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Update - just had PET scan done yesterday. Good news is nothing is popping up besides my colon and near that area. “Heterogeneous hypermetabolism along the sigmoid colon“ . I have blood tests tomorrow and I’ll be put on the short notice cancellation list for surgery. I have a colonoscopy and cystoscope scheduled at the end of this month but I’m hoping i get squeezed in for surgery before then. It’s been pretty damn frustrating bc i still don’t have a definitive answer. I’m still pissing and shitting blood. Blood in the stool is minimal but the blood in the piss is like holy fuck. Straight fuckin blood. Looks like a pool of blood surrounded by blood splatter almost every time I piss.
Here are some of my take aways from this experience so far. Although it’s possible I can die I seriously doubt i will but I realized really quickly how important it is to have everything squared away when it comes to life insurance and anything you own. I have an appt with a lawyer tomorrow to get that shit squared away. The reality of life is it can end at any given moment and I’ve seen Death bring out the worst in greedy, spiteful, and jealous people. I need everything written in stone to ensure the right people get what they need.
Won’t go into much detail with this one but it made me realize if ima die I don’t want to be in the relationship I’m in.
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All this shit started early December. Ended up getting a UTI from anal. Starting having bad pain while pissing and started pissing blood. Got a round of antibiotics but still continued pissing blood. Ended up going back to ER early January for another round of antibiotics. Couple days after I finished the antibiotics I was still pissing blood on and off. Sometimes it was straight blood. Some times I’d piss normal then blood would come out afterwards.
I went to the ER last night bc at this point it’s like wtf. Once again they take bloods and collect urine samples. Finally they said maybe you have a fistula bc I have a history of diverticulitis. So they let me know ima get a ct scan. Man I did not know what kind ct scan I was gonna get lmao. These fuckers shoved a tube up my ass followed by a ballon to hold that shit in place. This guy literally told me right before he started “let us know when you can’t take it anymore”. What a fuckin thing to hear before getting something shoved up you ass lmao!! Fun stuff.. fun stuff..
At this point I had been in the ER for 8-9hrs and now I’m just waiting for CT scan results and the doc to let me know what’s up. Doc finally walks in and gets to the point. She said we have bad news you have what appears to be a 6cm tumor and the walls of your colon near there are thick.. we believe you have colon cancer. You need to make follow up appts immediately. Blah blah blah. At this point I’m tryna get the fuck outta there.
Get to my car and sit there for about 15min then my brain kicks back in and I realize this is actually happening. It’s like fuck how do I tell the wifey. Got home and prefaced it with ok none of this is 100% but this is what they are telling me it could be. Let her know I love her very much and everything will be ok. Let her know I’d take the day off to make all follow up appt. Laid with her for about 45min. At this point it’s 10:30 and I know if I don’t get a work out in ima be up all night overthinking. So I hit the back yard and fuckin killed it! Did pyramid sets til I couldn’t lift a fuckin weight. Shit hit the spot.
Couple of fears I have is that it has spread enough to were I’ll need a shit bag for life or spread to the point I’m fucked. Not so much as I’ll be fucked but my children and wifey. The living suffer, the dead are simply dead. I don’t want them to experience this kind of pain.
Overall I’m annoyed as fuck as I have just upped my test, tren, and GH. Since I’m possibly fuckin with cancer I need to drop the GH. As far as Test and Tren I’d like to continue that till surgery. I’m still able to eat and train so why not make gains. I have an appt. Next Friday and who knows when everything else will go down. Then who knows what recovery is gonna be like.
Besides the wifey no one else know so it feels good to let it out. Appreciate anyone taking the time to listen!
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Good news! These fucks told me a couple days ago it’s not cancer! I am confused bc at the ER they said I have a mass possible tumor and the colonoscopy results stated there was no mass also no new polyps. They way the doctors told me at the er and how oncology kept it contact with me really made me feel like this battle was inevitable. I do have really bad thickening of the sigmoid colon walls and was told due to the stress of digesting an opening was created between my digestive system and bladder. They are saying this is why I continue to piss blood and pass blood clots when taking a piss. I’ll be getting colectomy surgery march 6th. When they called and let me know the date I felt like I was gonna have a damn panic attack lmao. I can’t explain why but being put under for surgery scares the fuck out of me. Will be in the hospital for about 3 days after the they encourage movement and light walks. Approx 1month to resume daily activities and approx 2 months before I can lift. Sucks but not bad at all as we have champs on here who will be out significantly longer.
This past month or so has been crazy stressful. This shit took a huge toll on the relationship I’m in. It also definitely kick started my brain. I wouldn’t say I was on complete auto pilot but it just made me realize this shit we call life could end at any time and I’ve kinda just settled even tho I’m unhappy.
Enough of that bs lmao so I’m thinking HGH would be great for recovery lmao
Appreciate all who have reached out through DM and posted up on this . Although im social on here im really introverted and keep to myself in the real world. I hardly tell people what’s going on in my head or what I’m going through. Simply put if no one asks then why tell. A lot of y’all are the real deal and gave great advice. I see myself being a part of this community for a long time. Thank you guys very much
Guess you’re happy you kept that GH!
Seriously knew you’d troop it out no matter what it is.
Here’s to surgery going as smooth as possible!
I actually tossed it but it was only 40iu anyways. Im glad I get to buy more and continue to use it. Might get some for post surgery
Thanks!
Get well soon!!
Thanks!
This made me happy to read. I saw the other post and I didn’t even know how to respond to it because it was so fucking gnarly. Still not out of the woods but sooo much better of a circumstance. I like going under for surgery but none my shit wasn anything as serious as this. Just follow the protocols and heal up, you’ll be back at it in no time.
Yessir as soon as I’m cleared to lift I’ll be taking some lovely cut mix and throwing in some sdrol at the end. And excited as fuck to get back on hgh lmao
That's Absolutely FUCKING FANTASTIC NEWS BUDDY!!!!!!
Fuck me I bet it really does feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders hearing that - kinda puts a whole new perspective on life doesn't it and how one minute we are pootling along moaning about irrelevant shit and the next we are being told we might die. You should use this as a big wake up call mate and re-evaluate what truly makes you happy and maybe get rid of the things that are making you unhappy - time waits for no man!! I've been waiting on some chest X ray results to see where I am at with this shitty bronchitis and mate it took me a week to get the balls to go and get it done because I was fearing they were gonna discover all sorts of other things on the x ray due to steroid use over the years lol I was absolutely 95% sure it was gonna be a phone call of bad news from the Doc and turns out there is nothing at all wrong on it! I am really happy for you buddy - I was actually thinking about what you are about to go through earlier on before you let us know the great news
It was definitely a huge wake up call and you’re right time waits for no man and life’s too short to not enjoy it. This whole scare opened the door for me to be honest with my partner. Whether that means moving on or making changes I’m glad it happened. With out this situation I would’ve continued to hold it in and be unhappy. For that I am grateful.
Shit man I’m glad you got that figured out and everything came back good. I had that done as well a couple years back. EKG, X-ray, and some shit where I had to stay overnight to look arrhythmia. Everything came back good. Turns out I was just going through episodes of anxiety and panic attacks lol I’ve dealt with that before but not to that extreme. During that time I was under an extreme amounts of stress. Crazy what stress can do to a human
anvilNever had a doubt this would turn out all good!
I prepared for the worst but forgot to hope for the best lol lesson learned
anvilNah brother somehow I really felt like you were gonna be okay. And I am sure glad you are. Blast off now on the gear!!
Definitely gonna loss some mass bc of this so when I’m cleared to lift I’ll be pushing hard!
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anvilMuch love your way brother, glad you chose us to tell. Everything will workout the best it can with positive energy. I hope full to hear good news the next time you post here. Again brother much love your way.
Appreciate the positive energy!! Thanks!
Bro I’ll tell you that having to shit in a bag isn’t so bad considering the alternative. Just from what I’ve seen you post on here you seem like a good dude and like you have your priorities in order. I believe you’ll make it through this and come out the other side stronger than before. You’ve got a huge advantage being a healthy guy with plenty of muscle mass, that’ll help with recovery from the surgery more than anything else. Keep your head up and keep us updated on how things are going, I’ll be thinking of you and praying for you.
Naw it’s really not. I’d much rather have that than die. In the grand scheme of things it’s nothing.
Appreciate all the positive energy!
I mean, you’re into body modification right? A colostomy is a pretty hardcore one. Hopefully it won’t come to that though. Colon cancer has a good survival rate especially when caught early and it’s possible that it’s benign. I know from experience that hard part right now is not knowing and having to wait to get the tests and all of that. Keep training, spend tine with your family and try to keep your mind off it until you know the score.
Hahaha that’s definitely one way of thinking about it. Internal body modifications. Yup that’s how hardcore I am lmao!
Yessir that’s the plan keep training and spend time with the fam.
That fucking sucks man. There's no other way to put it. But look at it this way. You found out early enough to have a chance to do something about it. I've got a friend i've known for going on 30 years now who is slowly withering away because he was too stubborn to go to the dr for years about blood in his stool. And i mean like 5+ years. When he finally went because the pain just became too much they told him he had stage 4 colon cancer which had already metastasized to his liver as well. He's fucked. They can only try to help him hang around a bit longer. And it was all avoidable if he had just listened to any of us that told him you don't fuck with blood in your puke or your waste. I try to be understanding but i'm pissed at him for being so god damn stupid as i was the loudest voice telling him to go get checked out.
If it were me i'd drop everything except trt. Obviously GH is a no go. If it were me i'd never touch the stuff again as i'd always be paranoid that they missed some little spec that i'd be feeding. I'd look into the diet changes @Rosschestzip mentioned. I've heard the same thing for years from people who survived their cancer. There are lots of rabbit holes you can go down online about how people cured their cancers. I know someone who claims Rick Simpson Oil cured their uterine cancer. Theres a protocol using chlorine dioxide i've read about and even using soundwaves to destroy tumors now. Good luck man. Grab this fucker by the throat and make it your bitch.
This tumor or what ever the fuck showed up between now and 4years ago. Since I have diverticulosis many of these issues or common to that. I’m really hoping I didn’t over look this. Cuz if I did and it’s serious I pretty much fucked myself. That’s a tough pill to swallow.
I’m pretty annoyed as I was getting ready to bump to 4iu then get igf tested. What a fuckin waste lol.
I’m definitely gonna look into diet and honestly anything that seems reasonable that could assist.
Appreciate it! Ima fuck this bitch sideways lmao
I’d do the diet, baking soda, and there’s this stuff I guess it’s like epsom salt and baking soda and it’s great for the body, it’s like super charged baking soda, it’s called magnesium something. Like magnesium chloride or magnesium phosphate or something like that. But you take a bath of it. Also I think baking soda baths too. Like massive amounts of baking soda. And look up dr.sebi’s diet.
I know this all sounds like stupid hippie shit but I really believe it’s massively helpful. Nowadays are bodies are super acidic compared to a hundred years ago and disease grows and spreads in acidic settings, so to make your body more alkaline makes it more resistant. Supposedly if you were to be like perfectly alkaline then it would be impossible for you to have any illness or diseases. And baking soda makes your body more alkaline.
Start doing lots of your own research but Is google like “alkaline vs acidic cancer and baking soda” just type in something like that and read some. If you think it’s bullshit then look up something else but atleast give it a read because I really believe it’s very powerful and helpful and one of the reasons we’re all so sick nowadays
I don’t give a fuck how hippie that shit sounds I am down to try anything lmao. If someone handed me a healing crystal right now and said hey this might help I’d be like fuck it let’s run this lmao.
I’ll definitely look into it. I’ll be doing a lot of research today and pretty much reconstructing diet finding out anything I can take to help. Appreciate the info!
You might want to get that crystal as close to tumor as possible. After your last experience with the hospital that shouldn't be too difficult for you. Lol
Lmfao!! this one had me dying! Appreciate the laugh it was definitely needed today!
SUGAR FEEDS CANCER, cut out as many carbs as possible. If you can go zero carb then great! Stop the hgh and stop the tren, you gotta be in an optimal condition and tren won’t help that. Also take a spoonful of baking soda everyday. Cancers can’t grow in an alkaline environment. My mother had colon cancer (still could, it’s only been a few months) she changed up her diet and had the surgery and is fine so far. Good luck my man and don’t just do nothing, your a warrior, this is your battle now
I had just went from low to no carb diet to high carb diet. Son of a bitch lol. Fuck it I don’t mind going keto.
I’ll definitely look into baking soda. Appreciate the motivation and best of luck to your mother!
Ya she’s doing pretty good, her cancer marker or whatever it’s called actually just went up again. Probably due to her not following the strict diet like she was before the surgery, it really does make a difference man. I wish you the best man, just try and stay healthy In every way you can!
Bro my cousin had Colon cancer. She's same age as me. It was a few t years ago. They did surgery and she's good now. It really wasn't that bad at all.
My mother also had cancer right now find that out last Oct. Brain cancer she had brain surgery. They're also saying there's rumors in other parts of her body. She was doing the last round of kemo and she's in the hospital now. But she's alright it just takes a toll. But she went from how she was last Sept to seeming like an old lady in a few months. She had terrible walking now. An just is forgetful it's pretty crazy.
So it could always be worse.
Anyone I've known who had colon cancer had it cut out and they were g2g. What are you doing with all that hgh? Wanna wholesale for a deal? Lol. Jkjk.
Nah your gonna need it for after surgery. If u need surgery.
The odds are definitely in my favor not gonna lie tho shit is still kinda hitting me. It probably stems from not knowing exactly what is happening. Like today. I woke up pissed straight fuckin blood and feel like absolute shit. my legs are sore as fuck from leg day yesterday. Get the kids up to start getting ready for school. The hop in bed with me for a bit and it hit me so fuckin hard. Like I don’t want to lose this.
Lmao!!!! Was about to pull the trigger on 600iu glad I didnt lol only have 40-50iu left. What a fuckin waste!
I don’t know if I’ll fuck with it again. Anything left could grow and I could be the one accelerating its growth. We will see how this plays out tho.
Best of luck to your mom!
Dam pissing blood. That could be from doing legs too hard though to right? I've heard that happening before. I think you'll be good man. Your young.
Honestly tho I'd stop everything except like the bare minimum of test. Especially if your pushing blood bro.
Ty for the good wishes too.
Yes I have heard this can happen and I wish it was that but I’ve been pissing blood regardless. I’ll tell myself It’s bc of leg day and bc I’m such a fuckin savage and killed it and that’s why I’m pissing blood just to make myself feel better tho lmao.
Dropped everything just on test now. Sucks but o fuckin well. I’m still gonna kill it anyways lol
Keep training keep pushing … when it comes to beating cancer muscle mass is a weapon you want in your arsenal ( no pun intended)
Seriously mate I’ve seen more people than I wish I had go through cancer battles and when they start treatments like chemotherapy ect the muscle mass they have really helps them keep going , recover and not become to weak to fight.
Hopefully it’s not cancer but if it is then it’s a battle and when us boys of iron battle we battle hard and fucking win …. You got this mofo and if it does turn out to be the C then I fully expect you to be boasting about how you kicked the muffa fucking shit out of it in the near future. Now on your fucking feet solider no time for being a fucking dolly mixture now … let’s fucking have it !!!!!!
That’s the plan! Train til absolutely can’t. Appreciate the words of motivation. Time to fuck shit up!
Well Thanks a lot for putting me off Anal sex Sithx!!! Lmao
No but seriously mate, I am REALLY fuckin sorry to hear about this pal, I really am.
Knowing the type of guy you are though I am pretty sure you aren't really after our sorrows and sympathies and would rather have our support - which of course you do. I had to have a Colon cancer screening about 18 months back now as for years I'd get a really bad pain sometimes if I have a hard turd thats wangling its way round the U-bend at the front and about to drop into the bowel. Turned out to be nothing in the end but it does sound like surgery will be on the cards for you bud. I know you want to carry on with the Tren mate and take your mind off things, but you would be so much better to cut it out for now and get yourself just on Test so that your body and mind is ready for the things that are coming up - You NEED to be in the healthiest shape possible buddy as you may have to have Chemo after the surgery. Get your kidneys, liver and heart all healthy and toxin free, seriously mate - any gains you make on Tren anyway you lose them as soon as you stop it. I know how addictive it is for strength etc but you only have it whilst you are running the stuff, right now push it to the side
We will ALL be here for you Bro through all of this whenever you want to talk or want to shoot the shit with the gym bro's!!! Don't start thinking this is the end or any silly shit like that because it isn't - there are loads of members on here that have beaten cancer, quite a few of the mad fuckers even continued training through it whilst having chemo!!
I debated whether or not to write this. Even wrote it out and ended up deleting it bc I didnt want to come across as someone looking for sympathy or sorrow. I will say I did need people to be like he fuck drop the tren lmao. Had I not said anything I’d definitely just bc like fuck it let’s ride this shit til the wheels fall off.
100% surgery is going down. All the details will be sorted next Friday and we will see what happens from there’s. Until then it back to work, working out, and chillin with the family.
As of now everything is being dropped except test. You’re right I need to be optimal for this shit.
Having a bag really isn’t the end of the world either. Uncle has one and lives a completely normal life. Fuck. Cancer. Have lost close family and am currently watching others fight it. I know you’re not religious but we’re cheering for ya man!
Having a bag is definitely better than being dead lol. I’m just ignorant to it and have no idea what it entails. So in my head it’s literally walking around with a bag of shit.
Shit man I’ll take anything I can get prayers including lmao
KingxmadI would tell the Dr everything you are taking at your follow up and if they say drop it then drop it till this is gone or a confirmation that its not what they thought. Hopefully its not what they think.
Also, what did you say specifically for them to shove the balloon up your ass? gonna go there right now and make sure I don't say that.
Shit man I’m really hoping it’s benign. I feel like they are definitely gonna be like drop that shit. Regardless of whether or not this was happening I feel they’d give that answer.
Lmao I suggested the possibility that maybe I’m having these issues due to a fistula.
Im sorry man! Your a champ still pushing hard. Keep us updated.
Much appreciated! We will see how this shit plays out
Man sorry to hear this. And you were just telling me the other day how you were going to get bloods. Let me say this, I do hope u get through this, no you will get through this. I'll be honest colon cancer can get pretty severe as you know but many people beat it and go on with their life, especially with today's modern medicine and surgeries. I'm wishing you and the family the best and please stop the GH immediately.
Damn you worrying about gains while dealing with this situation? Man you're more of a warrior than I am lol. But I do like how you seem to be strong headed and taking this thing head on. Alot of times when folks don't beat these types of illnesses, it's because sometimes folks are just checked out mentally. I say that because I've seen it happen many times. Anyways wishing u the best
For those reading this...get your colon examined. A colonoscopy is best, not colonguard
Appreciate the words! As long as it’s early enough I’m good to go. That’s why the only one who knows is wifey. Unless life threatening then I’ll have to make those moves but until then I’m not tryna stress the fam out.
I’m tryna blow the fuck up lol and this bullshit is getting in my way. It’s lucky it’s in me and not in front of me lmao.
True some people just give up but I didn’t not make it this far to just give up. Can’t be raising no quitters either therefore I can’t be no fuckin quitter. When life throws shit at you you gotta smack that shit out the fuckin way.
The mind is the strongest weapon EVER!
Stay strong and handle your business
Dam man. Sorry to hear this bro. Hopefully they caught it soon enough. Colon cancer is one with a very high treatable success rate if caught early.
As far as anabolic use, I'd drop the tren and anything else. Get your test to a trt dose and get yourself healthy man.
What was your PSA on most recent bloodwork?
Appreciate that. Yes it is very treatable when caught early. Last colonoscopy was done 4 years ago and this wasn’t in it so that kinda has me like fuck. Overall I feel like the odds are in my favor tho.
Psa was sitting at 1.1 and had bloods planned for first week of February.
I would drop gh for sure. I personally would drop it all bro..Not worth it until you get better...
Dropping the GH is a given. The hard part is excepting that this is happening when physically I feel fine. I can eat I can train I can sleep. It’s kind of a mind fuck.