I am not an expert, just some guy. I write this only as a personal account that may help someone else overcome their battles with temper and violence while on or off cycle.

I have always been skinny since childhood. Since kids are assholes i got teased. Even though I was able to joke or smart my way out of most confrontations the constant teasing and resulting insecurities followed me into adulthood. I began bodybuilding and AAS as a way to help with my self image and confidence levels. Admittedly, i started too young and had little or no real education going into it. I abused dosages and abused compounds and practices, recklessly going about things with no plan or limitations. As a result of starting AAS while my maturity level had not caught up, I carried my defensiveness and anger into my cycles and used my newfound size and strength to "pay back" the world for its injustices. One time i honked at a guy for not going right away when the light turned green so he flipped me off. I pulled that guy out of his car and stomped him in front of several other drivers with no regard for his safety, my safety, presence of witnesses, consequences, etc. My anger combined with super strength (being on way too many compounds for anyone, much less a 19 year old kid with issues) led me to put myself and others at risk. I dont know how i got away with that one, probably because other people were too shocked by what they saw to record my license plate or do anything about it. I dont expect to have that kind of luck ever again and neither should anyone else.

Now, 13 years later, I have just started using AAS again last year. I was honestly scared to get back into it because of my past. It turns out that there are a number of ways to constructively avoid misuse of AAS and control rage issues.

First off- maturity. I should have waited until my insecurities about my body had been dealt with first. True confidence must be achieved before using steroids to gain road respect. Steroids dont make you rage- they just make you more of what you are already. If you, deep down, are a scared punk that has something to prove, itll make things worse. This site is full of imaginary people that really do want to help. It is important that when an old timer tells you that you are too young to start AAS, you take them seriously. The only thing they have to gain by telling you to wait is helping you avoid mistakes they have made or seen other make themselves.

Second- when you get further into your cycles, realize that you ARE gaining road respect and maybe dont need to throw your weight around like your previous self. Just because you are getting bigger doesnt mean its payback time. Guys that bark the loudest are the real pussies. Even if you dont think so, everyone else knows it. When someone is being confrontational, you look like a fucking pimp when you laugh it off and tell everyone to calm down. Use your size to control the situation in a positive way instead of being violent or giving them the satisfaction of escalating the situation. Calmness looks even scarier and more mature. It can silence even the most drunk, affliction douchebag whos favorite MMA fighter just lost. (you know who you are)

Third and last- remember that person you were and try to help other people get past it. You can help people by sticking up for them in a nonviolent way, you can make positive comments to people that seem like they are insecure about their self images, you can steer people away from using AAS when they dont need it (or shouldnt use it yet) and you can even give good information back to people deciding to use AAS by using this site or amongst your peers.

I know this now sounds like an episode of sesame street and maybe im being a little mushy because im off cycle but its all true stuff. When you do these things it makes your own insecurities melt away and makes temper fits more manageable. This all results in more constructive use of AAS and more constructive living.

Again, Im not an expert. When i say "you" i mean everyone that this applies to. Im referring to myself and my own experiences in an effort to possibly reach someone else with anger issues and guys that should WAIT to use AAS. Hopefully this helps. Thanks for listening. -EL