I have only injected once (Monday) with 200mg's of Test Cyp and 200mg's of EQ. Was planning on 400mg of each for 10 weeks.

The EQ gave me horrible nightmares and I have had anxiety since then. I have not used AAS in years, and was going to take this cycle to see how it affects me this go round, and I DO NOT like it. I have also taken Proviron at 50mg per day since Monday, and hit 250iu's of HCG on Monday and Wed (was going to do that 2-3 times per week just to keep the 'boys' full).

I wrote a long write up on the cycle forum, but to recap I am 33 years old, 6'1, 215 pounds, a rugby player, and have not used AAS in 8-9 years. I am IN-SEASON right now, but luckily I do have a good 2 weeks off until our next match. I just want to get to feeling normal again ASAP, right now, and I don't know if it is in my head of what, but I feel fat, weak, negative, etc etc. I realize that this is signs of increased estrogen, but who knows (wouldn't the proviron be mitigating that, though?).

I had a history before when I was younger of basically abusing AAS. It is not that I took massive amounts, but more so just using them 'correctly'. I honestly just do not think they react in my body normally now. When I used to inject test my dick would hang to my knees (ok almost:) ) , but now I feel almost the opposite happens. Something in the intricate web of hormomes is 'off' when I take exogenous hormones, although on nothing I feel I run pretty decent. I have also used some HGH and Peptides with some decent success, and I don't know why I ever thought it was a good idea to stray from that.

OK - do I need to run PCT? I do not particularly want to throw MORE hormones in my body, but I will if need be to get feeling better. I also have rugby to contend with, so I don't want to be out at training crying like a little bitch! I have everything on hand need (clomid, nolva, proviron), except an ai. I will admit right now - my package came in with alot of shit in there, and I started to look through it seemed it was all there. I already had the test and eq at the house, so I pinned that day. Lo and behold, no aromasin! I'm sure ya'll would tell me right now that it would help immensely, but honestly I am not sure! I also have IGF-1 Lr3 , which I have taken before, on the way and should arrive early next week. That should help things.

Some people just do not react like others, and I am trying to be mature about my decision. I'd appreciate responses that are helpful in nature and not telling me I am a fucking idiot (I already know that!). I'd like to be natural as possible, I'd like to feel better asap, and I'd like me for ya'll to tell me I will start feeling better soon cause right now I feel like garbage.

Thanks guy.