Stats
29 y.o
244 lbs
6ft

I'm really posting this as an avenue to vent my shit, and let you guys know my situation so maybe you can share your experiences with me, give me some hope and maybe help someone else.

So as far as I can tell as well as my doctors, my test levels are in the gutter and there's no underlying disease, or issue. I was honest and upfront with my doc about doing cycles when I was younger and he associated my low levels with improper use. That being said I considered my cycles to be well planned, had bloods pre, mid, pct, and post there was never any significant issues with lipids or estro and my free and total test always went back to just about my base levels. For reference my total was steady around 550-600 ng/ml and Free was around 80-90 pg/ml.

My last cycle was ran Nov 2016 which was Test 500/ eq 600 for a total of 20 weeks, see cycle log if u want any more info. In addition to the pct on my cycle log I ended up running my pct for 8 weeks rather than 4 because at the end of my 4-week pct total was only 220. After the 8 weeks of pct bloods drawn and I was still lower than my usual at 495 but I was ok with that.

I had an injury on my back at work, herniated, bulging, and fractured disks. I have a genetic disorder that involves all my connective tissue, basically my bones are all bone on bone, and my joints are dog shit. So that plays into why my injury was so severe. Now while going through all of this I slipped into a deep depression because I could go to the gym and was in pain all the time, and became a fat lazy slob bla blah blah.

Fast forward to a few months ago, got treatment on my back and was physically feeling great,but still depressed, no drive, ED problems, no libido. So I got off all the meds they had me on for my back, but all the issues still there. So after what felt like a decade of chasing symptoms doc ordered bloods and my Total was 228ng and Free 8.3pg.

He did hcg therapy for 8 weeks, during this time I cleaned up my diet. My calorie intake was 2500 Cal 60/20/20 protein/carb/fats which always cut me up. In 8 weeks of calorie deficit take 300 ius hcg twice a week, I only dropped 2 lbs. I was sure that my thyroid was fucked so he did just about every blood test available. Conclusion was all my levels were in normal range except my test. This time total was 288ng and Free 10.6pg.

I really was at the end of my rope I felt like I exhausted my resources and then my doc suggested injections. I had alot of mixed feelings about it because at 29 I'm looking at the next 40+ years of jabbing my ass weekly. That being said 40+ years of jabbing myself seemed alot better than the alternative which for me was suicide. I know that's drastic but I've had a history of mental health issues along with losing my brother at a young age, and I felt like there was no escape. I'm 3 weeks in at 200mg test cyp a week and 300ius hcg twice a week and I'm grateful to say that my drive for life is back, my dick works again, and my sex life has returned.

But I do know that this isn't a magic cure and there's going to be alot of work ahead of me.

So if anyone has any suggestions or experiences they want to share with me, I am open,just trying to find some dudes in similar situations who I can talk to.

I'm not one to post labs it makes me feel uncomfortable but if you want to know just ask me and I'll pull them up.

Thanks in advance.