Hi,

Back in the day I'd pop a methyltest (1000 tabs by Global for about $75) and go on my date, go to work, do whatever with a nice attitude and plenty of alertness.

Now, it just makes me a moody bastard.

Steroids fall short here. I tried the various preworkout drinks with 1,3 DMAA and others and they work great, but then they do not work at all. This led me to Focus XT and blah blah blah.... finally I grabble ed some Adderall and boom - this gets me through work and training and let me be effective,.

In the process of working with Doctors (way too many) to figure out how to treat narcolepsy and sleep apnea (I am 5'9" and 245-325 pounds depending on diet and training, etc).

There are overseas sources where I could just get what I am looking for but I find too much anxiety there.

Anyone stumble into any products that work for them? I have tried almost everything, but cannot find the relevant research chemicals anymore. Things like 2-FA and similar would be great but those vendors are sketchy and I have been out of the game for ahwile. Been on HRT for a few years and using gear for almost 20 years but I had a period of time where I was removed from things and took my lumps for the community.

If anyone can help or offer guidance (I am not here soliciting sources and know better than to ask outright).

Thanks much. I appreciate it. At this point I am sleeping through life and 3 scoops of Hyde just annoys me. Provigil from my Doc seems to be something but by the end of the day I am still essentially beat to shit. Need a little help.

I am as legit as they get and can prove it should I need to. I do not post here because - if I am to be honest - crazy things like boldenone enanthate and new esters attached to familiar friends just seem to make matters confused and it has become a bit of an academic scene. The UGL scene turns me off. I am sorry if that offends. I dont mean to offend. I have had friends die because of dirty gear and cant stand Llewelen posting pictures of UG stuff in the "real" section of his books. It is purely a personal thing and I dont posit them as universal or assume I am right while others are wrong. IIt is a bit of a turn off but I also realize I am a bit of an old timer and just not one of the cool kids anymore.

I think we are looking at some adrenal fatigue here and while it is not an accepted medical diagnosis, it has at least been identified as a collection of symptoms.

Before you recommend, please, taking time off is just not going to happen. Why lie to anyone? I will die younger than average but I have been blessed and just want to be as effective as possible from here on out. I'll make it to 55 or 60 and crap out having beaten the piss out of my baby girls suitors... and what else am I here for but to protect my girls?

Oh, and to be swole also

Thanks all.

T