Appreciate what you have, not what you want!
I'm not going to elaborate on what I have been through. I can take pain and don't accept an ounce of pity because of it. Fuck the coma and Fuck the surgeries. I deserve the hand I've been dealt. Life is a bitch, Fuck it! As soon as you all realize your breath can be taken at any moment, for any reason; the sooner you will realize, your life is a grain of sand in time. We have been taught that our lives mean something in the scope of history when we are a mere speckle in time. We are so conceited to believe we actually mean something to history. How do you want to be remembered? Sit back for a moment and realize what your place is in this world. bFG has created a brotherhood that relates to each other and, if we stand strong, will stand the test of time. Realize the gifts you have been given and Fuck the petty shit. Because at the end of the day when we are lying on our death beds, what will you wish you did different? Don't fuckin give me karma for this and I hope I stay at level 1. Levels mean shit to me. I want everyone to know how fragile life is and understand we only have one. Once we die, its lights out. Period. Live for nothing or die for something. I'm gonna eT some jello now as these fuckin docs have me on a soft diet. Sit back for a minute and think about your lives.
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Mike1982Anyone who wants to fuckin test me bring it on. I will give you my address, real name, blood type, date of birth. I live in a cul de sac and both my neighbors are military and between the three houses we have 17 cameras, 10 motion detectors, and an arsenal that would make your local police depatment piss their pants. My city is CENSORED and I invite anyone to come see me and accuse me face to face. ill give you my military record and whatever else you want. I'm not scared of shit nor do I back down from any fight. It's not in my DNA to be a pussy. So don't fuckin tell me I'm supposed to be weak or incoherent after being in a coma. I'm right fuckin here well aware of what's going on. I'm ready for all challengers. Stop typing shit and ill send you a fuckin plane ticket to come where I am. First fuckin class.
Mike1982There's no need to censor what I say. I'm not a fuckin snitch nor will I ever be. This country trusted me with its secrets and you can too. I don't bend, I don't fold, and I never give up. You want to be an internet tough guy? I'm the real thing. I'm your worst fuckin nightmare. If I want you I will find you. Ive seen it, I've done it, I've lived it. I'm ready to die at any second...what are you willing to do?
......Dereks40 ?? -_-
What makes you say that?
Sup Nitti. Lol no no I was just bullshittin' man. This whole situation playing out like this reminded me of the legendary eroids catfish Dereks40
Real easy way to prove it Mike. Or at least prove you are in the hospital. Take a pic with you holding todays USA Today in your hospital bed.
This is from August 7th and best I can tell where the lie all started.
"Three weeks ago I had to have emergency surgery and now I'm short a gall bladder and about 20% of my large intestine. My doctor was amazed to see, amongst all of that, I only lost 8 pounds (minus the intestine and bladder of course). I constantly run testosterone as I'm on trt and this "cycle" I added 600mgs/week of boldenone cypionate. During those 3 weeks of recovery I ate ZERO solid food as I couldn't hold it down due to adjusting to the fact that I was missing parts of my insides and some depression. The bold cyp, in my opinion, helped me to keep my weight up and not waste away during this hard time."
You folks that are paying attention start drawing the lines.
Mike1982There is one person here who knows my real name. I'll give you the best proof you could ever hope for. As soon as I get out of here ill come straight to you. I like to face my accusers eye to eye. Fuck the dumb shit. Tell me the area you're at and ill be there asap.ill show you exactly how crazy I really am. If you have balls then let's do it. I don't do pictures, I do face to face. Now pm me your city and state and you will see your evidence.
Mike1982Hahaha let's do this. I'll say this before I have to go for a little bit. My doctor was doctor carpenter at st. Tammany medical center in Mandeville louisiana and the surgery was because I had a growth on my intestines and the gall bladder was because he thought that might be the problem of my pain. My doctor now is Matthew Mcelveen oncologist and head of the new cancer unit in Slidell Louisiana. Let put this shit at the top of all forums. I hope everyone is paying attention.
This whole thread is getting sketchy!
good to see you back mike
How long have you know you have had cancer Mike?
Mike1982Since August. I have been in and out of the hospital for years with no diagnosis because of upper abdomen pain and was just given pain and nausea meds and sent home. With no insurance most of the time I was just tossed out without further testing. It wasn't until I went to my friends oncologist and had a series of tests that I found out how far along it actually was.
Just an observation. This guy claims to be special forces, let alone a veteran.. You know where veterans can go for healthcare? I am surprised I missed this yesterday.
I've been in that position. I've been in a coma from blunt force trauma as well as had cancer removed and the furthest thing from my mind was eroids. I was gone about 2-3 months. Grrrl was a mod. She'll tell you. I had a mass removed from my rib cage as well as malignant melanoma from my foot. That was a shitty time. But the coma was far worse. When I woke up 5 weeks after going out , I couldn't talk, I couldn't walk and I couldmt even write to communicate. It was the worst thing I've ever had to go through. It took away my first love too. Boxing. These guys/girls seem to think you're not being honest. As someone who's been through it, man I hope they're wrong.
Mike1982Nitti I was out for 4 days. I can't imagine what it would be like to be out for 5 weeks or even months. I'm here after this because besides the people in my room on a day to day basis I don't have anything else. I've separated myself from the outside world. When i found out what was wrong with me I was on here all day everyday you know that. I never logged off. Hell, i never left my house. It's not a matter of hoping theyre wrong. They're wrong.
The part you are missing here Mike is if you were in fact in as bad a shape as you claim whether you wanted to be here or not you would be to weak and or sedated to carry on any sort of coherent conversation. You have been carrying a sick joke on this community and you hung yourself on your own damn words. Give it up, it only gets worse from here....
Mike1982Too weak and sedated? I was on here hours after waking up from surgery and I'm obviously not too weak or incoherent. Im awake and my hands and brain are functioning just fine. Go back and check out what my girl wrote again. I don't make grammatical errors homey. I speak and type concisely.
BigBmajI did think those grammar errors looked a little intentional personally. I didn't want to be the only dick who mentioned something smelled fishy. When I saw that Monique posted your last words to Nitti, I thought give me a break. I love ya Nit but my last thoughts before I slip into a coma are not going to be some silly saying to you.
I tend to not believe anyone about anything. And this philosophy has both served me well and cost me lots.
My friend is in the ICU now taking all sorts of dilaudid, fent, and oxys. He can't even tank much less write coherent paragraphs. I doubt he could even hold his phone.
So I'm thinking bullshit. And it's sad because I actually found myself worrying about you at one point.
I don't know if I hope you are lying or being honest. Either way it's a pretty shitty situation.
Weird shit going on. I haven't even wanted to log on these days. Ugh.
Where was this? I missed it I guess.
BigBmajIt's in the intro section. His last words to you just before going in the coma.
I wrote a response but it got lost. My friend is not opiate naive. He was on 40 mg methadone prior to accident. I'm positive of what he's taking, I'm an old junkie so I always get the skinny on drugs being passed out.
Fent, oxy, and hydromorphone. And his 40 mg of methadone. I don't lie bro. People should know this about me. I'm honest to a fault.
I hope you are well bro. I hope I'm wrong. I can't even use my cellphone sober half the time, more power to you.
Mike1982Big b. I respect the shit out of you but there's no way your friend is on 3 different serious narcotics. I've snorted oxys and dilaudid and went about my business. Why is it so hard to believe my message to nitti was fake. I've been glued to this fuckin site the last 3 months and have connected with numerous people online and in person. It is a shitty situation b. If people want to keep pushing me they will see exactly what I'm capable of.
BigBmajHe broke his spine in 4 places and he was on fent and hudromorohone in the ICU. He was rx'd methadone for a previous injury and took 40 mg a day. So when he went in his pain was so bad they were actually giving him all of the above and 40 methadone.
I asked the doctor because he is an addict so I asked how that affected his treatment. The doctor said he certainly wasn't being treated like an opiate naive patient.
But he was babbling incoherently for hours. Just like the old days when I would use dope and be sort of sleeping and talking nonsense at the same time.
I'm not lying. You will notice one thing about me - I am honest to a fault.
Dude I hope you are ok. I'm just pointing out my skepticism
Nitti. The part I mentioned was in the intro section last part of that where something was addressed to you and it said "you will know what that means". I just had to laugh when I read that.
Who knows bro maybe I will be thinking about you on my deathbed. Hope you don't start getting a complex :).
Mike1982Bring it on big dog. I'm right here and ill back up everything. Post every word and lets get this party started. I never give up.
Where you want to start Mike? I have already threw a few bombs into this thread you have yet to actually respond to. Your a sick, fucking liar, end of story..
Mike1982Start where you feel jack sparrow. I'll address your shit one by one. Start it off pimp.....
Ok, you found out you had cancer in August, no one and I mean no one, not even the craziest asshole on the planet is going to mix steroids and cancer. That is #1, care to explain..
Mike1982Absolutely ill explain. You obviously know jack shit about the science behind steroids. I was losing weight at a very rapid pace and I was already on TrT. I was running tren and test prop to stabilize and gain weight that I was losing. I actually gained a decent amount back. I wasn't eating much and needed to get the nost out of what I did eat. Anyone who knows me knows I'm not a workout buff. I don't train hard, never have. Like nitti, my passion was and is boxing. That's how i trained. I have always been a walking experiment. I like to push things to the limit because most things are limitless. Please share your facts about steroids and cancer. I'm a very crazy asshole and i did mix cancer and steroids. Please show me any evidence that steroids and cancer are bad? I'll show you how cancer and HIV patients are prescribed steroids for the wasting. Next question my friend.
They are not prescribed anabolic steroids mike. Let's see your data.
Better yet let's see that picture...
RustyhookerHIV patients are given steroids for wasting. Some 10yrs at least.
Strictly cancer is what I am talking about Rusty, but you already know that.
AnonWhy in the hell would your girl shoot you up while you're in the middle of a coma in a life and death situation? That is the most absurd thing I have heard in my life!! And sneaking a vaporizer in the room to get you high? It sounds like you're trying to kill yourself!!
Mike1982Ms nitti it was a joke. She doesn't have it in her to stick anything or anyone with a needle. As you can read from one of my posts about a week or so ago I don't have a single drop of gear. I sold everything to pay bills. And getting high isn't trying to kill myself. I've been confined to a bed for weeks and I'm not the type of person to be stationary. Weed isn't going to hurt anything .
AnonWhy would you joke about something like that when everyone here was worried about you? Being in a coma isn't a laughing matter, especially when I have a friend who just woke from a 10 month coma.
Mike1982Because after what I just went through all i want to do is joke and laugh. Once you go through certain things, everything else just isn't that serious anymore. I didn't say she hit me up with heroin, it was just a steroids referenced joke, and not that serious of a joke to begin with.
AnonWhat a JOKE!
Mike1982Wow
Aww shit! Who ruffled your feathers. I'm taking cover. You're all on your own. :-P
Wise move.
Or maybe just that someone is going out of their way to make a fool out of the whole eroids community..
That's where I'd place my bet.
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Mike1982That would just be fucked up on every level.
Well Mike I gotta tell you I have had family members that have been in a coma and the last damn thing they were doing after waking up is yapping on a web forum, not even Facebook. Not because they didn't want to but because they were way to weak and or medicated.
So when you stated you were not going to do Chemo you caught my attention. I am willing to stand by every word I say right now or later.
I don' know what to think about all this,but my dad has prostate cancer and does not have to do chemo.He has to do radiation everyday for 45 days or have some kind of radiation seeds implanted in his prostate.The doctors haven't decided which route they're going to take.
Me too! my brother died from cancer! he had his chest cut open to a huge fuckin tumor ! he was a strapping 220 lbs and reduced to 126lbs...the last thing he wld have thought of was using juice or typing on his iPhone and he did lift before he was sick...for christ sakes he could barely spell he was so high on oxy....idk what the truth is but i have a family member in the hospital now who's a member here and he hasn't gone on eroids once! his hospitalization involves his colon too and they dont feed you any food for days! this story is just that... a story!
Mike1982Ally we have talked about your brother before and you already know how sorry I am that he went throigh that. I was 198lbs and went all the way down to close to 150. Before surgery I gained some of it back. The doctors don't have me on Oxy, I'm on 2mg of dilaudid, zophran, three other things I don't know the name of, and once a day they run a bad of potassium that burns bad as hell going in. Yes you can compare situations but not people. Circumstances are different in each individual. To think this would be made up when I'm attached to eroids all day everyday and love this place more than world outside my front door is...well, I don't know what it is really. I have a catheter in my shit and I'm hungry as Fuck. I woke up, kissed my family and talked for a while, went to sleep for a little bit then got up and came on here. Period.
Believe me mike i wanna believe you! and i did!
Mike1982That's a matter of personal choice and opinion. The first thing I did after surgery was get back on here. I'm not going to lay in this bed with no tv on feeling sorry for myself. The last three months I've been glued to this site, nothing else. I'm not on fb or anything else but eroids. You can't equate someone else's experience with me. I'm not running laps around the hospital after waking up. I'm laying in this damn bed with ESPN and my phone. I'm not too weak to think or use my hands. My medications don't stop me from doing this either. They're not giving me so much I'm incapable of moving. I'm not sedated. Eroids has helped my mind deal with a lot of shit lately, so how is it so far fetched to believe I'm on here now? I didn't wake up and say give me my phone. I was up for a little while and my girl showed me everyone's words so I wanted to get back here.
So you knew you had cancer in August and was still using juice in September , correct? I think you better stop smoking so much weed if you are going to spin this big a story. Go back and read through all of your posts, look and read all of your pics and then go read your reviews. You are full of shit as much as a Christmas turkey. I could paste up all of your words for you if you like?