NPP - Paranoix Anxiety
So not sure Im going to make it through my NPP cycle. 4 weeks in and I like it however the paranoia and anxiety is getting to me. Can't sleep at night. Get insane thoughts in my head and just can't get rid of them and I consider myself to be a pretty mentally strong person. I just can't kick it out. My wife really hasn't done anything.
Prob didn't help the DAY i started NPP my wife goes out with my step daughter and she is suppose to be out for 2-3 hours and 6 hours later she isn't found, I find her car abanded at 3am in the morning at the restaraunt she was suppose to be at, I put a police missing persons out cause i haven't heard form her or my step daughter, ends up drunk in another county, took an Uber45 min away, hanging out with her daughter and her boyfriend and friends, didn't text me at all to say where she was. Was a fun night let me tell you. Totally unlike her but that was a seed planted I suppose for the dark side of 19-nors.
Then she went out again teh next weekend ofcourse the paranoia starts kicking in was suppose to be out a coupel hours and she was running late. She was with my step sons wife. Didn't matter. In my head she was doing something sketchy.
Then went out again the 3rd weekend and the paranoia is really kicking in. Like why you like them more then me and our family. (given I know its her daughter she is with and her boyfriend and his friends) Im like your fucking those other guys out there. Im like thats the only reason you woudl want to hang out with 25 year olds at a bar restaraunt. When in reality she just wants to hang out with her daughter. Redonk thoughts normally but seem so real and possible.
Then the thoughts about her instagram start and she is banging everyone on there showing off her goodies to everyone (atleast in my head) Sure the guy that messaged her lives in England but doesn't matter to me. I know she has a plane ticket ready for him and banging him when he gets off the plane in the bathroom when she really says she is at work. Gotta be. Seems real and plausable.
Then its been like 15 years since she had breast implants. She is liek i need to get my breasts redone. Im like yea so you can show em off to all the boys on instagram. The dudes with fast cars and big cocks. I know it. I know it>
So yea the jealousy, paranoia, etc is really getting to me. nOrmally I don't care if she goes out. I have no issue with it. I do like to go out sometimes with her but usually stuck with kids at home.
My options:
1. Trying to get through another 4 weeks of NPP for an 8 week cycle,
2. Dropping the NPP to very low dose for Joint releif (which I do like) or
3. Completly dropping it all together and just running a straight Sust Cycle for the remaining 8 weeks.
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ACtually have grandma watching the kids and dog tonight. And we are going out together with the same group she was out with. I just would liek to meet the new boyfriend and his friends. Also have her friends and a couple of mine coming out too. So all should be good unless some 25yr old grabs her ass.
Dont blame the npp. Shes playing games
She be home in bed with you. And you should be out with her…. My wife wants to bring me everywhere i basically have to say please go out with your friends by yourself sometimes…. Looks like games to me bro ive been there done that shit
Next week would be 4 th week her going out. Before she says anything id say babe im going out next week you should make some plans. If she questions you thats good. If she says okay great then shes aliready gone
We have kids so its hard. I dont liek people so most often I don't want to go out with others but I do liek our friends and her friends. I let her go and I watch the kids. she is fine staying home and letting me go out with the guys when I cane which is rare mainly because my guy friends have kids and are always busy. And finding a babysitter that is responsible and able to take care of our kids and elderly dog that pee's and shyts over the house is hard to come by
Really I know she is doing nothing. She is either out with her 3 best friends from work who I talk to or she is out with her daughter and her boyfriend. Im actually going out with them all tonight.
Sure blame it on the npp. Hey i hope it works for you. But there is alittle thing called respect and if shes not giving it…. But do you bud.
And your right i never seen a woman leaver her kids, and old dog behind for some piece of shit with nore money and no baggage
So you are saying after 10 years of marriage with no issues. All of a sudden we have cheating, and trust issues the first 3 weeks of NPP useage? No quincidence at all. I get there are women out there like that but she isn't one of them.
Ive read plenty of others have exact same issues with Tren, NPP and Deca and most either are one or the other. Happy or not. Seems no middle ground.
She is hanging out with her daugher and her boyfriend and his 2 friends. They are 25yrs old and work at LIDs. lol Dude I appriciate the concern but def off base on this one. Even with my crazy thoughts I know its off base.
I can go with her anytime I want. I can see her instagram any time I want etc.
We just need a baby sitter. How much you charge?
I was married for 23 years yes shit happens AND IT HAPPENS QUICK….
I will watch kids to save a realationship. But i dont change diapers Goodluck man i just speak from past experiences that hurt and hope noone goes through it and just keep both eyes wide open friend
Because everyone wants what we have
I hear ya man. I appreciate it. It was mothers day when she passed out. I mean fathers dy is coming up. Maybe my step son will take me out ;) Payback is hell.
Sounds like tren and not npp. Drop it and it should be lil over a week feeling mentally better. Hows your estro too?
Its not the drugs. You would let your girl go out like this without texts backs.
I kicked the bitch out and divorced her decades ago. Been there.
But im talking on just npp. If its adding paranoia it sounds like tren.
Whores will whore. No mom hangs with daugher in bars like that. Daughter is the wingman.
That was my thought. I mean I can't say for certain, bc I don't know you guys. But how old are you and your wife? And she's going out with 20 somethings and hanging out with them at bars?
She always text back. It was just that one time cause she was drunk and passed out. I truely believe that. She was with her daughter. The other times she stays in contact like usual>
You’ve mentioned alcohol a couple times I’ve noticed, intoxication, abandoned cars, disappearing without notice. Perhaps there’s a substance abuse problem that’s not being addressed? Does she get pissy if you bring up the topic?
It was only that one time. this was a one off time. It was Mothers Day she got drunk and passed out. Thus why her daughter took her out. Every other time she comes home. we bang it out before she goes to bed and all is well. Typically it is a couple drinks and that is it. Once a month withfriends. Def no substance issue other than Semiglutide
and no she isn't pissy. she is like you need to tell me these things cause I don't know how you feel unless you tell me. she is open to talking and cool with it.
Gotcha. I think you’ll be ok bro, maybe more direct communication about the issue? I can’t say I’d change anything, I do live with the guilt of leaving one of my relationships when the children were young. One of my daughters had a very hard time understanding. I should say they all did but one in particular needed counseling. Unfortunately it turned into Drexyl bashing sessions instead of addressing her mothers mental illness (that she was under a doctors care for). It’s a tough situation, but absolutely could be worse. Lower that dose or shelve it for a while bud.
Getting estrogen and all checked next week. Feel good. No issues based on prior cycles. Sex is great. NO wood issues. Bone like 1 time a day.