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I never wanted to be way i am now! i am afraid and freaked out !

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I wanted to get big , but i dont wanna it anymore , it made me look so ugly . it makes me so ugly , my body is ugly , i feel ugly inside , it even changed my face...i even dont have confidence , my body is out of control . there is no balance on my body , i got too much water under my skin, i dont feel muscle that much but i see water and water ,!

i cant wear any clothes ,, all clothes look so ugly one me .i feel so old and bad and like suicide ,
i was eating hard , training hard
i wanted to be big but not anymore , people look at me like weird person ,,,

my body pics :(((((

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=669rao&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=6p3g55&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=71ikx2&s=6

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guys i really appreciate everyone for messages that they sent me !

I feel little bit better but i still confused , i lost 5 LB since last week and i believe it was not fat but muscle . i dont wanna loose my muscle but i wanna get rid of this fat and water in my skin ... i put my diet in last post ... I really dont eat any fat and i measure everything..

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=2gtcf3d&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=1z3v814&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=21km1dd&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=2iw9b45&s=6

ghasemki's picture

guys i really appreciate everyone for messages that they sent me !

I feel little bit better but i still confused , i lost 5 LB since last week and i believe it was not fat but muscle . i dont wanna loose my muscle but i wanna get rid of this fat and water in my skin ... i put my diet in last post ... I really dont eat any fat and i measure everything..

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=2gtcf3d&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=1z3v814&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=21km1dd&s=6

http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=2iw9b45&s=6

ghasemki's picture

how can i loose water...

MightyHero's picture

for each problem there are at least 2 solutions, give it search on eroids with wight loss and learn from other people experience, maybe will help you too

cmo25cent's picture

Brother your over reacting. Just like you found aas you can find some weight loss cutters. If you feel like your holding water take some diuretics. I'm coming off my cycle and I'm broke out all over my shoulders and arms. I go to the gym with my tank top and people look at me all the time I know they know but fuck them. Get you some clen or some hcg you'll be alright.

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ghasemki's picture

Man when i started gym i was skinny as fuck , Like African who were dying in hunger , so i tried so hard to gain weight ! i was 100LB when i started gym and after 6 years gym i made it 250LB , But now i feel i got just too big , i have to get xxl!couple of days ago i had company interview , i couldnt find jacket my size 48 L was small for me , So because of this thing i missed one of my job interview !!!!!! :(at the same time i never eat junk food ! and i really dont think i get over 2000 Callories in a day , I have no idea where i goes wrong that i have fat now ! my fat is around 22- 24 i guess

CaptainSwole's picture

Anyway for me I kinda find it hard to believe that you gained a 150 lbs in six years. But hey to each his own. If you are Only eating 2000 calories a day and not loseing weight I don't know. 2000 seems a Lil low IMO. Maybe you need to get your thyroid checked. Again see your doctor.

ghasemki's picture

Yeah bruh i gained 150 In 6 years !!!!!!!!!

Im 27 , I started gym Since 2006 , I have not had break even for one week in whole of this 6 years , i trained hard..

My height 6.2

i did 2 cycle and both were : test and Dbol

This is my diet in a day :

morning :
80 - 90 Gram Cheese

6-7 pumkin bread

BB Oatmeal+ 2 scoops porteine with milk

Launch : soup -chicken breast -rice - salads - and some pasta

before gym : post workout - and 2 scoops protieine

After gym : 2scoops proteine and after workout

45 min after gym : Some Corn flakes with milk

Dinner : tunna fish with bread - 6 inch l

before sleep : Milk - 4 scoops protiene+ milk + Pnt butter

MAN I DONT EAT JUNK FOOD ,,, I DONT EAT SWEET ... I DONT EAT FRIED THINGS>> I REALLY DONT KNOW WHY I SHOULD HAVE FAT , MY FAT IS 22-25

But guys i never done cardio , Its an year i have not done even one min cardio ..

CaptainSwole's picture

You know now that I think about it if I was out somewhere and saw a meathead trying to wear skinny jeans I believe I'd have to stare and give em a funny look also. Friends don't let friends wear skinny jeans!

CaptainSwole's picture

Lol preach on brother. That's what I'm screaming.

ghasemki's picture

To be honest thats where i shop abercrombie but not holister , though they dont have any my size anymore :( man i tried to so hard to get on shape for summer ! i really dont know what i should do :(

Since yesterday i lost 4 LB but i think i lost muscle instead fat :(

CaptainSwole's picture

Lol. Gotha point taken

CaptainSwole's picture

Dude your not that big. If clothes don't fit buy a large instead of medium bro. As far as the water retention lay off the sodium. Lastly as far as the whole suicide thing bro that would be the easy way out and not the answer to shit. U wanna be smaller the buckle the fuck down hit the diet and the cardio. Use all them fucked up thoughts in your head to get to where you really want to be. Nothing in life comes for free and if it were easy everyone would be in shape. Fuck what other people think. If you worry bout what other people think you'll never b happy with yourself. I do agree with bbonds you need a Lil help from a trained professional. If not a therapist then your regular doctor maybe could prescribe you something to make the days a Lil easier. Hell I take celexa because the ole lady said I was a big asshole and needed to be on something. Now I'm still a big asshole butt don't feel so bad about it

ghasemki's picture

Man when i started gym i was skinny as fuck , Like African who were dying in hunger , so i tried so hard to gain weight ! i was 100LB when i started gym and after 6 years gym i made it 250LB , But now i feel i got just too big , i have to get xxl!couple of days ago i had company interview , i couldnt find jacket my size 48 L was small for me , So because of this thing i missed one of my job interview !!!!!! :(at the same time i never eat junk food ! and i really dont think i get over 2000 Callories in a day , I have no idea where i goes wrong that i have fat now ! my fat is around 22- 24 i guess

CaptainSwole's picture

You need to post your stats ok we know your 250lb how tall are you? How old are you?What is your training like? What are you running now if anything?

ghasemki's picture

Im 27 , I started gym Since 2006 , I have not had break even for one week in whole of this 6 years , i trained hard..

My height 6.2

i did 2 cycle and both were : test and Dbol

This is my diet in a day :

morning :
80 - 90 Gram Cheese

6-7 pumkin bread

BB Oatmeal+ 2 scoops porteine with milk

Launch : soup -chicken breast -rice - salads - and some pasta

before gym : post workout - and 2 scoops protieine

After gym : 2scoops proteine and after workout

45 min after gym : Some Corn flakes with milk

Dinner : tunna fish with bread - 6 inch l

before sleep : Milk - 4 scoops protiene+ milk + Pnt butter

ghasemki's picture

thanks anyone for messages i feel much better by now

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thanks

Marbelous's picture

dude man the fuck up. suicide is never the answer. work hard for what you want. you dont get huge and ripped overnight.

XvBeast's picture

I hate it when guys act like little girls... u have fat....diet... u ll lose it and look good. who cares what anyone thinks, its ultimatley how u see ur self.. i been fat before and i never gave a fuck when a girl gave me that puke look... who gives a shit... i do believe what is on the inside matters and u need to fix ur self before u mess around with more roids

Darktide's picture

Believe me, I couldn't decide whether he was a troll, seriously mentally ill, or just an insecure baby. That is why I erred on the side of caution and assumed he was very Bipolar which if that was the case, he deserves compassion. But since he didn't respond and seemingly is going to continue on, I will now assume he was having a vanity panic attack which where I come from it is nothing that a good slap or two won't cure. Because if you are not a person with severe mental disabilities and this is how you talk and act as a man you are in a fcking pathetic state imo, there are real tragedies in this world and this is not one of them. And I don't care if your estrogen is 7000 it is still no excuse for this type of drama seeking attention! I will say again this does not apply if you are seriously mentally ill but otherwise, man the fck up!

B52-BODY's picture

something smells funny in here.

B52-BODY's picture

ah. Ok - it smelled Cinnamon Rolls. But I wasn't sure.

ghasemki's picture

Guys can someone tell me how many proteine and carb and callories in a day i need to take to keep muscle and loose this body fat !

ghasemki's picture

Yeah i knw bruh

skywalker's picture

look bro I not being mean here in any way. There's people out there that are a lot worse off than what you are. Be thankfull for what you have been given, and that you can even go to the gym and train. if you have your health you can't ask for anything more in life! there's some kids out there that look at you and wish they could even look half as good as you do.
stop feeling sorry for yourself. If you don't like the way your body looks.
Find out what you need to do to change it.
pursue the goals you set for yourself with all of your heart and you will achieve it.
show your strength off character and finish what you start in all aspects of life.
when you start to do this you will realise that anything you set your mind to you can achieve it.
this is what winners are made of!

ghasemki's picture

Thanks im planning now

ghasemki's picture

thanks bruh

Nitti's picture

Diet, diet ,diet! And cardio! AAS isn't a magic bullet. You won't get where you want to be over night. It's a marathon bro! And your lack of confidence is not uncommon. A lot of ppl feel this way whether they admit it or not. Maybe you should talk to someone about how you're feeling. It sounds serious. I am leaning toward elevated estrogen unless you have a pre existing condition psychologically. Get some blood work done and see where you are. Take it from there. Make sure the estro is in check. And keep training hard. You feel down on yourself, take it out on the iron. Or the treadmill. Better yet don't even use a treadmill. Go for a run in your neighborhood. Headphones, just you and the road. Clear your head. Make it a daily ritual.

ghasemki's picture

I m gonna start running very soon ..

White Bolt's picture

Yeah your body fat may be a little high, but if you work hard and cut up you'll be one shredded mofo. Don't be beating yourself up like that man, there's ppl out there with disfigured faces, parapalegics, burn victims, and people missing limbs that would slap the shit out of you for feeling sorry for yourself for not being 10% bf. Serious.

Count your blessings man.

Darktide's picture

Look my friend if this is for real you have Psychosis. Because what you see and feel is not in line with those pictures. My advice is stop taking your cycle. Also are you on any other medications legal or street? Next thing if you feel suicidal you need to get to a doctor. Because it appears that you are massively Bi-polar! And that is nothing to play around with your hormonal imbalance can enhance this, but this is no way an estrogen imbalance by itself. I wish you the best and please get yourself some professional help.

Cheatnnature's picture

Are you taking an ai? Cuz it sounds like some estro depression going on there....

ghasemki's picture

yeah i took ai man

Cheatnnature's picture

Well even on pct you can use 6.25 mg of aromasin Ed to keep estro down if protocol isn't. Also clomid will bring on depression.