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What I previously thought could never possibly happen in my Lifetime has finally arrived, It's My 10 Year Sobriety Birthday!!! Smile

Feels like its been so long now that I can't actually remember how it feels to have a drink - there hasn't been a single day when I've missed any part of it either.

More importantly though, I pray for all those still suffering and that haven't yet found the courage to stop & seek whatever help they think is right for them. Living in the clutches of Alcohol or drugs is simply not living, its merely existing and I'm not sure if you can even class it as that at times. Its never too late to start over and begin to Live your life because we only get one of them - Blink and you've just watched another decade roll by that you will never get back.

I Hope everyone has had a Great Weekend in the Lovely weather Yes 3

TrestNBleev's picture

Daaaaaaaamn! A cold ten-piece?! Crazy how hard it feels to quit when it’s happening compared to how fast time goes when you’ve got the momentum. Good for you bro.

press1's picture

Never a truer word spoken my friend Good I look back now and think what the hell was I so scared of, what was I fearing would happen if I went cold turkey, why did it take so many years and so many fuck ups to get to that point??! Its impossible now to try to imagine the state of mind that we were in at that moment in our lives though, the illness dominated us and drove us as if we were just a pilot watching ourselves destroy our own body and mind. Fear is ultimately what ruled us everyday in so many ways - thats why it was so hard to stop. Seriously mate - I wish I could of got hold of that stupid kid by the throat and said to my 21 year old self 'what the fuck are you doing, you are wasting your life with all this shit when you could be prioritising your health and putting it into something productive and rewarding, something that will be much harder to do when you are in your 40's so make the most of these years now - Don't piss it all away'. I wish someone locked me in a room and didn't let me out until I got it out of my system and told me they'd come find me and chop my legs off if I ever picked up another drink!!! LMAO Seriously ....

TrestNBleev's picture

I lost 20 good years on this very quandary. Sometimes bro, between you and a few others recently, I feel like I’m reading my own thoughts. Of course I’m saddened that you went through all this but what a relief to know that we’re all out here doing this together. I appreciate the brutal transparency in your stories.

press1's picture

Cheers buddy - how long have you been sober?

I have loads of stories mate, do you wanna hear the one about @Drexyl and the one legged tranny?

TrestNBleev's picture

To the first question - five years, four months. This does not make me any better than the next man, but I kicked heroin the hard way. No detox drug tapers.

To the second question - I was holding the camera so it's really a story I can't forget but if I'm being honest, I do enjoy enjoy hearing someone else tell it. I thought you'd never ask.

Drexyl's picture

The stump was below the knee, so technically she had a leg and a half.

press1's picture

Made the Sex swing way more fun though right - more accessible. Hey if you grabbed hold of the full leg you could of swung her round the room in circles!! Like Jack did with Rose in the Titanic Biggrin

TrestNBleev's picture

There are a lot of Titanic references in this crowd... would I be doxing @press1 if I called him out for being Leonardo DiCaprio? Because I'm pretty sure it's him.

Wait, was Rose a 1.5 legged tranny and there was a sex swing fetish penetration scene in the director's cut that I missed? I guess it has been a while since I've seen that movie...

Drexyl's picture

It’s in the UK directors cut version, he’ll send you a copy. And I’m pretty sure he’s Jason Statham’s brother.

TrestNBleev's picture

The UK has always been more liberal with their sexual expression. Damn these Puritan roots!
Jeremy Statham? I just googled it and he is biting down on a pair of brass knuckles. Matches up with the avi. Doxed.

Drexyl's picture

Ha! That’s him! All jokes aside, been talking to Press now for years, he’s absolutely as solid as they come. A little gay, but it’s 2024, we’re ok with that now.

TrestNBleev's picture

Been nothing but cool to me. First person to welcome me, actually. Besides, anyone who can take a joke is a real one.

Drexyl's picture

Don’t send him the cock pics he asks for, he’s like a cat, if you give him the bowl of milk once he’s going to keep asking for more… I learned the hard way.

press1's picture

Problem with you is I never asked for the Cock pics - you just keep fuckin sending me them!!! Lol

How many times I gotta keep tellin ya we like uncircumcised weener over here!

TrestNBleev's picture

LMFAO damn that's cold

TrestNBleev's picture

I really wish you would have told me that a couple days ago. I thought I was just just paying my dues. He told me it was standard for all new users if I ever wanted to see more than 3 karma points. Now I have 37 messages in my inbox and someone is knocking at my front door.

press1's picture

EXACTLY - I just given you several points so now its time to pay up M'Fcker!!! I want Starfish too!

TrestNBleev's picture

LOL fuck I knew you would see this thread eventually and I'd have to pay the piper. When do you sleep?! Do those pics from the back count as dick pics AND starfish or do I have to send them separately? EDIT- sidebar, since this is technically a post about sobriety, does anyone every remember laughing this hard when we were strung out? I don't. I just remember being angry all the time. This group right here is some of the best medicine for staying sober.

press1's picture

The difference is in addiction you thought you were having a good time, but in reality it was just all a load of fake bullshit that somehow translated into 'fun' - that was generally part of the first hour of drinking. Then it just became morose anger and a sense of numbness as the night wore on that 90% of the time resulted in arguments and falling out with people over absolutely nothing. Then waking up several hours later in a state of depression and anxiety, needing the next drink to get rid of it all lol

TrestNBleev's picture

And the cycle repeats itself. What a waste. But here we are eh? Better late than never.

Drexyl's picture

See? Now you’re opening your mind up to new possibilities lol

Foxhound5150's picture

Bravo Zulu brother..... 10 years living above your demons, I'll give thanks to God tonight in my prayer. --

AUTO51's picture

CONGRATULATIONS~! The Best is yet to come J~! You put one day at a time in action every day, not using every day for 3657 days now. You are an inspiration here, and I suspect everyone in your life today. Clearly, you are loving and caring source of experience, strength, and Hope. I am so proud to be your friend. So grateful for all the support, kind expressions, and communications with you. You have been a big help, my most helpful friend here.

press1's picture

Absolutely All The Time in the World for you Buddy & I always have done if EVER you need me Auto Yes 3

Izzy75's picture

Congrats on your achievement press. Celebrate with a few but nice cheat meals, eat some cake, Ice-cream and down it with a protein shake you deserve it. Maybe some fish and chips... I think I'm hungry.

press1's picture

Bro everyday is a Celebration day for me - I eat that shit each day LMAO!!! Not the Fish & Chips though, they are too expensive here now at £10 per go. McDonalds is still just in budget if you get McDouble Cheeseburger and fries LOL

Izzy75's picture

I want to try the BK stacker. You can have up to 4 burger patties with bacon and cheese. It's gotta be like 2,500 cals if you get it with fries, probably more. That with an Oreo sunday naturally, even if it means hitting the shitter before leaving the joint. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

press1's picture

A lot of the Burger Kings over here have shut down now, just were never quite as popular as McDonalds even though the burgers are much better. A lot of Subways have shut too, pretty much its McDonalds and KFC that call the shots nowadays. KFC is crap now too - the chicken fillet burgers are purely coating with a thin few mm's of chicken in there somewhere!! Lmao

Thats one of the great things about the States, on every block there are multiple fast food restaurants and there is variety too - everything you could ever want. Here you literally have to drive to a town and go looking for the places, over there its shoved at you!!! LOL

Izzy75's picture

Let me tell you. In less than a 10 minute drive I have:
2 Wendy's Burgers
2 McDonald's
1 Churches Chicken
1 Burger King
2 Subways
1 Taco Maker
4 Chinese restaurants
2 Papa John's
1 Little Caesar
1 Firehouse Subs
1 Chili's Restaurant
1 Sizzler Restaurant
1 Applebee's Restaurant
... and multiple local joints.
It's a miracle that I'm not 300 pounds of blubber.

press1's picture

That sounds Wicked!!! LMAO

What's Churches Chicken all about?

Izzy75's picture

Sort of like KFC but way better. Their breading is awesome, very crispy and crunchy. They also have a biscuit, which is not what the UK call biscuits. It's kind of a bread and they put a honey and butter glaze over it. You can have it with ice cream too, just delicious.

DolphinBalls76's picture

That is so awesome brother!!! I hope to get there someday.
I keep failing myself lately. I just have never been able to get there. I’m kind of like @Drexyl from what I read on the last post. I make it a long time and then I falter. Except when I falter I go back to once a week drinking. Most the time it’s no big deal other than my once a week drinking consists of about 18 hours of bourbon and music. And sometimes I say things that anger people and I lose friends. But the worst is after that long binge I feel like crap for 2-3 days. Which takes away from my kids whom I live for….
Ugh. Maybe I should finally try AA. I’m obviously too weak to win this on my own. :(

Drexyl's picture

Yeah man, definitely similar habits. I’m not the biggest fan of AA, it works for many, but not me. Some of it yes, great values, maybe just pick from that and keep what you need. I’m not the guy I once was, but I still have slips. And as long as I’m conscious of it, I just move on and don’t keep it going. Is what it is. As long as you recognize there’s issues with it, you’ll figure out the rest my bro.

press1's picture

What you have to look at mate, is each time you are drinking and then feeling rough for several days after, you are losing a tonne of muscle each time. Your protein synthesis level bottoms out, you are dehydrated and your organs are temporarily suffering, you can't eat as much etc. Is it really worse losing muscle just over a few hours of being pissed??!! AA won't help you unless you really want to quit for yourself, it won't make you stop. It will help you for sure if you need a strong support network around you as you deal with staying away from drink for the first several years and possibly encounter urges that tempt you. I dunno man - I reached the Depths of HELL mentally and physically in my drinking journey especially at the end and there is just no way I would ever want to return there again. Drink has to mean returning to that place for you in your own mind which if it was bad enough for you, you will never want to revisit for anything imo.

BootyGear's picture

Congrats brother , 2.5 years my self

press1's picture

Well Done Mate - Those are the Best years, the early years of sobriety. I use to count it down in 6 month blocks each time till the next one - and if anyone dared to forget the big event they would live to regret it LMAO Lol

CHIMAIRA75's picture

Congratulations brother! That's not a mild feat! I know as I've been there myself. Always stay vigilant though! Doesn't matter what threshold of time we cross, we are still as vulnerable as the newcomer. I'm proud of you brother! I know it feels good. I'm working my way back up myself right now. Respect brother man! Sending love from this side of the pond.

press1's picture

MANY THANKS BUDDY!!! Kiss 3

Gsxr1000spanker's picture

Love this mate. Made some changes of my own last week (finally). Just had enough of just scraping by every week. Like you said, it’s not living, it’s just existing between chemically induced hits.
The worst part is not being able to trust yourself. But I can feel the confidence in myself growing daily.
Gym, running and sauna are a big part of my recovery. It keeps my mind strong which in turn, helps me make healthy choices. Just making health choices every day. I just want to be able to trust myself again. I let something get the better of me and that pisses me off. That anger is then used in my workouts. I’ve never worked so hard. I’m rocking up to work on a Monday feeling good for once. Not depleted and just getting through.
Good for you man

press1's picture

Good for you buddy - Good for you!!! If it weren't for me getting back into lifting again and the rush and enjoyment I get from that, together with the discipline it teaches which you must ultimately adhere to, then there is no way I would of remained sober. After a few days of sobriety I would of just become bored and irritable looking for a form of escapism again, and what I once thought was 'fun'.

I try to explain to people looking to quit asking for my advice on how I remained headstrong and never gave in to temptation again, and I always say that you must have a passion, hobby or person that no matter what you will never let down and give up on. You have to be solely dedicated and obsessed with that one thing and if you were to start drinking again the consequences would be to lose it more or less instantly. There has to be so much of a deterrent in your mind that failing is simply not an option you would ever want to imagine waking up to. Anyone can achieve it, you just have to want it badly enough for yourself Good Smile

Drexyl's picture

Good for you bro! Congratulations and good for you for putting the effort in!

Gettinit's picture

Hey Press1 congratulations and miracles happen and are happing this is crazy brother I just picked up 5 years today brother love you man no homo! Ya know what I'm saying LFG!!!!!

press1's picture

No way matey!!! Many Congratulations to you too pal - I seem to remember 5 years was a LOT more fun than 10 LOL At 10 it just feels like an eternity and you can no longer associate with that previous life its so long gone.

CouricMass's picture

Congrats dude!

I know some people don’t have a problem with it but it amazes me that it’s legal sometimes considering how terrible it is for the body.

press1's picture

Cheers buddy, there is simply too much money for the Government to miss out on not to be able to earn Tax from it. Same as cigarettes.

CouricMass's picture

Seriously, Tobacco and nicotine in general is terrible for your cardiovascular system. It amazes me that people enjoy it cause it almost does nothing for you as an addict of them.

Edit: But not to get off topic. CONGRATS MAN!!!