You are Not Alone my man! All we can do is the best we can, with what we've got. Especially as we get older. I've been through some shit and am still going through shit. Just don't let it beat you up and get you all down on yourself.

You definitely arent alone, in February 2025 I had a ruptured ulcer and almost bled out internally, my wife found me unconscious in the bathroom having a seizure in a puddle of bloody vomit. I spent a week in the hospital on a liquid diet having endless tests ran in me. Over the last year I have had 3-4 Dr appointments every month with specialist and my primary care Dr. Just trying to figure out what caused it and how to control it. I have had 3 upper endoscopies 2 colonospies and countless blood work to the point my arms look like a junkie with track marks from shooting up. Every time I feel like I can get back into the gym I have another set back, currently I am getting iron infusions because I have iron deficiency anemia and I am extremely fatigued from just walking across the house, Dr's cant figure out why, I haven't donated blood in over a year I take iron supplements I eat as much red meat as I can and eat more greens than anyone should ever have to eat and my last labwork showed my iron saturation at 10. To top it off I have to now cut back on the red meat because triglycerides are high, hdl is low and ldl is high because I have been eating so much red meat for the iron. I have been on 120mg a week for TRT for the last year just watching all my gains slip away and seeing my body go back to where it was when I first started TRT and I dont really know when I will be able to get back to the gym. I have tried a few times but with low iron and no energy it feels pointless, I can't even get in any kind of meaningful workout when I'm already exhausted just from walking from my car across the parking lot to get to the gym. I just keep pushing I know shit will get sorted out and I will get back to the gym and this dumpy dad bod that is slowly coming back will be gone again.

Honestly mate, after talking to thousands of members on here over the years in both PM and Forums - there are so many people going through some kind of shit fucking up their training that you don't even realise unless you know them, do not think you are alone. When I first got heavily back in to training and for the first time using Steroids 12 years back now - I had some really good runs of having no issues, illness's or injuries at all. Those long, nice runs are often the times you make the best gains as nothing reverses or undoes everything you've built, but as time you goes on you begin to learn those times are quite rare. It becomes easier when you stop fighting the frustration and just go with it and accept whatever you are going through - say to yourself that none of it is your fault and that in time you will be better again, there is nothing else you can do about it.

And Bro, I know how it feels. A year ago I got Bronchitis for the first time which destroyed my training for just short of 6 weeks, not being able to eat, continual coughing fits and puking up lung phlegm. However when I was better I gave it everything I had to get back to where I was at - choking back EAA's twice per day, shakes, Oral steroids, regimented sleep, forgoing social events etc and just about got there. Then 2 months or so late - BANG I get fuckin Covid for 3 weeks. Lose basically everything I had just built back up and back to square one nearly again. Over the Xmas period as a result of hitting back too hard and my RTC's being very sore last session, I still then do a heavy bench session and manage to slightly tear my left one for the first time ever which in turn halted the lift for 3 to 4 months where I was stuck at what I call base strength. It never ends bro - just be thankful you don't earn your living from it like an IFBB Pro, you can pick things up when you want to. Try your best to not look at it all too seriously and appreciate its just a really fun hobby that makes you feel insanely good when everything is going well. Take the rough with the smooth as with anything in life.

Damn, this sucks! I would do everything I could to stay active. Lifting may not be in the cards, but what about light swimming? 3 wheel bike? Walking trails with a small amount of weight? Hope you get squared away soon bro

My man, let your body recover. Having a hard body is worthless if you are in a coffin. Chill out, let your body heal, ensure all cancerous cells are out, then hit the gym with light weights and some walking.