good thing come to those that wait. your not even recovered yet, even tho pct is done your body still has some leveling off to do with secreting its own hormones and such wait some more and get better results.....also you wont fuck you body to the point where you will regret it, may not happen this cycle or next but doing this will absolulty fuck up your body in the long run
Hey mate things get better, I’m 18 months into recover from a serious opiate and benzo addiction after some major surgeries. Things got worse after they replaced my knee but and I tried and failed a few times to get sober… it’s hard man but with some help from family and friends you will make it through it. I have been there man getting a script for but not wanting it ( just the junkie in me grabbing that piece of paper ) You just have to stay strong and make sure you have your mind sent on getting your self back, and trust me your old self is there its just hiding under a thick coat of bs you sold your self, just do it before that one last time turns into that one last time if you get my drift….
A little fyi I was up to 180mg ms contin ( morphine sulfate ) and 135mg of oxycodone ( 9/15mg ir pills) a day plus 4 or 5 1mg xanax a day. . . I was a wreck. Decided one day I needed to get healthy or I was gonna die in some shithole, that and I wanted to prove these doctors wrong that I wasn’t just some junkie that was never going to get back to my favorite sports and marticial arts. Long road isn’t over yet but it gets better, man funnel every thing into getting your self healthy. And best of wishes mate.
And seriously after a month or so being sober feels like a pretty killer buzz after you have been numb for so long. ^-^ again good luck brova,
bbondsThanks for sharing that bro, hope you know how much that helps alot of us, keep up the good work
And all the best brother.
Guys im struggling with xanax. Im prescribed 4mg for my general/social/panic disorder. 8mg felt better and Ive stayed there. Its affecting my concentration at work, my memory is terrible and before taking the drug, despite my anxiety i was on the ball. Words would roll off the tongue like i had the gift of the gab and I cant do that right now.
Im scared as hell i wont get the old me back....
I can handle panic and anxiety but getting off this stuff is hell.
Anyone beaten benzos, can you describe how you did it.
thanks everyone
Hey man I hear ya. I'm trying to get off suboxone and xan right now. All I know is, when I'm not on them my head is much clearer. I was able to get my most recent six months of refills in the first three months and at this point have been totally without for two months. Things were really tough for the first couple weeks, but I couldn't even find anything through my friends. I had no choice but to do without. It had been three full years since I had gone without benzos, and I had not realized how mushy my brain had become. But your clarity will come back, mine did. My big problem is when I go back to get my sub refilled I will get new xan refills. I'm not to the point where I can get off the subs yet. Hopefully I can suppress the addiction and just tell the doc I don't need the xan anymore.
On sub too bro. Shit saved my life. A t the point now im ready to start weining off. But littlee scary. Spent most of my life jynked out or in prison. First time ive been so well off since a child. About to b off proba tion am a kitchen manager. N u begin to feel like its the sub that makes u super man. Working sixty pkus hr weeks without missing a step. But uts becoming that time. Soon been on this shit long enough. Oh yehah I get kolonipin too but dont take. Not really a fan of it. Ill take if im going to b in q large mall or something
On sub too bro. Shit saved my life. A t the point now im ready to start weining off. But littlee scary. Spent most of my life jynked out or in prison. First time ive been so well off since a child. About to b off proba tion am a kitchen manager. N u begin to feel like its the sub that makes u super man. Working sixty pkus hr weeks without missing a step. But uts becoming that time. Soon been on this shit long enough. Oh yehah I get kolonipin too but dont take. Not really a fan of it. Ill take if im going to b in q large mall or something
ray3801You can do it brother, you're past the worst. No need to re-live it....just give me your docs # and ill sabotage the xanax refill for ya! I'm on subs myself and don't ever see myself putting them down.
wean yourself off man, just take a quarter bar less for a week, then take another quarter away the next week and so on. i used a ton of them, ativan, valium to come down from sticking my face in a pile of blow and i actually remained on them even after i stopped the blow. once you are free from them you will realize its the best sleep ever and you will wake up refreshed a clear headed
Cheers Mate, Ive got a mate who is a doctor and this was his advice today when I talked to him. Said cold turkey is potentially life threatening.
sounds good brotha! the time while you are decreasing your dose will allow you to better cope with your anxiety as well rather than having to deal with severe withdrawal with the anxiety on top of it, would be too much to take for me