As I was responding to another younger member on the forum I was mysteriously taken back to the early days of my use. I mean like the very first time that cold, sharp pin poked my virgin skin- didnt hurt a bit.
Funny now looking back on it.
I was set up from a very early age to use AAS. 10 years prior to my first use, I contracted hepatitus A from my school. I missed like 3 months of school. Each week for MANY weeks, I had to go to my doc and have blood drawn. So- that was where I acquired a smooth tolerance for sticking needles in me.
In high school, I was 5'10 and wrestled 115 my sophemore year. I may have gotten to 140 by end of high school. I ran like the wind (5 min mile)
FAST FORWARD-10 years later-
Who could ever forget those first days when your body really changed before your eyes.
For me, there was one pivotal day that I will never forget.
I couldnt help to think of this day as I wrote to a younger member earlier.
Im a tad older now than those days-lol (40),but boy do I remember..........zzz...zzzz
One day on a long jog, I stopped over a buddies house who used her all the time.
She was beautiful- in fact, she was a total of 6! Spread all out on his table were 6 sust preloads. I commented to my buddie that they didnt really work buy said what the heck. Now- remember- I NEVER went to his house to meet her- it just happended that I did, and I it could of just a easy happened that I didnt.
At this time, I was a shrimp! no muscularity, no nothing. 5'10 190 with a bird chest and belly- can you imagine? lol (I mean I have video of me from july 4th 95 and july 4th 96 and it would be impossible to even suggest it was the same person.)
But I was standing there with these 6 sexy boxes of mexican beauties.
Ate only 3 meals a day at best (all shit) but I grew. The funny thing is after 3-4 weeks if sust 250, I actually lost weight went all the way to 177ish. But I do remember very very clearly going into the bathroom in the gym to get some water and taking a very quick look in the mirror. The quick look became a GAZE and nearly started to cry with a very gratifying emotion because In the mirror I saw such a difference you would NOT beleive! Even though I was still only doing 50lb incline dumpbells (and they were fucking HEAVY man!) coming from the shitbag body I had up to then was nothing short of miraculous.
Needless to say, I WAS hooked- so hooked I went back to my buddies house a month later and tried to buy his last 3 Sten amps. He wouldnt sellem so I forced him to by giving him $50 per. - No kidding.
It was only THEN that I began to STUDY STUDY what I was about to embark on. This was Pre-internet sites like this. (95-9697)
I then loaded up on all kinds of gear. Lifted like a freek and ate like a blue whale. Never ate good, but I ate alot.
Went from 177 to 212 in the period from mid winter to end summer. I have been with her on an off for 15 years now- and always come back to her in the end-
I am one that actually lost some weight when I found her for the first time.
Im a little older now, lil smarter and want to do it right by taking in some of the elders on this site Words of wisdom. Dont need to re-invent the wheel. These guys already did that.

Im 40 and will be on maintenance TRT for as long as I can still see the needle go into the bottle. All because I was either in to big of a fucking hurry or some jackass bought fake shit and crashed his body.

Now- tomorrow Im gonna hold up a cardboard sign on side of Road - it will read:
"WIll Work For Karma"
Can someone throw me a freagin bone!! lmao--