could it get any worse ? FML
Whats ups guys ,been the shitiest month for me ,feel like the walls are closing in on me, and being on gear right now im sure just amplifies the shitty way i feel,so in this month i get incarcerated just as i feel im on a good stride i get a served with court documents,its about some money owed to state ,so i make a healthy payment before the court date to curve the actions of the judge a bit,well that shit went right out the window ,payment was 4000$ cash i walk up the judge says fuck you 1 year in prison,i get hauled away ,sitting in a cell is no fun but shit happens,the next few days i had to employ a lawyer bam another 2500$ out the window,he talks to the judge i get another court day shackled and handcuffed i get hauled back to court to see the judge again ,this time hes in a better mood but not a great mood,so he says well since you understand you fucked up im gonna make it easy for you ,6 months incarceration or release at any time after the sum of 10,000$ cash is payed ,so i pay the 10,000$ to get out,so im glad i get out ,then the court calls me demanding last months payment and oct payment on 1st is coming up so another 900$ fucking dollars,but wait it wouldn't be a fucked up month if nothing else happen right ,so i wake up one night at 3:30 am cant sleep ,i have all this bullshit on my mind ,i said fuck it im not gonna go back to sleep too worried about shit ,i get dressed to go hit the gym ,i tell my girl i will be back,walk to my front door ,right before i grab the door handle knock at the door wtf ,i look thru peep hole 2 fucking cops ,im thinking after all the shit ive been thru wtf now ,the court send them to arrest me fuck me ,but no ,i open the door ,they say hi sir do you own such and such vehicle ,i say yes ,well sir your vehicle has been struck in the parking garage by a drunk driver,walk to the parking garage the driver totaled 2 other cars and pushed one onto my vehicle,damaging the front end ,days pass i get a rental vehicle gets fixed ,well the person responsible has a bullshit insurance company,rental and deductible another 1200$ out my pocket,now the people responsible for the damage move out of the complex in the middle of the night , feeling drained now physically,and monetarily ,i had plans to pick up more gear,and some hgh but now thats all out the window, can September be over please ,sorry for the vent brothers just feeling fucked haha
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AnonWhen things get shitty I think of how some people have it much worse... Some don't have a home... Some are mentally disabled some are beyond metally disabled some are stuck in a wheelchair and the list goes on and on and on
Man that reminds me just how good we got it.... Life will never be just how we want it..... But we can always dream.... Remember...... This will pass
It will pass ,and life takes us down certain paths for a reason i belive ,and this is just a test from god ,thanks brother ,
Literally found one of my best friends dead, by his own hands, less than a week ago. He was tens of thousands in debt (some less wholesome than others, of course), the less the world knows the better... long story short: not even 30 years old, killed himself over criminal record, money owed, feeling like shit couldn't get worse... all the clichés that you've heard before.
This is actually one of the reasons that i've decided to start training again. The least nihilistic times in my life were those when I looked forward to the pump. And, my now dead friend loved the gym, too. I don't know what i'm getting at, but please don't kill yourself. I know you didn't go there, and i'm not trying to thread-hi-jack, but seriously...
Some more knowledge: I went from incarcerated and in deep shit to in uni (graduate degree) and no longer paranoid in a few years. Perspective perspective perspective. And, you have the right to vent. Nobody should be telling you what a proper imagination does or does not entail. This is why when my homies are/were depressed, i'd rarely tell them they were wrong. I'd affirm that life sucked, and hope the laugh about it or find a way to enjoy the moment..
anyway it's all heavy and i'm not thinking straight. Cheers to brighter days, stranger dude.
Thank you ,we as humans sometimes take things for granted till we are in situations that take away ,and then we realize that yes things can get much worse ,thanks for posting brother ,
You know brother, it can get a lot worse. I tell myself everday, "I walked in here on my own two feet, can see with my own two eyes, use both of my arms & hands, & have full control over my mind. It's ALL a blessing from here." There's an old saying - I cried cause I had no shoes until I met a man whi had no feet. Be happy that you not only could come up with the $, you were also able to "buy" your way out of a 1yr jail sentence. That's something to brag about, but need to learn from as well. Might not be so lucky next time. I would gladly pay 100k to keep from going to prison. Been there. It's a complete waste of time that you can never get back. Everything falls apart while your gone. Count your blessings bro.
And to give you an idea of my yr:
My wife almost died in the hospital, but didn't. Blessing
I had a 1.2 mil $ construction project burn completely to the ground. 100% loss. Screwed by the ins co, by over 100k, but I was able to recover. Blessing
I had several investments go south on me.
I went from very well off to damn near broke back to at least seeing light at the end if the tunnel. Blessing
You can never stop trying to move forward. Keep your head up.
Blessed we are ,to be alive and free stay strong brother thank you for posting ,
Best part of part of losing it all is getting it all back
Yes sirv,I will prevail ,thanks
pmsl, feel ya bro, last 3 months for me have been bad, broke my leg, foot, ankle, went to hospital, got bashed by 6 security gaurds as they assumed i was stealing the wheelchair, strangled me too sleep, ended up with brain damage due t lack of oxygen to the brain, i got locked up for that as i landed a punch and was already on bail/ suspended at the time, my lawyer cost me 3 grand, i actually had trial yesterday and i won, but shit happens and that is life, everyone has ups and downs- take it out in the gym bro, i actually went out to the strip clubs last nigt with all the boys, i let my hair down and had like 7 beers and smoked some of that green shit, today i feel relaxed and relieved like things can only get better- sometimes having a night out can help mate. good luck.
Glad you beat it ,thank flash the gym is gonna get its ass kicked ,I'm taking it out on the iron ,appreciate you bro
Thanks everyone for your words ,advice and encouragement ,looking at this from different angles, and everything happends for a reason,I will walk this new beggining to the top and won't look back ,
Okay, you have been to the bottom, it is only up from here. But you have to believe in that and yourself.
I do ,I really do believe I gotta come back up ,thank you for your response Darth,
Seems to me you're taking adversity in stride brother! That's alot of hardship to justify in ones mind negative reactions. Instead you have chosen to share with others constructively. That's you beating the system bro! They want you to give up and or go the fuck you route and do something irreversible. I commend you...as likeminded individuals in this community we always got your back!!
Strong words brother I appreciate you thank you ,
Proverbs 30:1
I am weary, God,
But I can prevail.
Thank you,appreciate you
Keep your head up and solider on.
It's only money, you will replace it.
Train hard, love hard, be a good friend , son, brother, employee/boss ... Whatever. You're outta the can. Keep your nose clean and rebuild. Good luck
That's what I'm talking about thank you for the encouragement brother
Shit bro, I don't know you, but I do know prison, and I know whatever the hell you're dealing with, it's still better than being in that shit hole. Keep this in mind...at least you got a girl to go home to instead of freakin Bubba in cell block C! All the best to you bro!
very true ,thank you
PallMallLook at it this way, sure you had to kick out a lot of cash, but at least you had the money to cover it. You'll get it all back tenfold. Stay focused on the here and now. Enjoy being alive today, because truth is, that's all that matters.
god bless you brother thank you ,
Your definetly having a bad september.. And what your going through is bad and it sucks, sounds like your putting alot of money out.. BUT can life get worse OH HELL YEAH
life is full of ups and downs, we gotta take it in stride, hold our head up and keep it moving.. I say all this to you while laying on a couch with 2 broken ankles. I was having the best sumer cut cycle of my life. MY life was going great,, working making money, hitting the gym, totally head over heel with my girlfriend.... Now for the last 4 weeks ive been so down and out in pain and feeling useless. Sorry to jump your thread and i wish you get everything back to normal. AND believe it !!! There our guys worse off then us
thanks brother ,no you're good hope you get better thank for those words,
Damn. I hope things get better for you.
thanks brother
Hey brother. Keep your head up. I cant say better days are comming because i dont know but atleast your out of jail. I spent half my childhood behind bars. Fck that. Im in a shitty spot now due to some bad decisions. In a town i dont know, lost my car, job, friend, and i am trying to have some gratitude for what i do have. Its hard but it makes my peoblems a little bit smaller.
Thanks House,appreciate the kind words ,you stay up yourself and brother ,and yea glad to be out ,prison is no joke ,