First off... you NEED to realize this for yourself: if a guy will put his hands on you once (no matter what the reason or circumstances), he absolutely WILL do it again, without a doubt, believe it or not, it's going to happen at some point.

Number two, roids alone will not cause this, nor should they be the scapegoat for his unreasonable behavior. There is def more happening here guaranteed.

Prescript pain medications will make users extremely aggitated, short fused, and unreasonably violent (believe me, I know this for fact). Combined w/ high test would make for a miserable d-bag of a boyfriend.

As others have said... you really need to wake up to reality and get out of that relationship. If you don't, it will end in one of 2 ways: 1: you will get your ass kicked severely to the point of needing funeral arraingments. Or 2: you will get your ass kicked not quite as severely and he'll go to jail for a day or 2 then get out and do it again and again until #1 happens.

I don't mean to offend, but I find it extremely funny that he broke open and poured out all the bottles of test. He honestly sounds unstable, and more than likely has backup supplies, so that was just a bs act. Not to mention the rage he's going to have from going cold turkey on the test if he really did pour it all out!

All signs here point to bad bad bad and more bad. I'd move out tonight if I were you and had any sort of brains (again, not trying to be mean... it's just frustrating that women put themselves in these positions and then act as victims when the shit goes down).

It could be zanex they dont treat me we in general complete asswhole lol but when i was on cycle i took sum and it amplified 10 fold i hope everything works out for u

Now for me to vent some anger after reading this.. Get the FUCK away from him?! You have to be a fucking numbskull to stay with someone on gear if they are violent. I myself am NEVER violent, hell I think I'm more relaxed while on. I'm happy all the time and nothing makes me mad.

If he's like that, it's a mental placebo and he's trying to show that he's becoming
better. FUCK THAT back off and show him how "better" he's becoming, losing his fiance and everything in his life. See how he ends up with that? I've lost EVERYTHING literally and I'm here and strong, looking up and definitely not losing my cool (except for this).

You've got to be fucking kidding me. If I saw a piece of shit hit a woman, I'd do anything in my power to at least redirect that person into hitting me. Not saying I could kick somebody's ass, but I would at least distract it towards my ass getting kicked rather than a woman's.

What the fuck is wrong with people? Can't handle it mentally? Get on some fucking medicine, that's what you need, not gear.

Edit: Oh if you think that he's not that guy, then you're completely senseless. People change, look around. People change big time. It can be in the flip of a switch as experienced first hand. Follow the news? What about college graduates that go and kill 25 people? Oh but he wouldn't do that he was so good in college! It must've been drugs. Just fuck that, drugs?! No, he just doesn't care anymore and has mental issues.

An ex girlfriend of mine said the same thing of a friend of hers, "oh that's not like him, he's so sweet, he must have been sick"... seriously she said this after he slaughtered his family and was killed by the police after they witnessed him saw his 5 year old's head off and charged after the 9 year old slashing away.

Oh shit, reality check! No offense I'm trying to help, by you sound like any woman on jerry springer, "yeah he beats me but I love him".

Get out of the house asap, tell him to get better then you'll go back.

Oh you can't do that? Then don't ask for advice, he's gonna kill you. I've dealt with enough domestic violence situations to know that's how this will end if you don't listen and act immediately. Unless you're a troll, then get a fuckin life.

Give him something to lose. Tell him if he doesn't stop your taking the kids and leaving and tell him how hes turning into a diff vicious person. Then take the kids and go to a friends house like fast said. I'm sorry for your circumstances but you have to take control because he has no more control any more from the sound of it. You said it yourself you can't fight back physically so fight back emotionally

Is the compounds he is doing now different then in the past? If he never even yelled at you before and is now hitting you(which in my book you NEVER EVER put your hands on a woman) the answer is obvious, he can not handle what ever compounds he is doing. Do you know what they are? The reason the rule is 1 compound at a time isn't just for physical responses to the drug but also mental. Some people fly into rages on certain compounds. I know mine and I stay clear of them.

damnit girl it only takes one really severe incident and either you or even worse one of the children is effected in a permanent physical way. I for one couldnt live with myself if I didnt take drastic action before something happened thus fostering the act. As was said before some can handle it and some cant. If he cant handle his dope he needs to quit. Good luck. And if you are a troll damn you!!!

No one has even thought of this as a possible troll?

To hear this breaks my heart for you and your children i am one of those lucky ppl who has never had anger issues while on aas but it sounds like you might even want to be careful about how you confront him if hes this out of control i personally feel you and your children are constantly in danger when youre around him do you have any friends who might b willing to intervene on your behalf and try to make him understand what hes doing to himself and his family? Ive known a lot of gear heads and this is the most extreme behavior ive ever heard which leads me to believe there may be substance abuse issues outside of aas please be so careful and keep us posted

You have kids and don't have the luxury of making a choice the choice was made for you the first time he put his hands on you. Get out and do it now! When you became a parent you decide to bring a person in the world and make them more important than yourself or anyone else.

Give him an altamatem(prolly spelt wrong) take the kids and yourself to a friend or family members without notice and tell him lose the family or lose the gear. And have him present bloods of his sobriety then go from there. It sucks but getn beat sucks worse and when a child grows up thinking its ok to beat women that's even worse.if you have a son or even a daughter she will think that is ok so when it happens to her she won't do anything about it. Just my 2 cents.

The biggest thing I hear you saying is this is not like him and he is not eating much. I tried this before to try to cut a litlle fat with not much training and aas to guard against muscle wasting. I had to stop a month into because I realized things that would not bother me were driving me crazy to the point of severe depression. Try talking to him when he is lucid and suggesting to him to change his eating habits. I can almost guarantee that lack of nutrition is affecting him the most. Good luck though, it doesn't sound very promising.

Just an after thaught here, but is there history of methamphetamine abuse?

Big tex is not so BIG if he beats women up... i hate women beaters with a vengence and i feel for you in a big way... no more words sorry!

Remedy......stop all the drugs and pct. If you're getting bashed stay at friends til he's str8.

stop the cycle....is he on tren?