I want to take a moment to reflect upon how steroids have impacted my life.
There is something that has happened to me that I just can not come up with an answer for . Now some people say that steroids make you act like an alpha, some say they give you confidence and swagger, and some say the increased agression gives you drive.
The problem is I never lacked confidence, I often got criticized for having a cocky attitude, and all to often found my self far too agressive for a givin situation.
If anything Steroids have brought me greater humility and sympathy. I am now a kinder gentler husband, father and friend to those who know me . My wife still scratches her head by saying " steroids are supposed to make you angry, but they've made you nicer ".
Perhaps its just middle age setting in, I really dont know, but the timing of my life change and steroid use is awfully coincidental.
For those of you who are young it may be hard to see, but I was already quite sure of who I was and how I behaved when I started this game.
Can anyone share anything similar ? Have you ever wondered how deep and complex the reaction is beyond just growing big muscles ? Sometimes I wonder about the power and strength of the human smile . I do get a whole lot more smiles now from people. Are they feeding of my nature , or am I feeding off theirs ?
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I think that as you get older you slow down anyway and your not in the same mode when your
younger. You don't feel as challenged by others. Hence the lighter attitude. Also aas helped fixed what
was bothering you ( irritability from pain. ) etc.
Usually as we get older we develop more ailments and problems and we search for something to fix that itch (bad back,arthritis etc,). You found something that make you feel better. And if you asked a Dr to help you with whats bothering.. you know what the answer would be..
AnonHaha no answer ! Yeah that is true irritability was undoubtedly linked to my pain levels.
exactly. And less irritability leads to better , clearer thoughts and so on. you figured it out on your own.
A great post as usual! I can relate as well since being on TRT I have become more serene and for me that was no small task. But I never knew you before when you were not on gear but i will say I have always seen you confident and by no means arrogant. Making your points while you respect the dignity of those who disagree with you, I have to somehow believe that you were that man with or without gear. I also think that since being on TRT as well as cycles, I have stopped to smell the roses more as opposed to just trampling them down:)
AnonCrazy that we used to trample those roses right ? Thats exactly what Im talking about though . I mean if you try to explain to someone that increased testosterone makes you/ me enjoy some small things we once over looked they'd never believe it. Thats why I say this is so complex and far beyond any amount of muscles.
It's like that old saying, "Youth is wasted on the young".
The decline is so slow, over decades. I become more conservative, less spontaneous, less upbeat. Then suddenly things are normal again, and I remember what it was like.
I think they need to spend less time on researching antidepressants and more time on Andropause and the benefits of steroids.
"I think they need to spend less time on researching antidepressants and more time on Andropause and the benefits of steroids."
I preach that every where I go! That would be a great topic for the TRT board.
Yes I know same thing my family thought I was going to be off the chain and it has turned out quite the opposite. Of course there is always the occasional dumb ass that is looking for a scholarship to SLIP & FALL school
I completely agree and I've come to realize this is exactly what I had such a hard time going through PCT. I hadn't felt that good in 10 years. I felt like a man again. I felt happy. I felt strong and confident. Things I had been lacking for a while. My wife thought I would turn into a raging ahole but I proved her wrong. I had a case of high estro and was moody but I got that in control and I was a gentle bear, with lots of aggression where and when it was needed (in the bed. hehe). It def. goes far beyond growing muscles, I should know, I still don't have any. LMAO
I honestly can't wait till I go back on. I know the reality is the way I felt is unnatural due to the excess amount of hormones tearing through my body but MY reality feels like that is the way I should always feel. Why should I have to be plain old me when I could be super me. LOL
Leave it to the government to make something that makes you feel so good, illegal. LOL
Anon" Super Me " makes everyone happy
Glad your wife took the chance and saw what a good thing it is. Mine was nervous too.
RustyhookerTest has always made me feel upbeat. My bloods came back as being a-ok last time. Something about being on just makes me upbeat typically. Maybe because I'm spending my energy in a positive way? Maybe because the gym has always been my "punching bag" and it unloads me. The thing I've found this year is injury recovery wasn't fast. I'm used to cracked/broke ribs, hands etc. Couple Weeks and back tjo full speed. Maybe 41 was where i began to slow? Guess we shall see what this year brings.
AnonYes, its clearly such a multi faceted thing in our lives. Thats what I find interesting is how very diferent it has made so many things.
I have experienced something similar. My patience was greatly increased during my cycle. I went through one of the most trying times in my life and was I was able to maintain my composure. I was much easier for me to be understanding and sympathetic to others.
AnonYeah really interesting stuff right ? I mean its just so completely opposite of any preconceived notion I had.
I am only on the tail end of my first cycle but I completely understand. And what you are saying begs the question. How many men would go thru a "mid-life crisis" if they had testosterone in their lives?
I feel great, sure my strength is up, my BF% is slowly dropping and all that good stuff, but to me I am really loving the amplified libido and awesome state of mind. So I guess I am saying the muscles are a distant third. Maybe it is our age?
AnonPerhaps thats it, maybe its a fountain of youth thing, or perhaps we've just mellowed . Well whatever it is Im glad a few can relate
Maybe its you are truly more confident with yourself, you are happier with yourself. It could be that you had low test before, now you are giving yourself more it makes you feel better, less hormone fluctuations. But how you said you were cocky, usually people that are cocky are cocky because they feel the need to over compensate for something they feel they are missing
AnonYou mean like being cocky after winning a race, or fixing something someone else couldnt ? Those and times like it were the times I was cocky so there was hardly a need to compensate.
Thats the simple common answer, about more test, low test and its just to easy. Now I cant dispute that with fact because I never got measured, but there were no symptoms of low test. Sex drive was high, thick facial hair was there , you know some of the first signs a Dr would look at to treat you for low test.
I dunno but think theres more to it than this, maybe Im over thinking it.
I understand, just a few thoughts. But pretty much shoving it in somebodys face that you beat them in a race (cocky) is maybe you feeling the need to "cheerleader" for yourself, why? Could be because you felt the need to make yourself feel better, feel like the shit. n the only reason you would need that is because you doubted yourself or felt others were doubting you. Would you talk shit after you tied your shoes or helped your child with adding math problems? No. (I hope not lol) because it was simple n you KNEW you could do it. understand where Im coming from? now that you KNOW you are strong, ripped, etc whatever you gained from roids, its not that big of a deal, you have true confidence which is why yoi are more humble
AnonYou are soooo missing the concept. And who said anything about shoving anything in someones face ?? You are creating a whole scenario that couldnt be further from the truth.
Still thanks for your thoughts
Give them a vote if you find it helpful.PermalinkIsn't being cocky after winning a race pretty much like shoving it in their face? I took that concept from your first reply but ok ill stay out of it. Stay happy n moving in the right direction
Where the hell are you coming up with this? And why? Are you trying to compensate for something?
Within the contexts of his post he is talking about being "cocksure", confident and upbeat. Not the same as being a braggart as you are implying.
Pelon, looking at your age I can tell you do not understand what he is saying, you just can't , not yet anyway.
I do understand, I have studied psych in college. I could go way more into detail and also probably guess certain things that have happened in his life, childhood, but that's a whole different website lol
Book learning is knowledge, not understanding. It'll be years before you start to understand what you learned in college.
Oh, by the way, you're sounding a bit cocky...
I told him the scenario because i was trying to help him. Nov n I have had plenty of pm's of convos, I voiced my opinion to help.
as for you, Im sure yoi know that age is only a number, if you knew me and my life experiences is how I know most that I know, I use book knowledge to also back up my facts as I wouldn't want to say something solely based off of experience and that alone.
as for you, what would you like to talk about aside from judging my opinion and talking shit then voicing your own opinion? What makes you think you know more than me just off of stating your "books, understanding, etc"
His thread was not seeking help. And when he described himself as having been cocky you took it to mean the most negative definition of the word and then gratuitously followed up with some "psychobabble" on how he must be overcompensating for something. That comment alone was inflammatory and uncalled for. (But you know that from your psych class and vast worldly experiences)
icepirate tapped you on the shoulder and politely stated, in essence, that you are misinterpreting what Noviceaas is trying to say. You chose to stand your ground and escalate the situation rather than to back off.
Age is a number; but answer this honestly. At 5, 10, 15, and 20 years of age did you not feel at one time or another that you understood more than your parents? you had it all figured out? Now look at another 5, 10, 15, or 20 year old. Do you think they even have a clue?
You might want to rethink your position before you throw down the gauntlet comparing your "vast life experience" to that of a 54 year old.
I compare each person individually, I don't categorize race, age, etc n think they're all the same. I do understand what you are saying and you are correct to a sense. As for me interpreting what I did, that's how I interpreted it. I gave a few examples, I did not bash him at all or close to it. When he asked a question I gave an answer not knowing he wasn't looking for answers he had a different mindset for this thread. I want people to be happy which is why I tried to give ideas for what I thought was his question.
bringing up ice pirate, you would also see that before you chimed in that said that I was going to leave the thread alone. so idk why you are continuing to try and either discredit me or change my mind about something.
as for your age, Im sure you do have some excellent ideas and stories of things you have went through and if you want, you can help me with some of mine. maybe I can also help you with yours. Send me a fr if you wish. no bs neither
AnonIm sorry Pelon, I see you were trying to help. That just shows me for sure that we are on different wave lengths on this one.
The truth is I was trying to create an upbeat light hearted thread that I thought a lot of guys could relate to. Not start an argument or really try to find an answer. The truth is I really dont care how and why it happened, but its fun to think about and its fun to be in the place I am.
I know it takes two to tango, but your starting point for this one is just diferent than mine. I think Greg was just trying to say that too.
Ok my bad, I thought you were really looking for an answer why
lol, Remember what was said here in 15 years bro. It will all make perfect sense.
Lol I been through something similar. but my temper came back unfortunately