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+ 1 Eroids community this is 100% from the heart

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No one ever said life is going to be easy (to me anyway).

The truth is that life is sometimes crule,unfair and down right heart breaking.

Today I cremated my sister of 48 years old. She was a lovely soul but was definitely dealt a bad hand in life. From the age of 16 she fell pregnant and died for 4 minutes resulting in server epilepsy lasting for 30 years.

4 years ago she had a fit on the stairs and broke her neck. She was told she'd never walk again.....she proved them wrong and ended up walking again with just a walking stick.

On Tuesday the 11th we had to switch off the machines keeping my sister alive after suffering a serious fit and choked on her vomit. This ment she died for several minutes starved of oxygen. We were first told she would pull through but then she went down hill as her brain started to swell and die.

I'll be honest guys I'm fucking heart broken and I regret not making more of an effort with her.......now I can't so I've got to live with that for the rest of my life.

The piont is don't leave shit you want to say bottled up. Forget petty squabbles with siblings and parents be the bigger man and put it aside and tell them you love them.

Spend time with them and get to know them.

Trust me my guilt will eat me till the day I die but I promise myself this, I will never neglect a loved one as long as I live.

Sorry to sound preachy guys but I honestly don't want anyone to go through what I am now.

Hope you all have a merry Christmas and a happy year and stay safe

felony's picture

Sorry for your loss. It's beyond epidemic where I live. Good people dying everyday. Very sad.

mlr2199's picture

Pandemic....where I live. Has been for most of my life. No media cover until middle America was affected. Opioids have been claiming lives since my earliest memories. A lot of good people.

GizmoDuck's picture

Oh damn man. Sorry for your loss. Best friends are sometimes closer than family.

IrishMack's picture

It was surreal. Still can't picture him not being here. We have another friend for the same amount of time so now we talk more. Kibby has my respect for the tough road.

Sam I Am's picture

Sorry for your loss. I have a family member with epilepsy so this hits close to home.

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mlr2199's picture

Sorry for your loss, she sounds amazing. She sounds like she gave hope to a lot of people. And there is nothing anyone can say to make you feel better, I know. You and your family are in my prayers.

SL's picture

My condolences bro sorry you're going through this keep your head up

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tattoofreak's picture

Damn, mate. I'm really sorry to read this! Always hard to loose beloved people. Feel free to pm me anytime, when you need someone to talk. Stay strong brother and I wish you and your family the strength to go through this hard times. All my love (no homo)

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press1's picture

I'm very very sorry for your loss mate, anytime at all just message me if you ever want to chat about anything at all and just realise there is light at the end of this no matter how low you are feeling right now. I'm sure she felt plenty of love from you as a brother whilst she was here.

GrowMore's picture

Well said mate. My thoughts are with you and your family.

herpjunkie111's picture

That's not preachy at all Kibby, what you said is the simple bare-bones truth my brother that everyone needs to hear from time to time to keep us from getting complacent about the fragility of life and how quickly someone you love can cease to be a part of it. Prayers for you and your family. Stay strong.

Greg's picture

Sorry for your loss, especially at this time of the year.

Soulja's picture

Man bro, that's a tough one. Don't think your sister doesn't know how you feel, she does. There is a life after this one brother. We are just passing through. Sounds like she had a rough go at it. She is at peace. It's super hard to lose a loved one. You have all of our support. Stay strong my friend. Hope you enjoy the holidays with your family.

Righthook's picture

Moving. I’m sorry Kibby. Much love (no homo)

Dope's picture

God damn kibby .. i m really sad now .

So sory you had to go through this my brother

I will pray for your sisters soul and may god rest her soul

Fucking hell man .. duno what to say .. im really sad

Stay strong brother , keep your head up

If you wana talk you have my email

Much love and respect

Dope

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Pale's picture

I am truly sorry for your loss and definitely relate more than I wish I could.

Bill G's picture

Sorry for your loss brother.
Its not easy losing a loved one.
I will tell you this. Life is life. Things happen.
I've wasted a lot of time and energy on regret and what i should have done's.
Know this..
She has already forgiven you.
I know for a fact she would rather you be full of joy. Knowing she loves you.
You knowing her suffering is over.
Again sorry for your loss

tattoofreak's picture

Wise words, mate

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Makwa's picture

Sorry to hear that Kibby. Prayers out to you.

GizmoDuck's picture

Damn dude. Sorry man. Thanks for you post.

fusebox's picture

God speed to her my brother. I got into a petty argument with my dad. We always had them about stupid stuff and just went on with life. That night he died of a severe aneurysm in his heart. I've never told anyone that since it happened. Prayers coming your way kibby

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Please lads don't karma this post...this has nothing to do with karma. All I ask is that if you read it PLEASE at least consider what I've said

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