My mind feels like an animalistic beast lying dormant in a dark cave. Suppressed rage is a dangerous thing. It rains in my mind and clouds my vision. Strong enough to control it is the question? I am.

To your wife/GF go out of your way to be tender and soft spoken. Treat her like a queen despite her faults.

Laugh with your children and be kind in your words.

Those who treat you like gold in return treat them as diamonds.

Unleash your monster in the war room. Allow the beast roam freely and guide you during your workouts. Headphones in shut off from the world. Focused. Hungry. Insane. Reps. Sets. Beyond limits. Beyond failure. Push.
Then chain it back up when you leave the gym.

Unleash it the bedroom also. My wife loves the aggression during sex, but you have to be able to shut it off and still caress her like precious flower after it's over. You can't just leave it on and walk out of the room.

Control the monster. Conquer the Beast.

If this to you is twisted ramblings or bass ackwards thoughts I apolagize.

These are my thoughts.