Feelin small...
I dont quite understand this. I went to the gym this morning... Not trying to be cocky, but I was the biggest/stongest guy there today... There werent that many people probly a dozen... Anyway, I felt kinda big...at 5'10 192 10%bf... I get home feelin kinda confident, take my shirt off, and all I see is work that needs to be done and I look far from big... My cycle is pretty much done, I am actually prop'n out of my first test e cycle w/ 8 days left... I know I m gonna lose about 5 lbs of bf when I lower my carbs and increase cardio... I would appreciate any advice on workout changes... I read I shud only do 2 sets of each exercise throughout pct, but I havent seen much about diet changes... I m going to try to decrease my bf and try to keep getting bigger, but I will be off cycle for a few months, so not near as fun... I'll post before and afters when I'm done... It doesnt make sense though man, cause I told myself I want to be 185 leaned out, that's changed to 200, I started 170 <10% bf. now I am in 190's and I still feel small?
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tread-mI can assure you it never gets better. In fact, it gets worse. It is that we do not see what is really there but rather we tend to see what is not there that we want to be there. This causes us to not like what we see and then. actually turn it into something that is fiction. Once in a while you will accidentally see the real you because you just happened to look at yourself one day with no preconceived thought...you know that day once in a while when you look in the mirror and think"F I look huge!" ? Thats the day you accidentally saw the real you that everyone else see's. I had a recent similar situation, everyone Ij ran into was saying things like "damn you're massive" or something similar and I'd go home and think, what the F are they talking about. You watch how you fit into clothes and how you look in them. One good way would be to set a certain set of clothes in a closet that you do't get dirty and don't wear, so you don't have to wash them and draw them up, and put them on and take pics every month. Once you see how they fit you so different over a year it will come to you that you are an animal! Lol. I have always had a slim waist and never over a 34. A while back I had to go to a 36 and still slim waisted and no stomach so little things such as that tell you, you have to be getting bigger! There is no denying it if you will look for signs of recomp eve n if your weight is not going up. You are getting bigger! Merry Christmas you big bastard! : /
bro, its just body dysmorphic syndrome (not just for anoerexics anymore) very common I get it mid cycle (every cycle) and i dont think my shit is kicking anymore and I don't think I'm getting any bigger and its bullshit. i've been at this long enough to know its just my head
Now the post cycle stuff... part of this game is ACCEPTING that you will be bigger ON cycle than OFF. I know, I know, Duhhh! but seriously you just have to become good with the idea that its better to walk amongst the immortals part of the time than not at all cuz if you don't you will either totally mindfuck yourself or become one of those dudes who just doesn't come OFF and both have prices to pay
AnonBds is a sickness, the degree to which it affects a person is what makes it a clinical issue, ie never coming off cycle, is a big problem..the stuff we experience day to day is normal, how you handle it is what determines your outcomes and ability to function.
I looked up bds, crazy, but makes sense... I told myself I felt bigger at the gym because I was comparing myself to other people, where as at home I can only compare myself w/ my ideal body type in my head, and I am a long way away... I have a pic of me about 5 weeks ago, and I was looking at it and thinking I had not gotten any bigger, yet I put on about 10 lbs since pic was taken... So ur diagnosis pretty much hit the nail on the head...
i guess if I achieved all I wanted w/ the first cycle, It wouldnt challenge me, and I would lose interest... It's an all the time challenge cookin, training, eating,and working 50hrs a week, also fighting the losing battle against old age, and dont forget to take ur pills. I just want to look perfect, that's it!
JtizzleAnd that's one of the reason's Steroids are a "drug" .. this is something I have to remind myself of both ON and OFF cycle..
Jtizzlehttp://www.eroids.com/forum/steroids-qa/steroid-cycles/ive-just-finished...
thanks bro
JtizzleGothic posted a great thread about this very issue .. i'll find it and post link