Been putting blood and sweat for 4 months and I get fucked by traffic, ok I go in the morning with my posing coach for prejudjing, and as soon get in the room I'm already getting looks from everybody felt really cool, I go for wegh-in take my sweets and t shirt and I can her people wispering that dude is ripped and stuff, like that also didn't spray tan, just did sun beds was the lightest there but the most full and ripped anyway I get called for prejudging and I have already people giving compliments non stop, I go on stage do my thing get picked straight away and I'm always in the middle, I can here people shouting my number I don't recognize there voice, get done with everything, and go for something to eat back home and need to be there for 6, I say that's cool cause it just 12 got plenty of time, I'm just an half hour away from we're I live, now the horror story begins, we leave my place at 4 thinking that's plenty of time to get there, well it's like 7and I'm freeking the f..k out, in the car with my posing couch, we get there for 7.30 I run backsatage and my category already been awarded also found out I got 2nd, it was really hard on me, I'm still in shock, worked so hard for 4 months and just blew it like that, I'm so pissed I wanted to kill the judges also so the guy that got 2nd and man did he not deserve that shit, literally crying in the car on the way back. Need some support, category was novice middleweghit and there were 14 dudes in cat. My stats. Are 5,6 174 for show. 185 off season. Fat perce. 4.1 at show. 7.5 off season

Thanks for support guys