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Hey guys , I'm dim, 48 and trying to maintain..
It's not easy, I try to stay away from most compounds, I use just test. All the other shit just had too many sides.
47 year old….financial advisor the past 25 years but left my job last month since the market sucks so bad and they took away my salary for a shitty commission plan. So in a bad place unfortunately. I had to leave or else my 9 weeks of vacation time I never used would lose 80% of its value so I walked away to get paid.
Alcoholic, but a weird one…never felt comfortable at AA meetings because I only drink every 5-6 days when it hits me. But when I do drink, I drink like a fish and it’s not uncommon for me to drink for 20 hours straight. Everyone I met at AA when I tried it way back 20 years ago needed daily alcohol. I don’t. Never have. But it was rare for me to go more than 5 days without drinking and as mentioned I black out and just drink for a night into the next day consuming anything I can find.
Did some drugs as a kid, pretty much anything aside from needle stuff. Always loved pot, and still do. Wish it was legal. Lol. Since it isn’t and I’m unemployed I stay away from that too. But don’t do any other drugs anymore thankfully.
Other than that. Started working out when I was like 8 or 9 years old to take my mind off my parent’s divorce and I was big into sports. It helped me tremendously in both aspects.
Was an all natural religious kid. I never touched alcohol until age 17 after my older sibling committed suicide and destroyed my Brady bunch family. Been a 1-2 times a week closet drunk since then. Most people don’t know since I’m not very social anymore outside of work. Don’t have many friends anymore since I’ve gotten drunk throughout the years and said things I don’t remember to the ones I had.
Became a father at age 43 and had 3 in a row which is insane. So trying to be here as a dad as long as I can.
Living for my boys now. Been on TRT for 1.5 years and have only tried Deca and NPP since I had arthritis in my elbow from baseball pitching. Loved it but the side effects made me stop.
Just started a DHB and Test combo yesterday since I have read that awesome Makwa guy’s posts on here for several years.
Just trying to find a way to not be an old man for my young boys, and find motivation finally to give up evil alcohol which has controlled my life for 30 years…because even though I only drank every 4-5 days, it would take at least 3 days to recover from those 20-hour benders.
Thanks for listening and I’m sorry for the long post.
thank you for sharing, don’t apologize for the long post man that’s what we’re here for. That’s what I like to see. My father had somewhat of the same drinking schedule as you, because me and my siblings (3) and my stepmother would beg him to stop drinking or not to drink anymore and after every pick up and of course, he said he was done. but so often he would go to work and start drinking immediately that morning on the way to work I guess, and would always be some big over-the-top event that happened or thing that he fucked up before he did quit. alcohol was never really my thing I guess I can point my father for that mines been opiates ever since I was young about six grade probably. And I still have a back-and-forth battle till this day unfortunately but out of all my friends, the circle of friends that I had in high school and there after I’m literally the only one left still here, Dove free to reach out or PM me if you need to as much as you need to or anything thanks again for sharing. Hope you had a good Easter.
Thank you brother. Gosh, opiates took some of my best friends at a young age. Not sure why I never reacted to them, as I tried them and popped them while drinking, but alcohol was always my thing. For some reason they never stuck to me. Maybe I was too drunk to realize their effect to be honest.
My dad was a daily drinker but I never noticed it until my sister shot herself. Then he got bad, daily alcohol…. That’s also when I started hating the world and trying anything that came around. I’m lucky I stuck to alcohol even though that was bad enough.
I’ve been on this site trying to be motivated for several years….as working out got me through my parent’s divorce in the 1980’s and for whatever reason I found this site trying to get back in shape. Once I had kids I started taking it more serious again (working out). I just want to be a better person.
Since I read so much here I randomly saw a @press1 post and looked at his profile to randomly see the recovery group. I might need this more than the working out honestly.
Thanks again for having me.
Yeah that would be cool --
Great idea for a post buddy
Shaun, 46, Instrument Engineer at a refinery. 6'2" 250 pounds. I just got back in the gym last October after being out for about a year and a half. Did a cycle from January to March to get over the hump and will be starting another in May.