My Apology and Reconciliation
First of all I am here to say I have fucked up. I have fucked up in more ways than one pissed off a lot of people along the way. I want to take this moment to APOLOGIZE to all I have ever offended pissed off and unnecessarily called out. Secondly I would like to tell you all a litttle bit about myself so you can maybe understand where I am coming from. I have a rare Auto-Immune Disease called Evans Syndrome. It is a rare disease that has had my Dr. prescribing me Anadrol at 200mg per day for 6 weeks while I was in the ICU with a Hemoglobin of 2. My heart had crashed from not receiving enough oxygen. I died. I was brought back by a Defibrilatior and placed back on life support. This happened 2 days after I had started the Anadrol for the first time in the 10th grade my sophomore year of high school. For those of you that may or may not know AAS is prescribed to treat certain medical conditions. I have what is called Evans Syndrome. The FDA has approved Anabolic Steroids for the use of treating even curing low blood counts. ONE WEEK after dieing my hemoglobin went from 2 to 8 in just 4 days at 200mg per day!!! We all know Anadrol and certain other orals increase red blood cells so this became a miracle drug! I was also prescribed 150mg per week of Nandralone which we all know as Deca. It too has the medical ability to strengthen and add to the length of life for the red blood cells and platelets. In Evans Syndrome the B cells and T cells destroy platelets and red blood cells for no reason.
Now onto the main reason for writing this is to apologize for what arrogance I displayed and for the disrespect to any mod or advanced member who did provide good legitimate advice. I understand that respect for me wont just happen over night but I hope that this apology will be a step in the right direction.
In my defense. Viking Power had given and suggested a diet for me to increase calories and help me lose weight. I got bashed for posting progess pics harassed and unjustly negged and made fun of. Why would you make fun of someone who sought help from a mod or professional on this site to better him or herself? No effing reason for it. THAT is what pissed me off and started that semi-destructive path. I HAVE BEEN AAS FREE SINCE MARCH 2ND FOLLOWING A PERFECT PCT losing 16lbs that cycle and still keeping it all off. Was it dumb? should I have waited? should I have done that NATURALLY? YES TO ALL! I have made a lot of mistakes here on eroids yes I've come a long ways and have a lot to be proud of but I should have listened to ALL of you who told me it could have been done NATURALLY. I plan to drop another 20lbs and be 15-16% body fat by the time the EBC starts if I do not reach this goal it is likely I will withdraw from the EBC and wait for the next one.
NOW if any of you have PROFESSIONAL criticism and would like to post below please do I WELCOME IT and am prepared to LISTEN. I have learned that those pros on this forum that I have listened to in the past and most recently Pmob Viking Monk and Sumatra Triangle as well as Rusty I have succeeded more than I expected. If you are going to say something negative about a post, cycle or goal of mine PLEASE don't just -1 me and actually explain why disagree or why it should be done differently.
As for the -1s I had 408 karma the other morning and in less than 24 hours it dropped to 398 now I know if the mods reduce karma they tell you that you fucked up. This just tells me that people don't want to see me at the ADV rank that they're just negging and -1 because they want to without reason.
I have manned up and APOLOGIZED. I do not ask for your trust right away but I would like to ask for your respect. Not to toot my own horn but I had a message returned to me a while back of someone I had offended saying it takes a big man to step up and apologize. In the next day or so I will be posting my current diet and goals for CRITIQUE. I would like and appreciate as much professional criticism as possible
Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my apology and for those of you that respond I thank you for your time as well! God bless eroids!
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AnonL m a o
That's the same shit you told me in the Eroid van the other night...
Flockaflamer! Whatever you do don't show your ass! It is not worth it!!!!
AnonI negged u cuz my fat thumbs couldn't copy n paste. Maybe a mod can fix that.
Anyhow I wanted to past this:
So in the same post you mention that this is the internet like it's meaningless and to finish your post you are asking for an apology???
I'm confused bro. Which one is it. Is the internet serious or not. You talk like it's meaningless yet demand an apology. Sorry but that makes absolutely no coherent sense to me.
• OXYMORON : a figure of speech in which apparently contradictory terms appear in conjunction (e.g., faith unfaithful kept him falsely true ).
Im confused why he is still here ???............ Both should be perma banned imo
I negged that dumb ass shit too and if he has anymore asinine shit to say I'll neg him again.
Cool story bro! Glad we don't scare you. Ya know since you're a grown ass man and this being the internet and all. Not like I can reach out and bust your face open through the screen ya know? But I'm glad you're not scared! That's a good thing bro! Good shit! For real!
As for homeboy , yeah we can all see that something is off! Not my job to figure out what or hold anyone's hand. I'm not a shrink and I'm not a babysitter. And we owe you an apology? Did you hit your fuckin head? Did you even read what I said? This isn't fuckin high school! You're men! You should be able to work through shit like men! Well most ppl here are. You're acting like a kid honestly. Probably are. Now I think you owe us an apology for demanding an apology for that ridiculous bullshit!
AnonI want an apology for reading about him asking for an apology and now you asking for an apology for him asking for an apology and that honestly makes me feel left out. Can we line up and apologize at the same time. Cuz all this apologizing and I'm all lonely n shit got me wanting to be a part of this circle jerk of apologies. I'm sorry bro I rant therefore I owe you an apology for me talking about you wanting an apology for him asking for an apology. I apologize papi.
swolsterUr a dirty lil spic
AnonYou owe me an apology hahahahahahaha!! Bring me my morning paper then make my coffee mijo
StevebThought you were Mexican
Hey since everyone is demanding an apology, I guess I'd like an apology too. Just because if you guys are getting apologies, I sure as hell should be getting an apology. It's just not fair that everyone is getting one and I don't. I fricken love apologies. That shit just makes me feel good.
Ed were sorry that u was raised in house with lead paint which clearly lead to some brain damage
Apology accepted. Thank you friend.
But the paint chips taste sooooo good!
My favorite is the beige ones
I like to make a paint chip cockroach sandwich. Mmmm
Now I want one from you! Off topic with Dreday. 1 hour sugar tush :-*
Wait, are you calling me "sugar tush"like you did the other day at the club or the other day with the club? This shit confuses me when you play with my emotions.
Lmao hey CD I apologize for getting mad that one time big hugs
AnonI apologize for being such a dick you felt you needed to apologize.
Bro, you are out of line on this one. The mods were fair. I suggest you think about all of this and formulate and apology. You seem like a good guy, just misguided this time.
Lol dude how old are u. Asking for an apology the mods did nothing wrong. All the mods did was tell people not to personally attack him. How many guys here are lying come on bro. Countless dudes saying there not cycling and they are lol. This is the funniest post of the day
flockaflame02They did nothing wrong? Thry stuck up for this pos all the time threatening to ban members i speak my mind i dont hold back
Listen my man, I will do everything EXACTLY THE SAME WAY if it were to happen again! You can kiss my ass if you don't like it. Nobody is holding you hostage here. Who the fuck do you think you are and what do you think this site is? This shit is so fuckin stupid I can't believe I'm entertaining it.
Bro I don't even know if this is junior high shit here lol. Imagine a site where every one is a grown ass men. make your job a lot easier
Wow dude u sound like your better than everyone here. Who cares if someone doesn't have abs maybe there a power lifter. Who cares bout there progress everyone has a right to be here.Don't be so judgemental of people. People did attack him at times and yes the mods told people not to attack him wow the mods was so in the wrong lol.do I agree with what jk did .no not at all but to attack the mods bc all they said was don't personally attack someone or u will get banned is the right move. If people was attacking u guess what the mods would do the same thing which they should do. We are all men here right? Grow up dude
flockaflame02I dont think im better than anyone the problem is dude is a shitbag hes over on (CENSORED) now thinkin hes the shit
look my man, I think you have completely missed the point, I'm feeling generous today so let me spell it out. you say Nitti was holding his hand, first that member had the balls to reach down deep inside himself and take action to better himself and improve his health and appearance, it took even more testicular aptitude to do so publicly by posting pictures of his progress. then, unethical, immoral bullies flamed him for it. Now Nitti being on top of what he does here honorably shut that shit down and called these guys out. where's the hand holding ask? that's great you don't fear our moderates but you damb will respect them if you want to have a long prosperous relationship here. that's their job and what they do, they deserve it. you've made some annoying comments and haven't shown much gratitude in your tenure here, imho you really need to look in the mirror and ask yourself are you contributing anything other than self serving attention. be real, doesn't matter that member lost his mind overnight and is acting accordingly elsewhere. your comment was directed to one event, let me guess you're the type of guy who would pick fun of a mentally challenged person or at best stand by idly while oother's did. catch my drift yet? usually I don't jump in the blanket party however your attitude towards people here led me to speak.
AnonWhat's (CENSORED)? Is that a gym or something? I heard it's like curves?
Lmfao it's a curves rip off I think
Who cares lol. Good for him u sure your 29? I've got real problems so do the mods and other poeple. Your mad now cause he's on a different thread. Who care if he thinks he the shit there wow. Can't wait to see how many mods think they owe u an apology
I fucking LOVE this reply, word for word.
Because he's overweight and tries hard and gets no love from society basically. I mean he did almost die and he's trying his darnest to recoup and get fit. It's not about kissing his ass, he's like the kid that was always bullied in high school and I like to give kids encouragment. Random people Neg him just because hes over weight and honestly I have great genetics, but why should I down others that dont. He cries for attention and is constantly shut down by society, he doesn't have many friends and is just plain annoying at times. He has been on eroids forever and he just barely reached adv status. He gets picked on all the time by people. The only way he Knows how to Deal With People Is To Become Defensive And argumentive, because he's used to having to defend himself constantly. He's a typical child seeking attention at times. In essence I welcome everyone, its just the internet and if I can slightly motivate those really need it I have done my job. I have always been semi popular and a jock, but never the type that looked down on other people for their beliefs or because I thought I was better than them. You have great genetics and so do I, its nothing for us to post a pic...Someone that's not as blessed physically like us it take a lot more to post the same pic and add ridicule and it's a recipe for disaster. I dunno I have a thing for the less fortunate I guess. I don't like people being picked on, I dunno that's just me.
Your attitude would suck too if people constantly( over the internet), kept telling you, that you weren't good enough. He might have a mental issue he sure acts like it, but don't we all? He's always acting out, because of constant ridicule. He joined almost every ebc and never came close to a win. He does try to pull weight at times and that just because nobody respects his rank. Face it if a female were to post a body pic she would get an easy 50 karma! Him maybe 2 with like a -4 attached. If he does challenge you than by all means attack, but he never gave me a reason to judge, redicule, hate, demean or hate him. I work at a psych hospital and I Constantly deal with the less fortunate and crazy. I guess you can say i have a soft heart. :(
^^^^--This is what I wrote through Pm, when asked about him
I have wanted to post something similar but have been on the fence about which way to lean. On one hand he was in my opinion unjustly ridiculed and on the other he was lashing out at members and negging them for no reason. I think he has some serious issues he is dealing with and the way he was treated did not help. Unfortunately I believe he is dealing with emotional and mental health issues as well as the physical ones we have heard he is dealing with. This is a recipe for disaster. I hope I amwrong. He obviously holds his place here very dearly as most of us do. I hope that something positive can come from this.
Hmm I dont know what just happened. I hit reply to this post and got the this post has been removed comment we always see. so I came back to the thread and found his comment removed and yours still here? I dont know how that even can happen!
Because I replied to someone without reading his comment completely and after posting that one I realized he was agreeing with me and I just went on that rant simply because I didn't thoroughly read his comment. So instead of wasting all that typing and my thoughts, I moved it to the top so my man down there didn't bug out. :-)
damb it man, I'm confused boss, Nitti wasn't he the cat you stuck up for in relationship to him posting up progress pics making a positive change and body transformation while others mocked him? and if I'm not mistaking he also kept his cool and character while they hammered him. if so, people never cease to amaze me. smh
Thanks Nitti for handling this. I initially wanted to avoid any negative stuff. I had my suspicions that it was him over the last week knocking my karma down but I wasn't going to make a big deal out of it. Then comes this post up top, I called bullshit in my head immediately. I went to his most recent cycle log where he was told to stay away until he gets in shape and has something to show, well in there he had also returned and spouted off all kinds of crazy again not two days ago. Then with each passing positive post he got here he got more emboldened, next you see him calling out Nittii and the mods in the Humility thread, lol
Point is, this has been his pattern for the entire time I have been here. Post pics,go nuts, play victim, garner sympathy, attack, repeat...
If my ten karma is the price for getting rid of him then I say, "you got yourself deal Mister!"
Roid called it right, he is a J-cat. And that is my new favorite word. lol
RustyhookerDamn. Finally had time to read the other post. Definitly not good to piss on someone like pale rider when he does work hard to help everyone.
Brother you have my full support! How dare he disrespect any member with such vulgarity and he's done it quite often! It's also very disrespectful to the ladies in our community! Childish and juvenile games with karma, c'mon we're adults here!
If you can't take helpful constructive criticism then don't post pics, plain and simple!
He definitely suffers from a very low sense of self and has major anger problems! +1 to give back what was needlessly taken away! As is usual you are spot on brother!
Thank you Theophany, your words are always of great comfort. But truth be told and to my surprise my karma was restored. Thank you Nitti, I really did not expect that.
I posted below taking up for him not knowing what was going on. After reading up I am glad he did not reply to me which enabled me to delete.
IMO that's not the way an advance member or any other member here for that matter should act. There is no excuse for taking Karma from a respected member out of spite.
likewise, Didnt realize the level of shenanigans he was involved it.
Me either.
Don't sweat it guys. Just about everybody here on this site means well. You throw one J-cat into the mix and you get this.
Anyone other than PaleRider who thinks this guy hit their karma, pm me
JK703 is temporarily banned for disrespecting numerous members (well respected ones) far too often and for far too long! Also, for abusing his karma privileges by taking karma from those same members who only tried helping with constructive criticism. I'm not sure if I want to leave the ban tag or let him back but with a serious dock in karma. Like take enough karma away that will take away his ability to give/take from others!
AnonI think the ban was a good idea and wondered why it hasnt happened... guess yall gave him plenty chances to act right...
he's what you call a J-cat!