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Tron
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Never big enough, never strong enough, never ripped enough, never good enough.

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Man, this is one of those posts where I just feel the need to voice what I and I believe many others feel inside. Us eroiders use aas to enhance ourselves and make ourselves better but to me it just never seems good enough or I will be happy with my results for a while but then that fades and I see where I need to improve and am almost blinded once again by the progress I was just recently satisfied with. I talk to my buddies at the gym and they all seem to share similar opinions about this delema. But I also think that this type of madness drives us all to achieving outstanding physiques and reaching greatness. There are people in this world that are content with being out of shape or fat. And some due to disease or dissability cannot help their state of being. This saddens me and is why I am studying personal training to help those who are capable of helping themselves but don't think they are. The way I see it is I have a healthy body and am capable of training therefore I should feel obligated to see how far I can push myself and how much I can improve but the sad truth is that I do have an illness. An illness that prevents me from seeing my own progress sometimes and being content with the way I look. I guess it's a mental illness but I feel it is one that is shared amongst many bodybuilders, fitness models, and athletes alike. It is an illness that is a curse and a blessing all in one. A curse because we can never be 100 percent satisfied with ourselves, and A blessing because at the same time that curse will drive us to constantly improve ourselves.

48 N Ripped's picture

My wife sat me down last night and told me to jet it down. That was after going to the mall and having to buy me some new shirts. The only clothing companies who make shirts that fit most of us guys properly is Ralph Loran or Falconable (Nordstrom) so I wear em out and its expensive. But, I do not feel well if I do not work out every day, can't sleep if I take a day off, my knee cartilage starts hurting and I walk like I pinned prop 500. At 48 years I am way too young for knee replacement and if I keep my legs pumped up I think I can get away with not ever having the procedure done. So perhaps I need to find a balance. And, I think I'm fat but I am not. I am glad that I re-read this post since I think I need a reality check. thanks Bro, nice post.

cmo25cent's picture

Well steroids cause depression. Even though most of us know this its hard to counter. I know how you feel. I've gained 25lbs in the last 2 months and I'm still not happy with the way I look though everyone else says I look great. I have a problem with turning little problems into big problems though to most it its no big deal. Also try to keep yourself surrounded with positive people. I know that's hard. I mean I love my wife with all my heart but she's up and down every other day which effects me. Don't get me wrong i wouldn't trade her for anything on the world. Her doctor told me she was bi polar so I know that has a lot to do with it though she does not think so. I hope this helps some a lot of us are in the same boat as you are brother.

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White Bolt's picture

I think I would be happy at a lean 200... 10% bf

mwagner630's picture

lol i said the same exact thing. new goal is 220 to 240

inked's picture

Bro, this sounds like the EXACT same convo I had with my wife the other night. She just couldn't understand my frustration though.

mwagner630's picture

i set incremental goals, when i got back to it hard, my goal was 175lbs than it was 185, after that 200, now i set my goals at 220-240. i have hit every goal i have ever set in the gym, whether its size or strength goals.

but i do believe my goals keep changing because i cant seem t o find my happy spot

thefusion's picture

Dude. Your body's like a car, sure we'd all like to drive an Aventador but hey driving a ford P.O.S shouldn't stop you from going balls deep in that hot blonde you saw last friday...

Engineereddisaster's picture

I think that this is the very reason that we all need to take a long look in the mirror and say:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DIETlxquzY

sidrx's picture

LOOOOOOOOLLL

thefusion's picture

Lol! whatever floats your boat, but for the love of {insert name of God here} just do not say "doggone it" !!

48 N Ripped's picture

Hey ED,

Now that was brilliant. You bust me up! Nice hair by the way - No Homo.

Engineereddisaster's picture

Thanks brotha. No homo back atcha. Smile

XvBeast's picture

I don't do it for a better body , I do it for strength and psychological feeling

PapaPumps's picture

Learn to enjoy the journey bc the destination is only a brief moment which can pass u by without u even noticing it was ever there

cry_havoc's picture

It's called Body Dysmorphic Disorder or Body Dysmorphia. Common amongst the body building community. I have seen guys refuse to go out on the town because they didn't think they were big enough! AAS use can actually be a science that can be measured and quantified by other means besides the mirror. You just have to remember what your doing and that it wont last forever.