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Its been a while :-)

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Been away from the site for a while, i had a bad 2019 because of depression and axiety. Two suicide attempts, was in a coma for a few days and couldn't walk for 2 weeks. Been abusing benzos and alcohol trying to self medicate and that didn't end well.

Lost loads of weight and muscle, havnt drank now since December and stopped the benzos and ive been back in the gym for a few weeks now and im feeling much better.

Glad to be feeling normal again, havnt felt normal in so long i forgot what it felt like. Doing counselling now and its helped alot.

Just thought id share

giardap's picture

In James'?

Hope you are doing well now

IrishWOLFhound's picture

No in the West, maroon and white are the county colours Smile

Not doing too bad thanks, had 2 drinks a few weeks ago for a mates birthday, if I had 2 before I'd have to have 10 lol

giardap's picture

Beautiful country, the bay is unreal in the summer.
Glad you weren't in James'. Its disgusting.

Well done, Corona hasn't done me any favours with the gargle!

IrishWOLFhound's picture

Yeah it's beautiful mate, live right beside the sea in the middle of nowhere, a bit too quiet.

Corona hasn't done me any favours with the gargle!

True, nearest pub/off license to me sells cans of Heineken for 3euro so I couldn't afford to drink during lockdwn lol

This place is a shit hole too, no to long ago they had an inspection and they were restraining people to beds for no reason and putting them in the isolation room for no reason. They put me in isolation for 2 days because I asked to go to get phone credit and I argued with them.ights are on for 2 hours a day and gave me sedatives but I didn't take them

Zalewski's picture

Glad to have you back my man. My brother is going through something like this right now so I know how hard it can be on an individual, continue staying strong.

IrishWOLFhound's picture

Thanks mate, for the person going through it your out of it most of the time so you don't know what's happening, but it's the family that suffers most at the end of the day

felony's picture

Lot's of us have been through it bro. Glad you got yourself squared away. Remember the only thing you have to do is never give up.

IrishWOLFhound's picture

Thanks mate

TheFlash85's picture

I went through the exact same thing mate.

Pain killer and benzo abuse aswell as drinking.

Went from a beast to a skeleton then back up.

Took me 4 proper attempts to beat it.

Im clean now but that devil is always there saying just do it, just pop those pills and it is hard.

A good misses and a good dr is what is needed.

I see my dr once a week just to check in.

You can do it mate.

Im also certified mentally insane, im stable as ive ever been now coming off everything and unfortunatly that meant steroids aswell for an amount of time..... the longer the better.

Good luck..

IrishWOLFhound's picture

Yeah on bad days you think oh I might just take 1 pill and I might feel better but it won't be 1 pill.
Glad your doing better, the doctors here a useless, was in a mental health unit aka lunatic asylum :-) for a week and I only saw a doctor once, not enough staff to deal with everyone.

Thanks for sharing your experience, gives me hope

sunamcaxa's picture

hey man stay strong

I have heard benzos comedown is horrible, crazy shit

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IrishWOLFhound's picture

Yeah it's pretty bad, no sleep for 2 weeks or more. Hallucinations, anxiety, depression. Been through it many times now

Cody831's picture

Good job keep it up you got this!

Sam I Am's picture

You picked a heck of a time to get normal bro.
Glad your back.
The only thing that matters is the present and the future....

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IrishWOLFhound's picture

I'll be the first too admit the timing wasn't the best haha

Bill1976's picture

They gym will help. Especially when you start seeing results. I wish the best for you.

IrishWOLFhound's picture

Thanks

fusebox's picture

Welcome back. Don't let this shit slow you down. Keep fighting the good fight brother. We got you

IrishWOLFhound's picture

Thanks

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