+ 1 Shutting down shop
Hey bros I've hit a brick wall and I've decided to come off of everything for a cruise. My body and mind can not take the pressure anymore and this blast that I was on was too long and too hard on me. I am canceling my next show the 2nd of June which is a pre qualifier for the Mr. Universe and will sit it out. I woke up this morning feeling like shit like in a state of panic and I can't take anymore.
WELL DAMN IT GUYS, WE'RE BACK IN THE GAME WITH A NEW AIR OF MOTIVATION. HAD A MOMENT AND I'M OVER IT NOW AND I GOT MY EYES ON THE GOAL. CURRENT BODY WEIGHT IS 114 KILOS AND THE WATER IS COMING OFF AS PLANNED. I WANT TO THANK ALL THE BROS THAT GAVE ME SOUND WORDS OF WISDOM WHICH HELPED ME KEEP A LEVELED HEAD AND THE FIRE STILL ABLAZE. WILL BE POSTING PICS SOON OF THE WEEKLY PROGRESS.,
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Same here. Brother push it your only a few weeks away from showing off so much work. I have felt the same way this week and really have to push to get things going. Training everyday, eating right everyday, running the cycle at the correct times. Wow that is work you and so many others already know this. Phil you are looking great year after year. Sometimes we all hit the wall and say no more. But this last for a couple of days then boom we are back. You are a inspiration so kick ass and stop bitchin? LOL your friend as always..
phil113kgAye aye capitain!!!
There was a point in my life that I said the same thing. Guys just don't know how hard it is. Yes I miss it but now I have a family and its more important to me now. The days of taking every ounce of water out of my body are done for now. I met a lot of wonderful people which I still stay in contact with today. However one day waken up feeling like shit is what you do ! How many time have you pushed your self in the gym telling your self you "can't take it any more" !! Your three weeks away from something that may change your life forever !! Think about this !! There is only one thing you can't do !! Your friend Polishmob6
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Tren can really fuck with your mind. Sacrifice is something you do in bodybuilding but Phil you have come a long way and have.been in a constant state of depletion cutting prepping for.some time now . You have a long career in front of you bro. But if you are worried.about your health or relationships or mental health maybe sit this one out cruise some test and gh get your.mind right your personal life where it needs to be so that you can really focus on what's important . I think family your.career and health come before bodybuilding . I wish you all the luck I know you will be amazing in the future whether its June 2 or June 2014 yiu got what it takes to be elite
"Many times I hear competitive BB say that nothing comes without sacrifice and now you know what that means. Pushing the envelope can sometimes put you in the grey area. So think long and hard about everything and weigh everything in the balance. You knew that you were going to take some sort of risk when you pinned that first needle. So sometimes you have to let your balls hang." -Phil113kg. You 21 days short of a dream. Take a couple of days and let your mind unwind and get back at it, you are too fucking close to drop now!
phil113kgYou hit right on the head Level. I'm going to let them hang and not get all caught up in the small stuff. It's just damn you know, felt like scared and in the dark for several minutes upon waking. "Sacrifice" bro thanks for the tough words and I needed that. I came this far not to get spooked by some wild thought.
bring it back to the light...you got this! good showing in a few weeks then you got a nice long rest till your next one
Hey Phil, Looking through this post I think you just need time to think. Tren can fuck with your head sometimes, make dreams seem real. Take some time, talk to your coach. The biggest thing is your thoughts they will control everything. Personally I've learned to just look at those thoughts and realize and tell myself it's the Tren and it calms me down (sometimes). Good Luck!
phil113kgI had some time to reflect while at work today. I'm okay now and am back on track. Thanks so much for giving me what I needed.
Damn Phil! I hope your ok buddy! Your health must always come first no matter what so know your making the right decision and the stage will not be going anywhere. Hang in there and get your feet leveled. And plan your next attack!
phil113kgMan talk about mood swings!! I'm sitting here contemplating on finishing out my prep. Did I have a moment of weakness that drove me to this point of just wanting to quit? Shit bro, I know I can pull this off but this morning was too hard to handle. I hate the feeling of an all out panic attack. I'm at a cross road and I don't want to loose everything over a silly moment of weakness.
Just hang in there buddy. You know your body best. But this is the mr.universe qualifier and is most people's dreams!!
AnonUltimate respect Phil. We all support u brother. Take care of yourself and my best wishes for u brother. If u ever need anything you just name it and its urs.
phil113kgThanks man. I think it's all the tren that I was using for so long. I've read how it could play havoc on the mind and I came to that point. I can't even think about preparing for another show. But the funny thing is what do I do now? I'm a TRT guy and I'm toying with the thought of staying on slin, Gh, and a low mg test.
AnonFor sure stay on the test and HGH. The slin that's your call. Not really my expertise. But keeping the HPTA in balance will be huge for a healthier mental state. So definitely cruise the test along with the HGH.