+ 3 My last 3 years from my life
Good day eroids memeber ,
First of all , I missed this forum as much as I missed the gym .
What I'm going to say its something private , but I would love to share it with this cummunity, cause this cummunity picked me up again from the hell I had been through.
Since September 2018 became addicted to few heavy drugs , lucky me crack and heroine were not in these substances I got addicted to .
It was very hard period as I don't remember anything from the last 3 years from my life , lost lots of money, my health and many good people around me , its hard to be foreigner in a country by your own and suffer the racist in everything you do or wherever you go .
Thank God I'm off of all of it the last 3 months , already one month back to the game , lonelees and bad friends can kill anyone slowly , finally I accepted where I'm and if the country where I live accepted me or no , its their problem now .
I want to apologise for this subject if it was unwelcome here , also want to apologise to all sources that I was part of their promos and I didn't write reviews or vote , cause honestly, I don't remember if I used gear , or from whom was the gear , or even where is the gear now , cause I lost more than I can handle , now back to see the life from pink glasses , accepted thing and understood things , weren't clear to me before .
Glad to be back even the tear want to run from what I lost , but there are always bright sides that I'm back to it and see what it was hidden .
Nice website by the way .
Greetings my great cummunity.
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Ya you should come join us in the recovery lounge
I did already.
Glad to hear your back on track and doing well so far. Addiction is a life long battle and everyone has been involved with some type of addiction in their life. Focus on your goals and work towards that everyday. (Like a new addiction) but one that benefits a wonderful and healthy life. Best of luck and reach out when you need to. Minus the keyboard warriors there is alot of great people on here that want the best for eachother. Stay strong!
It's not my battel anymore , I found that i have ADHD , this why it was so easy to be addicted, now I have my medication and happy with it , even before the addiction, I understood that I wasn't live , I was surviving, now off for 3 months , start to realise I'm living since 2 months, not anymore surviving .
This is where you need (rational 'need') to be at https://www.eroids.com/group/the-recovery-lounge-group and remember that on my books, you owe me nothing. If I go back 25-years I become a horrible person, just 8-years a drunk and only a few years more bad things. It is about living today, one day at a time... you may recognize that phrase. Your life will not come back easily, you may have to claw it back, but I heavily doubt that you need to be apologizing to people like me, though practice does make perfect. I have an honest to god novel published on what a fuckup I was, but I also have news publications about the turnaround in my life, so think like that, putting the past behind you as a lesson. I'll keep an eye out for your posts and try to lift you up when I can, but I am not nearly as much a Saint as my handle would lead one to believe. Welcome back from me, and good luck in recover, but you are going to have to work this thing, especially if you burned the bridges half as bad as you indicate. You can come back, just it may be a whole new life. Do feel free to friend and message, but the link above is a better choice, I still bring baggage to the game. To hell with good luck work hard and you will achieve.
Thanks for sharing , didn't think of it.
Mate - tonight is trying me beyond belief, but I have to keep steady, and so do you. Shit just pops up from nowhere and you nedde support. Good luck.
First I am glad it sounds like you are doing better but 3 months is just a small step. A good one but small. I hope you got and continue getting the help you need from professionals because this forum certainly isn't enough for what you need. You say "this community picked you up" which make me nervous that you see this place a somewhere to turn for professional mental advice. It isn't for someone with your needs. All the best!
You are right , this place picked me up to back to my game track, not cured me , I have help to stay away from what I involved myself in , but this forum was always my escape to learn and fill my time.
Welcome Back Buddy - Thought I hadn't seen you here for a while
Whatever it was that you were using, stay away from that Shit as you don't need it
I got my lesson mate, we don't learn for free .