Hello guys , hope everyone is ok and enjoying summer, i wish the best to all of you , i love you all as my friends and iron brothers

This last two months i havent loged much..i make this post cause i not want ppl think i vanish i am not like this and there are a lot of guys here i feel as real friends , like i know them in real life

Im not good mentally at all .. is the hardest sumer and period of my life

My litle brother , well 28 now but will always be my little bro for me , is not so lucky in his life .. at 8 years old a car with a drunken man hit him and from accident he got in shock and got autoimune disease called psoriasis wich is dermal and also damage to his imune system

I fight hard for him all my life always trying di the best for him , always sending him to best doctors even if it meant i work 3 jobs and not get shit for me only food always by his side

Life is a bitch and before 43 days his kidneys began to fail... they still not show signs of stopping and he have like 2 months more for this shit to stop or he will have total kidney failure

I wont lie and try play it hard man or something , im no pussy i have been through many shit in my life , i am special forces in my coutry , frogman but i am devastated ...

I not eat i not sleep im fucked in the head and in my heart

Im sory i canot try now to write better english..

I pray to god every day to help and stop this happening to my brother , autoimune problems are fucked up , doctors not even know how it happened

Anyway sory for the drama , but i fell at home here and i wanted to get this off me

If things go to hell i will stop lifting and give him one of my own kidneys

Stay safe brothers and put health above all cause some ppl are not so lucky to enjoy what we take for granted

P.s(1) my brother not smoke , not drink , not do drugs just so you guys know , he has perfect bloodwork , no blood presure problems

P.s(2) sory to all of you guys that have send pms to me asking for training , drug , diet advice , sory for you being ignored but i canot read this now and i canot think to answer you , sory from inside my heart you know dope always there for you guys just not now and not by choice

Respect

Dope