You know those days when it just hasn't been well "good" or maybe weeks,months you get my point. Well mine has been crappy all day and for the last 2 years its been a roller coaster ride that will not come to an end. I am a dam good person in my opinion and many others. I take care of 3 daughters as a single father an ex wife that; well if im the one in custody of my daughters;that should explain her. right after my divorce lost our 5K sqf house 1.2mill shattered my knee and tibula platue down to about the middle of my shin. I sat in the trauma center for 2 weeks having my leg and knee rebuilt while my daughters stayed at home fending for them self's (well my dad would come over and help)but hard on us all. I forced myself through a quick 3 month rehab in order to get back to work, man did that shit hurt. Was forced out of our house shortly after going back to work. The girls and I had to downsize to a 900sqf home from 5000sqft. I think my old master bd was bigger then this whole house. Any of you know what its like living with 3 teenage daughters in a fucking box? pardin my french. So now im looking to work anywhere in order to catch up for all my losses and attorneys uuuuugggghhh.Im sent to work 4hrs from home for 3months 12-16hr days on a hydro turbine walking up and down stairs carring heavy shit with a fucked up leg that would swell over my boot daily. Leaving my daughters on their own cause daddy has to work and pay bills. Now finally shit starts to roll my way. Whew that this day was never going to come. Until my mom showed up! I love my mom to death but the woman is a raving loonatic! She needed to park her fith wheel behind my house and stay for a month or so. Waiting for my step dad to come home on leave from the navy. Bear in mind she also had my 90 year old grandpa with her and her month turned into 6 months of hell. She ran my elec bill and all other bills through the roof, im left to pay them. Finally she leaves. love you mom "dont come back" joking.Now i clean up her nasty mess she leaves behind. Things are cool again working steady saving money etc etc. I am on my way home from work one day stopped in a sudden traffic jam on the freeway, chillin waiting then FUCKING BAM. This dude rear ends me like at 50 miles an hour. I dont seem to be in to bad of shape, so I go back to work 3 days later shits hurtin cant even push 200lbs wtf. I get an MRI go back to work a month later i am absolutly fucked. Cant lift shit almost pissing and shitting myself. Doc takes me off work, I see a spine specialist I brought my MRI in as he asked. The doc takes one look at them and says YOU NEED SURGERY NOW. WOW WTF. back into surgery i go cervical disc replacement which later on I found out he installed the wrong PART.... So 3days after surgery I go home. An old friend from the MARINES calls me. :hey bud im moving out to cali with my wife and daughter you think it would ok if we stayed with you until I get on my feet again: sure bud, mind you this guy has been through hell and back and again. Of course im going to help him. Oh but he doesnt have enough money to get from NH to CA. so i help him out. Well I didn't realize him and his wife were "junkies" So during my recovery I had to help them recover. They stayed here for 3 months 'remember 900sqf house. Well i kept them clean as long as I could, I guess they needed the dope more. So they scrounged and stole enough money to get back to NH. Were I guess the dope is easier to find! what ever. Then no more than a month after they leave, I get a call from my cousin I havn't heard from in a while :hey man can i borow your car? Fuck no! Later on I find out he needs help. So i drive to pick up his sorry ass and start a detox on him give him a place to stay and got him a good job he started doing well. Then he stole my Fucking Accord and drove to Lousiana.
Now I have had it!! Its time for me to start a cycle get rehabilitated work out all this dam frustration push some weights,pull out of this god foresaken funk I'm in. So I look to my only known source and dude is gone "gone" I am like fuck,ok. Now what? A friend says go online dude their everywher, hes right but who the fuck do you trust. So I stumble upon Eroids do a little research and they look hella cool and legit. Now I am pumped man I mean littraly pumped. I find this source looks hella legit man good looking shit. I email a couple of times seems cool I beline to grab a payment and made an order thinking fuck yea i can be one of the first and I will stock up on this shit if legit. Now I shit you not MY fucking testosterone is already pumping I cant sleep I am already pre work out rehab mode. I look for the mail truck everyday almost like a dumb ass im sure, I dont know never ordered shit before so im stoked like some goddam kid getting his first BB gun for X-mas or first piece of ass.

Then fuck pre ejaculation!!!

mos tof you probably wont read this whole book I wrote, please if you do accept my apologies if i did step out of line on a thread. I meant no disrespect I am venting some built up frustrations. I am sure some might be able to understand.

The
jester