First off let me take the time and say thank you to ALL eroids family for allowing me to still be here and for helping me along the way wether it be with cycling info, workout advice, general off topic bullshitting, etc. Now as many of us know steroids are nothing to fuck with and should always read up and learn before making any advance towards it. Also it's a mind altering drug that can burn your ass if you don't learn how to deal with it. Now to the story....I dated this girl for 2 and half years and for over a year and a half of it I ran roads out the ass. I also lived a double life on her with some other chick way off who I've never met. Fucking retarded I know. We'll 6 months ago everything came out between us and since then also I've found eroids. I'd hit an all time low in life and I'm still trying to get out of it to this day and just being part of eroids community helps A LOT. More than a lot of you can understand. Now many people say "well you didn't love her because if you did you wouldn't have done it" or " your such a piece of shit" blah blah blah for what I've done to that girl. I'm currently trying to work things out with her and we have good and bad days. Just trying to show her how truly sorry I am and how much I do care for her. Hopefully she will allow me to be a part of her life again and trust me. No my estrogen is not high and no I'm not having a bitch moment just wanting to show my appreciation to eroids for helping and being there through this trying time in life even though it was my fault. Much love eroids and remember gear is nothing to play with. It can and will effect you mentally if you let it. It did effect me and while I am back on cycle I'm doing shit properly and it's going well.