Let me start off by admitting that I am a complete amateur and I apologize for my ignorance. I am looking for some serious advice and really appreciate all input from you guys. I am 24 years old, 5'8" and about 175 lbs... Always been naturally athletic and in good shape (12-15% body fat)... I had a friend who used to be fat and was able to transform his body in less than a year on gear... I thought if he could get those results with his baseline, I should be able to transform into a monster with some gear... Anyway, I didn't do my homework and listened to a bunch of money motivated idiots that didn't care about my health... I went out and bought test prop (it was the only thing I could get my hands on at the time) after the 1st week of injecting I got an infection in my arm and had to get surgery to clean it... Not sure if the gear was bad or if the fact that I work in the ICU of a very dirty hospital was the cause of the infection... Anyways a year after that incident, I moved to Miami and began considering oral steroids.... This time, I did a little more research and started an oral cycle of 40mg anavar and some milk thistle for liver protection.... Well it's been 8 weeks of some VERY intensive training (not to mention no alcohol and a very clean diet) and the results are dis satisfying to say the least... (Had interruptions mid cycle due to a kidney stone and moving to another state and finding a new gym).... The reason why I am writing this is because I have been experiencing some very depressing thoughts and have had no sex drive lately.... Do I stop taking the Var immediately or do I taper off slowly??? Also, should I buy some clomid or nolvadex? Where do I begin to correct the problem? Should I buy test? Please help me out.... I am at the point where I am considering seeking medical attention, I just wanted to check the forums 1st because I don't have medical insurance at the time.........