This site is amazing. I've been reading a lot here and I appreciate any and all of the input given by each member. I've have/had hormone imbalance issues, and like some you out there, I don't have anyone (doc, family, friends, etc.) that I feel I can talk to. Hoping some of you may be able to give me answers or at least some "IMOs."

I'm 40 now, but age 33 I had severe panic attacks and was put on anti-depressants. The panic seemed to pass but I no longer felt "Manly." Severe decreased sexual desire, or really any desire at all. I'm in the VA system and over the course of 5 years they changed the anti-depressants type and amount to help find the answer to the severe melancholy I was suffering thru. Finally, I convinced them to check my Total Testosterone and it was in the tank at 247. I was given 1.5ml of 250 test c every two weeks. After a year of this my best Total-T score was 421. The urologist changed me over to Androgel 1.6% at 2 pumps a day (I thinks it's 20mg Test per pump) and after 6 months my Total T was 186! Doc increased the gel to 4 pumps a day and after 6 months my Total-T was 376.

Frustrated with the VA's approach to treating me and motivated by the fact I've bought more new shoes in the past 6 years than I've had sex, I decided it's time to start my own AAS dosing. After two doses of 250ml test e I had my Total Test checked and it was 1570 and, hell yeah, it feels like it too! For the first time in almost seven years I feel like me again!! now my interest in AAs is through the roof (again thank you eroids.com and members!) and there is much for me to learn, but for now I have one pressing question. The 2 months before my panic attacks when all of this shit started, a friend gave me 250 test c (i think c) per ml that I ran weekly (1ml) for 5 weeks. That cycle was the first (and last until recently) ever. No PCT and just the test c during that time. My question to the Bros is this...is it possible that after that cycle my natty shut down and never restarted? If likely, how likely? If so, would a PCT cycle now possibly jumpstart my natural production (now meaning if i stopped all injections and gels)? If so, with my natty shut down for so long, are my boys permanently retired?

I think that was more than one question. Appreciate all input. I didn't provide much personal info (wt, ht, labs, etc) in hopes of keeping it short. More than happy to share that to help generate feedback. Much respect to you all!