I agree, we need to go back.

The main thing is to look for positive things and concentrate on them.

Well said Auto - couldn't have put it better. There is A LOT to be said about being your own person in Life, being your OWN boss of your spare time and living your own life. Not being told how you are going to spend your weekend off and being constantly f**king nagged about things you aren't doing LOL Sure relationships never start out that way, they are always fun and uplifting for the first year generally but jesus once that bitch sinks her teeth into ya and they know you love them christ life can change. I live by myself too and am very use to it now, at first don't get me wrong I found it quite lonely coming out of a long relationship but it was only then when I realised how unhappy I had become & then took up the one thing in life that had always made me the happiest - Training!! Never looked back now, I've had a few flings since but as usual once the nagging came and being told what to do - the last one tried to tell me I shouldn't be drinking protein shakes and should be drinking Green Tea LMFAO she was instantly dumped and I never contacted her again. AA meetings can be a funny place mate, even though everyone is supposed to be positive and all there for each other I started seeing resentment off others towards myself because they all thought I would relapse going at it alone without a sponsor, all the rest of them did who took up a sponsor - I always told them I was so determined to stay sober I didn't need to meet up with someone twice a week to tell me why I shouldn't drink, I knew what I so desperately wanted and nothing was going to break my willpower. Now 8.5 years down the line I am still as committed as ever. Glad to see you well Buddy