Discretion
How discreet are you about your useage ?
My wife knows, and about three close friends know but thats it. I do wonder though when people see the transformations that occur what do they think ?
If a friend asked you how you are getting in such great shape would you tell them the truth ? I think one guy last week was fishing for info.
My other problem is my children. I try not to do things in front of them, but anyone who has kids knows they see and hear a lot more than you often think. My kids have opened the bathroom door and seen my wife giving me a shot. I have told them its a vitamin B shot. Still though if they ever told a teacher or another parent that "my daddy injects vitamins every week" I think it could be a problem.
I dont like having things in my life that I have to lie about or keep secret, but I understand this must remain private. There are too many people that would not understand or condone what I am doing, and that is one aspect about this that does bumm me out a bit.
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aylmejorPretty much everyone aroun me. I don't even really tell anyone. When asked I feel no reason to hide it. I'm not ashamed. Then you have those so called friends that think it's funny to just bust you out in front of everyone that's what really bothers me
So a couple of weeks ago I had a situation that truly crushed me as a user. So since I was fresh to AAS when I was diagnosed Hypogonadism my immediate family is all aware of my use. My Wife, mother , Sister, couple of cousins and my best friends know about my use. Since the beginning of the year I've been doing what Hollywood was saying "Dieting down". All the previous cycles upt to this year have been about size and power gains exclusively.
Since my decision to blow up my set of goals from before this year I have come down 40 lb and my mass has become as consipcuous as female naked mudwrestling in the middle of Sunday Church service. I mean I have never looked better in my whole life. It doesn't take a genius to guess I'm on something.
Up until 2 weeks ago life was good and carefree. Then my 13 yr old Nephew who is my fucking heart, my soulmate tells me at my Moms house that he wants to start training with me. I was so excited and proud I honestly had a "That's my boy" moment. Then came "Tio I want to take the stuff you take to get big. I want to look like you!". My ears immediately perked up and he hits me again with "How old do I have to be to start that stuff". I tried changing up the subject and he came back with, "Do u put that stuff in your shakes?"
I'm so big on being a real role model for this child I seriously have been involved in this young man's life like he was my son. To hear them words come out of his mouth just broke my heart!! There's very few people who's opinions of me matter at all and he is right at the top of that list. I felt like a piece of shit junkie for almost two whole days! I managed to recover gracefully cuz the next day I went to his house and got his ass ready and took him to the gym!!!! We worked our asses off and this beast was squating 135 like it was nothing!! He's 5'8" Probably 185 lb and has a size 12 shoe!! He's 13! All we did for 2 hours was Cardio and legs:-) I wanted to see if he'd quit! Most guys hate legs cuz it's so strenuous but not him! He loved it!
So we went to get some breakfast right after the gym and I sat him down and asked him what he knew about what he said the day before. He said he's heard me and my sister talking about my shots and knows I take hormones. I told him the whole rundown about what they are and why my Dr wanted me to start taking them. I explained what HPT axis was and endogenous/exogenous test was. Told him about how every man one day will lose their Testosterone but that some men have it happen sooner then others. I also told him how dangerous it is for somebody who already has a lot of endogenous Test in their system to use it. I've never felt ashamed of my use but this situation was the closest I've ever come to feeling that way. There is a time to deny and there's a time to put ur cards out on the table. You just have to trust ur gut instinct.
Sounds like you handled it exactly right. And that kid is lucky. He's got you to keep him on the path. And if he is devoted, sticks with it and, when the time is right, still wants to experiment with AAS, he will not fall into the trap of all the young guys who start too soon and have no idea what they are doing.
But he may never need or want them. And what is more likely is that you have given this young man the gift of a lifetime of fitness, self-confidence and high physical function through your example and by introducing him to the iron. I know it is one of the greatest gifts of my life that I started young and have kept at it. I look and feel like men half my age and I'm grateful for it.
Feel good about it. You have given him a huge leg up in life.
I know exactly what thats like brother
AnonThats a great story, it sounds like you handled it perfectly.
The thing that strikes me is he obviously trusts you to ask you. A lot of people dont get that from kids, nephews .Im sure you are indeed an excellent role model for him.
We've been inseparable since he was born. His dad is into drugs bad and did us all a favor by staying away from my nephew and sister. Best gift he has ever given his son.
I love that story brother. I've been put in very similar situations. I don't see how you could have handled it any better. I think the worst thing you could have done was just blow it off. Good deal.
My own opinion is keep anything and everything away from your kids that even looks remotely bad. Injecting yourself in front of any kid, child,teenager is unacceptable. Again this is just my opinion I have a son and he would never know or see me doing any injection. My fear is that he would one day think that jabbing yourself with a needle is okay because he saw Daddy do it. Your wife or husband is one thing if you are in a trusted relationship but if not keep it out of their knowledge. Even the B12 excuse it's still not okay but again it's just my 2 cents. Also it's never a lie unless you tell a lie.
Anonplease I hope you dont missunderstand me, my one son opened the bathroom door it was completely unexpected, I didnt intend for him to see.
I agree with you about how we should protect what they see
I completely understand with kids...shit happens. I just know a lot of people that talk about what they do with girlfriends and family and I do not see the point. This is your business and it's a touchy subject and gives people a way to form an opinion. So it gives hormone replacement a bad rap when for teh correct use and age requirement its a life saver!
Its your business. No need to broadast it to anyone. That new gnc prohormone is just amazing stuff. Unless you get gigantic....its all your business.
Honesty and discretion are two differnt things bro. Do you broadcast your predaliction for ben-wa balls to the neighbors? NO! Why? Cuz it's none of their business.
I have always kept my AAS usage sensible and modest to the point of questionable but not obvious. The irony is that I think I'm raisng more eyebrows this past year dieting down and recomping than when I was holding weight LOL! Go figure!
So my suggestion would be to go slow and modersate and don't go for beast mode all at once
AnonThanks thats a good thing to remember about honesty and discretion.
Im not going for beast mode ever, but even so peoplwe are giving me looks and comments.
I also think about when I was a kid I remember my uncle smoking a particular "cigarette" that smelled in a particular way. Years later I still remembered and recognized that smell. I just dont want to make any mistakes that my kids might see and put together ten years from now.
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