I wanted to share my experience with all the new member that are new to AAS. This is not another thread on how you are making a mistake starting AAS to young or how fucked up your first cycle is. This is a no bullshit account of what happened to me when I did my first cycle, if that is what you want to call it. I want NO KARMA for this, I am writing this in hopes of saving someone from making the same, or worse mistakes I did.

I decided I wanted to try steroids but I didn’t want to stick myself so I looked into orals and found what I thought would be a good starting point; winny. I made the purchase online and off I went. I didn’t know anything about PCT, dieting. or how to properly run a cycle. I really thought these magic pills will make it all better.

Was I fucking wrong, I began taking the winny, and after few weeks I began to notice my strength increasing. So I had another brilliant idea, what about adding some size. In came the dbol. That wasn’t enough either so I said Halo sounds great. Bigger increase in strength fuck yea! So I have the winny to cut me up, the dbol for the size and the halo for the strength. I am fucking brilliant.

WRONG, any gains I made were gone. I looked and felt like a blob of shit. The depression was crippling, to the point I contemplated killing myself, I had a plan and all. The only thing stopping me at that time was my son. My wife had enough of my drunk ass, oh yea I picked up heavy drinking as my hobby. I shit you not I lived like this for at least 3 years. She was tired of looking at the shell of a man she married and asked me to leave. That was the day it hit me, I needed help. So I looked up shrinks in a phone book and choose the closest one to my house. Going to therapy helped me get out of that rut, along with some antidepressants.
Fast forward to present day, I no longer need antidepressants, my marriage is better than ever and I have my life back. This is what happens when you rush into something that you truly don’t understand. I urge you if you are going to use AAS please make sure you know what you are doing. Please seek advice from someone. AAS may not have contributed to what happened to me but I think it did. Be safe.