italian92101's picture
italian92101
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2027

Ashemed of something I just did....

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So I'm a waiter in an Italian resturant, I'm Italian don't know if there's any waiters here, but let tall it can be fucking brutal been working in restaurants for 6 years, I'm gonna admit I smoke a little weed , just to hungrier and as muscle relaxant, but tonight I did something I'm regreting, my coworker from Naples a place in italy were everybody fucking crazy, anyways came in with some snow white, and did 2 lines, can't go to bed, took me an hour toeat my cicken wouldn't go down, know I can't sleep, feel like shit actually not how I remembered did 1 time like 2 years ago, I'm gonna finish my pct in 5 days, did my first npc show and got 3rd, so proud then, but I feel like thorowing 6 years of hard work in the dumpster, wanted to do another npc show may 11, going to start prep on january, never again I'm going to do shit, can't sleep, can't sit down to overwhalmed, shit down my frout, it's 1.12 am, my girl is inbed sleeping don't know anything, me I'm thinking that if I wanna go one day to pro ( ifbb) I'm gonna after stop weed which I know I addicted to, defenetly no more snow white, stats just to let know, 5,7. 184. Body fat. 3.8 this is 4 weeks ago for show, know probably 5, still looking good but so,ashemed right know, can somebody e
Help me with sleep , I have some dormicum, can I take with this shit in my sistem, thanks for understang didn't who to talk to, I'll go to my bros on eroids.. Thanks guys just what youre opinion on this shit.... I have 7 cycle under my belt......

EagleOne's picture

what you did does not define you, what you choose to do is more important

swolltroll's picture

If you need to talk you can pm me. send a fr and I will accept. Ive sponsored a handfull of people.

BlackPanther's picture

good point

snuka2012's picture

Yep...if its coke you'll live...just ride it out and never do it again. Your mind is playing tricks on you and making you manic and anxious...no need to think about Titus. Just remember it'll go away and you'll be back to normal in short order. Looks like u have some goals, no need to throw them away or beat yourself up because of a tiny detour. If u have any house cleaning to catch up on this might be great time to do it...J/K

BlackPanther's picture

activity theraphy

italian92101's picture

In bed right, wide awake, but I can feel it wearing off its 2.41 , wanna go to sleep but I'm just awake....

snuka2012's picture

That's good...so u know u you will be ok. Keep staying calm, there will eventually be a light at the end the tunnel and u will be able to rest.

italian92101's picture

Feeling like craig titus......

italian92101's picture

Super jacked..... Not a happy ending to that story.....

j223's picture

Lol chill out bro.. but no lie craig titus was jacked!!!

italian92101's picture

Man does nobody on tonight.....

j223's picture

Snow white do you mean meth or coke???

if its yayo you can still sleep on it... just give it a few hours to wear off then your good to go. ALso you may get hungry when you come down.

if its meth then you are fucked lol

italian92101's picture

Fuck shodnt have done it never wrote so much on my iPad, don't generally write shit wish we could talk,in person that's what I need write know, its1,53 am and fuck no way a sleep....

italian92101's picture

Coke, man didn't wanna say it so openly I'm that ashemed........

j223's picture

It's okay bro we all make mistakes. Or as I like to say, experiment once or twice. Enjoy life, don't sweat the little things. Do not make it a habit or you have a problem.

italian92101's picture

Thanks ya will do just going to ride out.....