Off gear and party mode over
I've been off cycle for a bit over a week now (on standard pct for 4 days), and I feel like I hit bottom. To make things worse I had to go out for the parties this weekend.
Partying always feels good. Typically what I do is take a 1mg Xanax and just a few drinks. I hit my "social and happy" zone that way with less alcohol. Keep in mind I only do this maybe once every 3weeks or so. And i still consume protein atleast every 3 hrs.
When I wake up the next day I'm more tired then usual from being up late. And force down a shake like always. Then I continue life as normal. Sometimes even more motivated to do better as a student and lifter due to treating myself the night before.
This weekend was different tho. I went out Thursday through Saturday. Xannied and drank all three nights... I feel like dog shit. It's not just physical tho. I feel mentally squashed. Confidence gone. Feeling shitty about grades in 2 of my classes. Feeling shitty about everything I wanted to happen the night before. And to top it off, I have a major crush on this one girl I met earlier that week. I don't think I've had an actual crush since the sixth grade even. normally i think one fine bitch is good as the next. I'm mentally all over the place now. I feel like bodybuilding is only area of my life I'm excelling in. I'm not taking my grades seriously or relationships. I'm not successful in my parents eyes...
Between being partied out and in pct I'm feeling down. The good thing is partying is the least of my desires right now... And will be for a long time... And never fucking again two nights in a row.
I needed to vent. It finally came to be my turn :(
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BigBmajIt's amazing how personality shifts when juice levels are down.
I don't have the energy it takes to fall in love every time I put the shit down.
You'll be fine soon bro. Put your energy into your classes, lay off the drugs, and keep hitting the gym. Just be cognizant that you are fragile and don't forget to breathe.
understood. thanks bro.
Xanax also can cause temporary depression, so I would drop it quick. I also agree with j223. How you do in school will affect the rest of your life, so change the things you need to change to get back to feeling and doing good.
thanks man. ill try my best. i cant think of any reason ill go out partying the rest of the semester unless im sober. almost got an open intox over the weekend too.... i have never struggled refusing drinks from people, and ill keep that up.
xanex fucks with your memory which could be why your grades are slipping. I'd take it easy on the bars
im sure it does. luckily, i can count on a single hand how many times i have drank on it. unfortunately, 3 of those times were in a single weekend.
You will be ok bro. PCT is always the shitty part. Stay focused, we always feel better on cycle, but this is when we really have to buckle down and push that extra mile. I had the same prob last PCT all of a sudden started having deep feelings for this girl ( I even consulted with one of our EROIDS brothers about it) normally it would be a different girl each week. I thought my estro was out of whack and almost cut the girl off till I was done with PCT but after my talk with one of our brothers I didn't, now she is my wife and the girl is amazing she does my pinning for me, prepares all my food and damnit she even does all the laundry lol. Like I said bro stay focused. Shit hit the girl up, mine sure as hell helped me lose the PCT blues real quick lol. Hit me up brother if ya need anything.
Thanks for sharing man. This girl that I met is so amazing words can't describe. She is beautiful smart and so much fun. And is going to be a pharmacist in a little over a year. I'm texting her but my confidence is so low I feel like I can't make a move.
Your confidence is low? BIIIIIITCH GO FLEX IN A MIRROR AND TELL HER SHE WANTS DINNER
some people can pull off being the "asshole" and treating women however they want. i cant man. not even on gear... i dont have too much trouble getting digits. its hard for me to get past texting with most girls.
I was joking lol.. I just meant there's no need to not feel confident because your jacked.. I didnt mean be an asshole Lmao
i get it.. but being an asshole is how most guys im around are able to get it with no problem. its like they can control any girl they are around.
Ah you want to learn the art form of the asshole.. Well you don't really have to be an asshole.. more of a smart ass that makes them laugh.. and if you're not confident you fake it like a fucking boss.. You can say almost anything to a woman and as long as it's making them laugh they'll usually go along with it.. don't ask me why it just works every single time.. Literally I was bored at the docs office today cracking dirty jokes being a smart ass and I had three of them hanging around me the entire visit.. But hey I know how a crush is and it's hard to act that way.. If I actually have feelings for a girl I seem way too formal and respectful which prlly comes off as boring to them.. find a happy middle and your straight
BigBmajA crush will fuck with any man's skill set.
Yup and if your confidence wasn't so great that day it really kills it lmao
The nice guy approach has always worked for me bro
Good shit bro +1
Yea, I used to do the .25mg and have two beers, you have to watch it because during pct and after Xanax it will spike a depressed mood. Get back in the gym and take it easy, you don't want to loose any gains. Godspeed
Thanks man. I haven't had a problem getting to the gym. Ill keep pushing, even tho I feel pretty low right now.